MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING - there is attempted rape in this chapter so pls don't read if your sensitive to that, I hate writing about this kind of stuff bc of how seriously messed up it is but it goes with the plot so yea

Deceit POV

"Doubt?" I chocked out, causing the trait to flinch a little.

"Who are you?" He asked, looking into my eyes. I felt tears fill my eyes as he said that.

"It's me...Deceit." I said, taking a step towards him. "Your boyfriend..."

He took a step back and started shaking his head.

"No...I...I don't know you...or any of you..." Doubt mumbled, crossing his arms over his chest.

"Oh, I see." Said Logan. "Doubt has reformed, but it isn't the original Doubt. Thomas will always have a Doubt trait, so his mind remade Doubt. But obviously without his memories of who he was before death."

I looked down at the ground, tears welling up in my eyes.

"I'm sorry...am I Doubt?" He asked. "I...I remember some things. Just names...that's it."

"Yes your doubt." Answered Patton. "What do you remember?"

"You...your morality." He mumbled, pointing to Patton. "Your logic." He added pointing to Logan. "And there's two others but...but I...can't remember."

"That's okay." Said Patton gently. "It's good you at least know what we represent."

"I...I don't know the rest of you..." Doubt trailed off, his gaze flickering between Remy, Picani, and I.

I felt a tear slid down my cheek. Before anyone could say anything, I turned and bolted up the stairs. I heard Patton calling after me but I ignored him. I slammed my door shut and fell to the ground sobbing.

Of course he doesn't remember me. He's back, but it's not him. Why doesn't he remember anything?

Roman POV
I slowly opened my eyes to darkness. Well, the darkness of Virgil's room.

Tears returned to my eyes and I pulled his pillow closer to my chest. I buried my face in it, breathing in his scent.

There felt like there was a heart shaped hole in my chest. Virgil was gone. I don't know how to get him back. I couldn't save him. I couldn't protect him. He's gone. I don't know when I'll see him again.

My stomach growled. I let out a sigh and rolled into my back. I would have to go get food.

I rolled out of the bed and grabbed Virgil's hoodie. I pulled it on before standing up.

I heading out of his room and down the stairs. Logan, Patton, Picani, Remy...and Doubt...was standing in the living room. They all looked up at me.

"How's he alive?" I asked, pointing at Doubt.

"Doubt has reformed, but he doesn't have any of his memories." Answered Logan. I shrugged and shouldered my way through them to the kitchen.

I pulled open cupboards looking for something. I reached in the cupboard and pulled out a bottle of liquor. The good strong stuff.

"What are you doing kiddo?" Asked Patton from behind me. I ignored him and instead opened the bottle. I quickly downed a swallow of it before Patton took it from me.

"I understand that your upset about Virgil but this is not how to deal with this." Patton reprimanded me with a stern tone.

"Give me the bottle back Patton." I begged, turning around to look at him.

"No." Patton said, turning the bottle and dumping it down the drain. He than dropped the bottle into the trash.

"Why'd you do that?" I asked angrily.

"You can not drink away your problems." Patton told me sternly.

"You didn't loose anyone Patton!" I growled at him, my voice raising in anger. "You still have Logan to go crying to at the end of the day! I don't get that anymore! Virgil is gone! He's trapped somewhere suffering horribly!" I was screaming at this points. "So just shut the fuck up and leave me alone!"

"Stop yelling at him." Logan growled, putting himself between me and a shaking Patton. I hadn't even realized he had walked over he.

"Don't tell me what to do." I growled back. "The four of you," I said, pointing at Logan, Patton, Remy and Picani. "Can all just shut the fuck up about all of this because none of you lost who you loved."

"Just because you are upset about Virgil does not mean you can take it away it out on the rest of us." Logan told me sternly.

"Stop!" I screamed, feeling hot tears rush down my face. "Just shut up! You didn't loose anyone! I lost Virgil yesterday and I don't know what to do to save him! Deceit watched Doubt die in his arms and now Doubt doesn't even fucking remember him! So don't you fucking dare tell me how to cope right now!"

I shoved Logan out of my way and headed out of the kitchen. I could fairly hear Patton crying softly but I don't care. I just don't care anymore.

Virgil POV
I rolled onto my back, wincing in pain.  I could faintly hear the water lapping against the shore of the Pit. 

I'm not exactly sure where Remus and Ignorance are right now.  I was just trying to hide from them so they wouldn't hurt me. 

