I walk out of the room and just as I reach the kitchen I remember that I forgot to get my phone off of my night stand. I had it charging, so I could have a full battery for taking pictures. So turning back around I dart down the hall and enter my bedroom and for some dumb ass reason I turn to look into the bathroom. I gasp, Stefan is standing completely naked in front of the mirror just about to put his shirt on, until he hears me. "Sorry, I just forgot my phone." I apologize, I'm willing my eyes to look away from his drop dead gorgeous body and the long thick member between his legs. Stefan smirks at me and I feel myself begin to throb. Fucking great, just what I need. Am I the only person on earth who gets turned on seeing their ex naked? "It's nothing you haven't seen before babe." I bite my bottom lip and nod, then dash over to get my phone. Once I take the thing off the charger I turn around and bump into Stefan's hard chest. Great what a cliche move! His clothes are on thankfully, his hands find their way to my hips, he pulls me to him as my heart races. My skin is on fire from his touch while my breathing is unsteady, I dare myself to look up into those amazing green orbs and once I do he has a mischievous look on his face. "Fuck it." He growls and before I can register what's going on Stefan's lips are on mine, at first I freeze, but then his tongue runs over my bottom lip demanding entry and I fucking cave.

What am I doing? Five fucking years of having Stefan tucked away in the dark corners of my mind and now that he's here I just give in to his ass! I open my mouth and soon our tongues are battling for dominance, in one swift move Stefan's hands grab my ass, up I go with my legs around his waist. My back slams against the wall and I moan into his hot minty mouth, Stefan was always an amazing lover and I start to grow wet remembering all of our sex romps together. The feel of his tongue against mine drives me wild, I'm soaking wet and I can feel his hard dick against me, he pushes himself against my core and I gasp. "Elena are you in here?" I hear Caroline's voice as she walks down the hall towards us, but I can't stop this hot make out session with my ex. Stefan I know hears her too, but he just like me can't stop. Hell it probably doesn't even bother him. "Oh wow, so sorry." Then the bedroom doors shut and Stefan breaks the passionate and bruising kiss. We're both trying to catch our breath, I lean my head against his shoulder trying to collect myself after that pantie wetting kiss. "You have no idea how long I've wanted to be able to do that." he says. Nodding my head I choke out, "Yes I do, but I couldn't keep waiting Stefan." There was no reason to lie, why wait when he made it clear that he was done with me? I mean yeah he may have waited and wanted to kiss me, but when you're told by your brother that your boyfriend no longer wants to see you... it does something to you. You eventually accept that you're no longer with that person, you do your best to move and put him in the back of your mind.

I find myself backing down from his body and I reach the floor, I cup his face having to be completely honest with him. "I loved you so much Stefan that it killed me inside, you didn't want me to call you, visit you or come to your court hearing. When you were sentenced Damon made sure that I got it into my head that we were over for good, so I had to pick up the pieces of my heart that you broke. I got my life on track with school, graduated and moved on with my life. It was hard and I went through hard ass times, times I wish to forget, but I had to move on. I had to accept that you were done with me and so I did. Sure I stumbled along the way, but now I am good." Stefan licks his now dry lips and nods looking away from me, yep mask is settling back in place. "Now you're out and you can make the most of your life, please do that for me Stefan. Now you can start over, open up your own tattoo shop and get settled in your life. Meet a beautiful girl and marry her, then have kids and be happy Stefan. You've always loved the idea of family, so make one. Be legit for once in your life, do something that will make you happy. I would've loved to have been that woman, but you didn't want me anymore. That's fine, what we had was great when we had it. At least it was to me, I may have been young, but I loved you. I just hope that you'll find someone that you can truly love and be with. If I can go to college, become a fucking model and come out the other side of some bad shit, you can too." I'm trying to make myself and him see that we're over. Maybe this is what I've been waiting for, to have him next to me and to realize that there is no longer anything between us. I needed to see him face to face and get closure.

