Max Max Max~

I stayed in the cafe for hours on that couch talking to Max and forgetting every worry in the world I had previously before running into him. His smile, his laugh and his beautiful eyes keep me entranced and distracted. It's as if I was the artist and he was my muse. I absolutely adore every breathtaking minute I have getting to stare at this man. His laugh brings me comfort for it's silly and goofy charm. The gap tooth in his teeth made him utterly adorable and-....

I froze and went wide eyed.... What did I just see? "Max open your mouth.." I asked. He paused and chuckled "oh you noticed it finally. I got it done recently" he mentioned as he stuck his tongue out. I gasped and covered my mouth blushing horribly. He had a tongue piercing in.... Holy fuck he's so hot. I felt like a fan girl as he laughed softly "you're so cute Brad. But it's too bad we aren't together anymore. Or else I would've kissed you" he mentioned. His teasing pissed me off "so? I don't care that I'm engaged." I replied fast. What was wrong with me?

Max chuckled softly and smirked " wow someone really wants a kiss huh?" He asked as I shrunk a little in my seat when he leaned over. I felt like my head was going to explode. I haven't seen Max  for a hot minute and this is what it's come to?

He leaned in and brushed his hand against my thigh. I flinched and pulled his hand away immediately. "What wrong~ you getting all flustered for what?" He cooed in my ear... this went from exciting and hot to instantly disgusting and disturbing. I had a face of shame and disgust as he paused. He looked confused and asked "hey you okay?..." softly.... I nodded and hesitated to reply "yeah I just don't feel comfortable doing this stuff..." I said which I expected him to get mad especially when he asked "is it me?" Which made me shake my head "no... it's not you" I was going to explain until he continued "is it because you're engaged..." he asked a little saddened but I sighed "n-no it's just um...." I rubbed the back of my neck.

I never knew how hard it would be to open up about my sexual assault experience to Max. I felt like it was as if I was cheating on him.

Suddenly the room felt like it had reached 250 degrees and I was on the spot. Max looked at me worried and realized he was still leaned over to me. He sat down normally and asked "Bradley you can talk to me you know?" He asked softly as I sighed "I-.... I know I just feel like you're gonna think I'm disgusting" I said softly. I knew I was a disgusting person especially for murdering Claire but this brought me great shame as well "I told you. You're only disgusting when you say you like pineapples on pizza babe" he tried to crack a joke to make me feel better. I glared at him as he snickered "pineapple on pizza is delicious thank you" I said as he rolled his eyes "but in all seriousness. What's going on? Why are you shaking when I'm near you?" He asked. I looked down and noticed my hands were shaking. I quickly hid them behind my back which made Max frown "what's wrong?" He asked.

" I um..... I feel like a disgusting person Max... we broke up and I had sex with Claire multiple times..." I said softly as Max's eyes widened "oh...." He said softly "so... the relationship is going well then?... I'm happy for you" he offered a small smile. "No no just listen... I-.. fuck" I sighed " it's not sex it's more like um..." I didn't even want to spit it out. Max looked more confused as I groaned annoyed " she took advantage of me multiple times and I don't feel comfortable at all in situations like this right now. I don't want you to even touch me because I feel like you're going to be grossed out since her hands have been all over me and I feel like I was just some sort of sex toy. I don't want you being disgusted of me but I'm also scared that you won't see me the same because of it.." I blurted out as he froze "... she what?" He asked me. I went quiet "she....." I sighed again " she raped me..." I said softly.

I looked up and was stunned to see this look on Max's face. He looked disgusted... I knew he would be grossed out by me...

It wasn't until he stood up and told me "that's it. I'm going to fucking murder her..." he said walking out of the bean scene. My eyes widened as I shot up and followed Max out quickly "Max! Wait!" I called as he continued to walk. He knew where her dorm was and he was walking there.

I quickly ran over and stopped him " Max there's no use in going over there!" I said to him as he snatched his arm back "yes there is! She's way out of line! I'm going to kill her!" He said infuriated as I flinched at the word kill. He noticed and asked "what? Why do you care if she's alive huh? She treated you like shit!" He mentioned. I laughed awkwardly and asked softly "do you really want to kill her? Like actually not like your just overreacting?" I asked. He looked at me confused as he replied "well I want her dead but I don't think I can do anything to her actually since I'd go to jail" he said as I smiled awkwardly. "So um...... here's the thing you don't exactly have to" I explained as he stared confused "what?" He asked. "Is it because she's missing? Because trust me I will find her and I'll give her a piece of my mind" he replied angrily.

I sighed and looked left and right before whispering in Max's ear. "She's dead already" I said " she isn't missing. She's in the blue lake forest outside of the city." I whispered and took a step back to see Max's reaction. My heart dropped when his eyes were wide. He looked horrified.. stunned... he looked at me and asked "how do you know that Bradley?" He asked hesitantly.

I rubbed the back of my neck and took a deep breath in and out "because I might've been the one who had killed her..." I said as he asked "might've? Or did you?" He asked for clarification " I did.." I replied. There was a deafening silence that swallowed the both of us. I prayed to any god out there to help me. I didn't want Max to hate me. If he hated me or was scared of me then I would kill myself too. Life wasn't worth living if Max wasn't a part of it.

He sighed and took a moment to think before asking " did you dispose of her body?" He asked as I nodded "how?" He asked " I left her in a area where the coyotes tend to roam around .." I added on. I was practically sweating in nervousness. My anxiety shooting through the roof. He nodded "take me there. I want to make sure she's gone. If not then we will light the rest of her body on fire so no one can find her okay?" He said as my eyes widened "what-.." I said in shock as he cupped my cheeks "I lost you once. I don't want to lose you again okay.." he said sternly as I nodded. The absolute comfort I felt in his reaction was indescribable. " when did you do it?" He asked as I replied "yesterday around 1 pm" I said softly as he nodded " okay then let's get going now. Whatever happens I'm not letting you go to jail and if you do then I'll make sure I'm an accessory of murder so you won't be going alone" he said.

I smiled softly. But my eyes widened when he kissed my lips. I practically melted into that kiss. I missed his lips so much. He didn't think I was disgusting and he didn't think I was insane... he made me feel like I was perfect. Like I was normal....

Like I was finally alive again....

( hey guys! Author here! Because this is chapter 50 I wanted to do something special and posted some doodles/ designs of the boys and Claire lol so here you go! Please be respectful of my work )

Bradley!

Max!

Maxley selfie!

BOBBY!!!

TANK!!

(Sketch of Brad's dad)

Claire

MORE MAXLEY!

I hope you guys like my work lolol