My chest was still bleeding from where the cut me open to remove the parasite.  If you touch the water, the parasite gets in your system instantly. They said they wanted to torture me for years down here, so they didn't want me dying on the first day. 

I'm not sure what day it is anymore.  It's not like I can see any sunlight from in here.  It could either be hours or days since I fell in here.

I was in the long tunnel where the entrance into the mindscape was.  I could faintly see it hundreds of feet above me.  There's no way I could scale up these walls without falling back into the water. 

Remus and Ignorance knew their way around this hell hole, but I didn't.  They would stalk me and attack me right when I would regain my strength or consciousness.  But for now, they've just left me alone. 

I was thankful for that, but it just made me paranoid about where they could be.  It was freezing in here and of course I lost my hoodie before I got pulled into here. 

The sound of something falling nearby caused me to instantly shoot up and look around the tunnel.  I looked around but didn't see any sign of Remus or Ignorance. 

I got up slowly, wincing in pain and shaking in fear.  I turned around to see a small blue and yellow orb of sorts slowly rolling towards the water.  (Think the memory orb things from Inside Out)

I quickly headed over to it, curiosity getting the best of me.  I picked it up before it could roll into the water.  It felt both warm and freezing cold in my hands. 

I headed back over to the tiny cave in the wall that I was hiding in.  I got down on my stomach and quickly edged into the tiny opening.  There was enough space back here that I could stretch out and I don't think either of the two dark sides here could wedge themselves through the small opening.  I pressed my back against the wall and looked at the orb in my hands. 

I think it's a memory orb.  They contain memories that aren't needed by Thomas anymore.  I guess they disintegrate in the water. 

The name Doubt quickly flashed across it before it started playing Doubt's memories.  It started out kinda sad, the orb was cold and dark blue.  It seemed as if he was alone, faintly I could hear other traits picking on him for what he represented.  Than there were a lot of scenes with Deceit and they all seemed good and happy.  The orb glowed yellow and felt warm.  Than it was cold again and there was almost two years worth of memories of him just locked up somewhere.  It was faintly glow yellow when Deceit would show up, but than quickly fade back to coldness as days on end were spent trapped in that tiny room with Corruption tormenting him. 

Than the orb turned black briefly before starting the memory rotation again. 

I should keep this safe.  I'm not sure why.  I think Deceit would like this if I ever get out of here.  It's something to remember Doubt by. 

I clutched tightly to orb for a second before gently setting it in a tiny alcove in the side of the wall in my little cave I was hiding in. 

"Virgil~!"  Yelled Remus in a sing-song voice.  "Where are you?"  I flinched but quickly crawled out of the cave.  I didn't want them to find out where I was hiding. 

I curled up on the ground where I was earlier, seconds before I heard Remus's heeled boots clicking against the ground towards me. 

"I think it's time for another chat."  Hissed Remus.  "Ignorance didn't wanna help this time because he hates listening to reason.  Reason being we hate you and you deserve punishment for what you did to us. He's such a dick sometimes." 

He walked over to me and knelt next to me.  He frowned at my shaking form. 

"But him not being here gives me a good idea." He purred, gently touching a few strands of my hair.

"My brother really likes you doesn't he?"  He asked.  "Of course he does, why wouldn't he?  Perfect face, perfect hair...perfect body~"  He gently ran his fingers down my cheek.  I could see flecks of lust in his eyes. 

I started twitching even more and shaking my head no.  I tried to push away from him but he grabbed my shoulder roughly before climbing over me and straddling my hips. 

"What are you doing?"  I mumbled, trying to shove Remus off me.  Fear was building up inside of me.

"Having some fun~."  Remus whispered into my ear, making me shiver.

"Stop."  I begged, feelings tears welling up in my eyes.  "This isn't right.  I'm dating Roman not you." 

"I don't really give a shit, okay?"  Said Remus in an annoyed tone.  "I hate my brother.  He has everything I ever wanted.  To be a light side, accepted by Thomas, to get the guy in the end."  He reached down and breathed the last part in my ear. 

"You have no right to touch me."  I hissed, anger taking over the fear.  "I am Roman's not yours." 

"Feisty...I like that in a guy~"  Remus purred, rubbing his hands on my hips. 

"Please stop."  I begged, tears falling down my cheeks now.  "You can't do this."  My attempts to push him off were futile.  I was skinny and weak and he was strong like Roman. 