Stefan looks back to me with tears in his eyes, he's never cried. Never. He has poured his soul out to me before about his fucked up life, poured his heart out over his love for me, but this is new. Right now there no coldness in his eyes, no mask. Stefan caresses my cheek with his thumb and says in a whisper, "I will always love you Elena." I release a tear from my eye and nod, "I know Stefan, I'll always love you too." I hug him and he returns it, squeezing me. Never in my life have I seen tears in this man's eyes, I didn't think he was capable of having them. "Promise me you'll still be in my life no matter where I am, here or in New York." I know that we may not be right for each other anymore, but I will always want him around me. I thought I could brush him off, but its just not in me to do that. "Couldn't get rid of me if you tried Lena." That brings a smile to my face, a sad one. "Just so you know, I did love you with everything I had in me. When I went away, it just didn't work for me anymore. We were over Elena, I just don't want you to think that I was never really in it because that's far from the truth." I nod because I can't speak. This is it, Elena and Stefan are over for good, but we're not done being friends. One step forward. "Ok, I think I need another beer and some pool time." I laugh trying to ease the tension that we're now feeling. "Yeah, I'm going to make sure Matt doesn't burn the food." He says dryly before backing away from me. Now he's back to being the cold Stefan, I walk out of the room trying to keep my composure, now to find Caroline and set her straight with what she witnessed.

"There you are!" I hear Caroline yell as soon as I walk outside, she walks over with two beers in her hand and a smirk on her face. "Please tell me we're going to talk about this, because I've seen pictures and I know who that was." With a hand on her hip and a light smile on her face she waits for me to respond. "Yes we are, so let's take these cold drinks over to the pool and we'll talk." She grins and takes off her sun dress revealing a hot pink bikini with yellow strings. We make our way over to the deck and I see Damon and Bonnie in lounge chairs. "Bon are you ok?" Caroline asks with concern written all over her face, my moment with Stefan forgotten thankfully. "Yeah, I just wanted a little rest and Damon here thinks I should rest some where other than under the sun." She giggles while caressing her belly. I look over to my brother and snort, he's constantly worried about her which is sweet and annoying, but he's just doing what he's supposed to do. Who would've thought that my big bad brother could be like this? "Damon she's fine, if she gets too hot she knows what to do, now stop hovering and go mingle with your friends." I tell him with a 'I won't take no for an answer' look. "Fine." he mumbles holding up his hands in defeat.

I make sure Damon is out of ear shot when Caroline and I enter the pool, "I'm waiting." she says in a singsong voice while piling her thick blonde curls into a high pony tail. "Wait, waiting for what?" Bonnie asks from her chair and I really just want to go back to earlier today where I had no 'Stefan' thoughts in my head. I clear my throat and proceed with my confession and my clarification. "Stefan and I were kissing in my bedroom, I showed him where he could change his clothes after Tyler and Matt pushed him in the pool, anyway I left the room and forgot my phone so I went back to get it and saw him standing in the bathroom naked." I hear both of them gasp and before they can ask me anything I continue. "Well, I apologized and went to my phone then I turned around and bumped into him, then he kissed me, picked me up and put me against the wall and we kept kissing until Caroline walked in my room looking for me." Caroline has a shit eating grin on her face and Bonnie turns green, yeah I know the feeling. "You both can say something now." They stay silent which leaves me sighing. "I told him that he needs to get his shit together and become a legit person, that what we once had was great and all but we aren't the same people anymore. Well, I said that in a round about way, he got the message and agreed. Besides he ended long ago and he's not here to get me back anyway. We just needed to say something things and get closure, the make out session was just something that happened." Caroline snorts now and I wait for what she's about to dish out, "Are you serious right now? Elena come on your first love is back in your life and you're not going to take advantage of it? Yeah he broke it off with you when he went to prison, but you don't want to try to rekindle your realtionship with him?" I choose my words carefully now, "I still have love for him and I always will, but I'm over us. He's over us and that's the way it should be. I'm not the same person I was when we were together and he's not the same Stefan. He's a free man now and I'm the last thing on his mind and I'm good with that." I state firmly, they say nothing else and I down my beer. Surprisingly Bonnie says nothing which makes me curious.

