I cried and cried into Bradley's lap begging him to give me another chance. His silence was creating tension in the air. I felt my voice strain and crack as I sunk my head down deeper into Bradley's lap. I held onto his hands tighter afraid that if I let go he would slip away from me forever.  "Bradley please... I love you... and I'm sorry" I begged as I had begun to sob all over again. The silence was killing me " TALK BRADLEY! SAY ANYTHING PLEASE!" I shouted. "Max let go..." he finally spoke "no..." I replied crying " Max enough!" Bradley chanted as I shook my head " MAX I SAID LET GO DAMN IT!" He shouted trying to pull his hands away and when he managed to I quickly wrapped my arms around him and hugged him tightly. He was still on the chair and I was still on the ground " MAX!" He shouted. He'd begun to punch my back but I just couldn't. I didn't want to let go " YOU'RE ALL I WANT BRADLEY! I LOVE YOU!" I shouted " NO YOU DON'T!" He replied as I sobbed harder " I DO! I LOVE YOU! WHAT WILL IT TAKE TO MAKE YOU FORGIVE ME?! What will it take for me to prove to you how much I care?! Please Bradley! After everything!" I cried out as he tried to push me off "no no no! Stop!" He shouted as I let go of his waist and stood up quickly. I didn't know what came over me. But when I stood I grabbed his cheeks and kissed his lips. He froze in place stunned. I could feel him melting into the kiss before he came back to his fucked up senses and shoved me off of him " WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TAKE THE REJECTION?!" He shouted " BECAUSE I CAN'T BRADLEY!.... I-....." I needed to regain myself as I looked at him " I know you love me too" I said softly as he shook his head "no I don't"

Those words hurt me as if a bus drove full speed and crashed into me. I couldn't take it "you don't mean that Bradley..." I said softly. His gaze was hardening though... " Bradley I just kissed you and I felt you melt into that kiss I know you still love me" I mentioned. That made him go quiet. This time the silence made me smile a little, the fact that I still had hope. But then he shook his head "Max go away" he begged.

I went silent " Bradley please..." I begged one last time "Max..... leave me... now" he said sternly. I went quiet yet again. I was so shocked by his persistence. But I nodded "fine then... does that mean we're done?" I asked as he nodded "yes" he said with confidence. Like his answer has been finalized. All I could do now was nodded and sniffle "okay then..." I said softly. I felt so awkward now. I had nothing else I could do. "Fine...." I sighed. " it was nice while it lasted..." I said before leaving. I opened the door and slammed it behind me as I walked down the hallway and then down the stairs. I couldn't help but feel this overwhelming and aching pain in my chest. I couldn't even leave the gamma house before sobbing.

Once I entered my car. I drove back to the dorm but I didn't exit immediately. I stayed in the car and rested my head on the steering wheel. I gripped my shirt, specifically the area right over my heart as I sobbed profusely as I felt this overwhelming pain aching through out my body. Breaking up with Roxanne didn't hurt nearly as much as breaking up with Bradley did. This was the second time which was even worse than the first considering I knew it was my fault as to why this all happened.

I had spent an hour sobbing in the car before I was ready to walk back into my dorm. When I did Bobby immediately noticed my distress appearance. His eyes softened as he gently called "Max? You okay man? What happened?" He asked as I sniffled " Bradley and I broke up... and it's all my fault" I said softly, my voice cracking somberly. "When did you get back in touch with Bradley?" He asked as I sniffled "only for a little bit but I fucked up so badly..." I said clasping my hands over my face as I sat on my bed. "What did you do?" Bobby asked sitting up. "I told his dad he was in trouble even though he told me not too. But it was the only way I could've  saved him." I said as Bobby hummed "see... knowing Bradley's da that's pretty horrible man. But on the other hand... I think you still have a shot man. You just have to be persistent man! I think you can do it!" Bobby smiled " But I-.." Bobby then interrupted " ARE YOU GONNA LET THIS HEART BREAK TAKE OVER MAX?! ARE YOU GONNA LET THE LOVE OF YOUR LIFE JUST RUN AWAY?!" He shouted as I flinched "n-no?" I said softly. Bobby always does this when I'm on the verge of giving up " THEN GET UP! AND GET YOUR MANS BACK!!" He shouted as I sniffled " yeah!! But... how do I do that?" I asked "oh honey.. you gotta ask PJ that question. I'm not the one to talk to about relationship advice" he said. I sighed but at least he was truthful.

I texted PJ asking what he would do and he eventually replied "buy him a bouquet of flowers" knowing Bradley I had to be specific. I looked up June birth month flower which was honeysuckle and roses. I didn't just buy a little though I bought a big ass amount. I had to take out a loan for these flowers.... Not only that but PJ also mentioned I should use my guitar skills to serenade him a song. I knew electric guitar so I thought serenading him wouldn't be hard but extremely cringe..... I was desperate though and knowing Bradley he would've enjoyed the desperation.

I had to get extra shifts to cover my debt for these flowers. Regardless, when I finally had them I had thought something was missing.... A big obnoxious teddy bear. I went back in my car and was EXTREMELY picky about what teddy bear I wanted. The workers there who were just trying to do their job grew so fed up. I apologized every five seconds since I felt bad for being so picky. But this is Bradley we're talking about.

I set the bear next to the roses and honeysuckle bouquet that was twice my size. I knew something was missing..... I sighed realizing that I should get him a promise ring too. I WAS IN TOO DEEP! So I went back into my car and drove off again. I tried to find a ring within my budget but I couldn't. Everything was so fucking expensive and I already spent a fuck ton of money. I gave up and looked for something else....

So that's how we end up here now... I'm sitting in the middle of my dorm looking up video tutorials of how to make a diy beaded bracelet. I used specific colors, blue and black to match our eyes and in the middle I put a heart in the middle to be cheesy. Of course the bracelet kept on breaking over and over again but I finally managed to get it. I put it in a perfectly wrapped gift box and when everything was done I drove off to the gamma house. When arriving I texted Bradley.

"Come outside I have to show you something"
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