Remus grabbed my wrists and held them in one hand above my head.  He leaned down and pressed a kiss to my cheek. 

"My brother has everything.  So I'll be taking everything from him now, one thing at a time."  He growled lowly when he pulled away.  "Starting with your virginity."  I flinched when he said that.

He can't do that, it's not right he can't why me? I wanted to loose my virginity to Roman and it would be a special time. Not loosing it by his damn brother, Remus, forcing himself on me.

"Stop!" I yelled at him, barely able to breath at this point. He can't do this. No this is wrong. Why is he doing this to me?!

"Sorry baby~ no can do." Purred Remus. "If you won't willing offer it to me, I'll just have to take it by force."

"You...can't." I gasped out. "Get the fuck...off me."

"Fuck you?" Remus said with a laugh. "I was already planning on doing that, but begging sure is nice. Nice and kinky just how I like it~"

"Stop." I begged between sobs. "Please." Remus started pushing my shirt up my chest.  I shivered as he ran his unoccupied hand across my stomach. 

"Ya know, we could get a camera and film it so Roman can watch it...that'd be some great revenge." Remus suggested with a laugh. I shook my head no, trying to get my hands free of his grip.

"I would love to watch how Roman reacts to seeing me make you moan and scream my name~" Remus said, starting to grind his hips against mine. "He'd be so furious to know that I took what should've been his to take, ya know since your still a pathetic virgin."

I whimpered, sobbing uncontrollably now. I could barely form any coherent words other than 'stop' and 'no' at this point. I was shaking. It felt like the walls were closing in around me.

I shut my eyes tight, not wanting to look at Remus's face anymore. But the sound of a belt coming undone instantly made me jerk upwards and open my eye.

Remus was undoing his belt and pushing his pants down a bit past his hips. I could see an obvious bulge in his boxers.

I let out a panicked scream and tried to kick him off me. Remus growled and used his knees to hold my legs down.

"Get off me!" I screamed, regaining my voice. "Don't touch me!"

Remus growled again and roughly pushed me back down against the ground. I groaned as the floor connected with my head. Sparks of pain shot through my skull. 

Remus started working on undoing my belt. I flinched every time his hands connected with my skin. I was screaming, struggling fruitlessly to get him off me. My body was racked with sobs as panic set in, causing my breathing to become shallow.

"Remus!"  Screeched Ignorance from the other side of the tunnel.  Remus's head shot up and he looked up at and he scrambled off me. 

I turned on my side and curled up sobbing.  I was shaking horribly as a panic attack set in.  My vision went black even though my eyes were wide open. I dug my fingers into my scalp, hoping the pain would bring me back to reality.

"What the hell are you doing?!"  Yelled Ignorance, stomping over to us.  Remus scrambled to his feet and looked guiltily back and forth between me and Ignorance while fixing his pants and belt.

"Just wanted to make Roman feel even more pain."  Remus said slowly.  "And I was horny."

"That is not part of the plan."  Hissed Ignorance. 

"But wouldn't doing this just break him down even more and destroy Roman when Virgil get freed?"  Asked Remus. 

"It would but Corruption is dead.  He isn't here to protect us anymore. There is no plan other than survive and if you do something like that Roman will hunt you down no matter what."  Ignorance said while glaring at Remus.  "If you want to torture Virgil, use him as a punching bag to get rid of your anger that's fine, but this is crossing the line."

"But..." Stared Remus to defend himself.

"No if, ands, or buts!" Screeched Ignorance. Remus nodded and bolted away. He turned towards me with a disgusted look.

"Listen freak, I'm all for making you suffer for what you did to us but I'm smart enough to know that Remus is a disgusting person with no self control." Ignorance said with disgust in his voice. "I may hate you, but I hate Remus more." Ignorance mumbled the last part. I was shocked that he defended me from Remus.

I turned a bit but winced as my breathing stopped again. Ignorance had no emotion on his face whatsoever. I was shocked with what he was saying.

"W-why?" I asked. Ignorance sighed.

He knelt down next to me before wrapping his hand around my neck. I gasped out, trying to pull his hands away from my neck.

"Don't make me regret rescuing your ass." He hissed at me. "Now shut up or I'll let Remus come back and fuck the shit out of you." I whimpered and shook my head. He let go of my neck slowly. With that he turned and walked away from me.