After being in the pool all day it's finally time to eat the most delicious food prepared by the guys, but I have a slight buzz going, so I decide to opt out on the food even though my stomach disagrees with me. Kelly and Matt start setting up the fireworks and I slip inside the house to get more comfortable clothes on, I end up stumbling a few times once in the house. I notice that I may be more than just buzzed as I lean on the wall for support. I giggle at the thought of being drunk, I haven't been like this since St. Patrick's day when I kissed Tyler's boss at the O'Malley's pub in Biloxi. "Elena, you ok?" I hear a voice behind me and I giggle again. "Yep I'm all good here, just trying to get to my room." I try to straighten up and continue down the hall, but I'm failing at my task. "What do you need? I can help you get it." I turn to look at Stefan and give him what is probably a sloppy smile. "Just my clothes, this bikini is fucking irritating me." Stefan says nothing as he guides me towards the bedroom and once inside I plop down on my lounge chair. "I never understood why rich people have these in their bedroom until now." I say while snuggling down into the soft swede. "Why do they have them?" He asks as he places his hands on his hips. "Its for drunk people who can't make it to the bed." I slur making him chuckle. "Alright so where are the clothes that you need?" he asks me while I get up and walk into my closet. Grabbing my PINK sweatshirt I walk out and point to my dresser. "Top middle, there are some tanks in there, top right are my panties and bottom left are shorts." He walks over and begins rummaging through the drawers while I'm damn near passed out. I'm so content right where I am, staying in and forgetting all the fireworks sounds awesome while I lay down. "I hope I chose right." He says bending down to my level and I look up to see that he has grabbed me a white spaghetti strap tank with a built in bra, the short dark wash shorts I asked for and a pair of blue lace thongs. I nod and sit up. "You can either help me or leave, either way I'm about to get naked." Stefan smirks at me and I begin to pull the strings around my neck, he doesn't hesitate to help. "So we're friends who can see each other naked?" He asks as he reaches around my back undoing the rest. I snort, "What was it that you said earlier, oh yeah 'nothing you haven't seen before babe.'"

Reaching my hips his hands linger on them, the heat from his fingers burn into me like he's branding me as his. Wait! What. The. Fuck? "Well the thing is I've been abstinent for five years and a body like yours is going to make it hard for me to resist you sweetheart. Especially when I know said body like the back of my hand." Then he pulls the strings on each side of my hips, I stand and let the material fall to the floor. Stefan stares at me like a thirsty man in the desert and I'm the only water around. "Elena!" Damon's voice breaks me out of my lust filled gaze, I take my clothes and run into the bathroom. "Elena, you alright?" I can hear Damon enter my room as I throw my clothes on in a hurry, praying that Stefan isn't sporting a hard on. "She's in the bathroom, I helped her down the hall and got her some clothes to change into." Stefan's smooth voice fills the silent room and I try to hold in a giggle, ugh just thinking about me standing naked in front of him and the look in his eyes, fuck! I know it was wrong to do, but for that moment I just didn't give a fuck about the past five years and wanted to be back against that damn wall. What is wrong with my ass? "Thanks man she seemed pretty lit, just tell her that we're done setting up the fireworks." Damon announces and I can just imagine him wearing his signature smirk. "K." is all I hear from Stefan. I look over my face and hair and see that I look like a hot mess. Taking my hair out of the bun my brown chlorine filled waves fall down my back and across my shoulder. I grab my makeup remover and run the cloth under my eyelids and in the corner of my eyes. Once I look decent Stefan knocks on the door making me jump. Shit I forgot he was out there. "Everything alright in there Lena?"

I start applying more eyeliner and mascara adding just a touch of gloss to my lips, "Yeah, just taking my hair down." With that I spray some perfume on, add deodorant and open the door to see Stefan leaning against the door frame smirking at me. "What?" I ask with a stupid smile. "You looked fucking amazing in your bikini, you look great right now too, but a naked Elena is even better to stare at." I swallow the lump in my throat and walk over to him shaking my head, "Well, I hope that its burned into your mind because that wasn't supposed to happen, a bad move on my part." Stefan tucks a strand of hair behind my ear, "Everything about you is burned into my mind Elena Pierce, you sure as hell put your mark on me." Then he quickly tells me, "Fireworks are being set up, do you need help getting out back?" Shaking my head I tell him I'm fine and we make our way outside in silence. Why? Why did he have to show up here? This is fucking everything up, he was supposed to be a memory of the past. I was supposed to be fine with us being friends, but he has to say those fucking words that only Stefan can say to make me want to say screw the past.

I can't let myself think about 'us', its too much.