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ALSO I HAD A HUGE REALIZATION
REVAN = TREE BROS

LIKE SERIOUSLY, REMUS IS CONNER AND WELL EVAN IS EVAN LMAO (just not as anxious)

TRIGGER WARNING : talks about rape, suicidal thoughts, mention of self harm, ANGST, #glitchbitch

Virgil POV
"You shouldn't have said that Ro."  I mumbled into his ear as he carried me up to my room.  "You really hurt Remus's feelings."

"Well, he was being mean to you,"  Roman argued.

"He made a valid argument.  This Evan guy is gonna suffer in my place,"  I argued back.  "Be sympathetic, you should understand how bad it is to loose someone like that."

"Can we just cuddle and shit,"  Asked Roman, setting me down on my bed.  "Instead of arguing?"

"Promise you'll apologize to Remus?" 

"Promise."  He said with a sigh. 

"Why are you being so nice to Remus?"  He asked.  "I mean, what he tried to do to you in the Pit..."

As much as I don't like thinking about that, I can't say I'm not used to it.  Corruption was one kinky, horny mother fucker.

"Remus was nothing compared to Corruption,"  I said with a shrug.  "Besides, he seems to be on our side now anyways." 

"Why must you always be right?"  Roman sighed while resting his head on my shoulder. 

"Just deal with it Princey,"  I grumbled, pulling Roman down onto the bed next to me.  Roman laughed.

"You have no clue how happy I am to hear you call me that,"  Roman laughed, blushing slightly. 

"Princey,"  I mumbled.  "Love ya Princey."

"Love you too my beautiful, precious, emo nightmare."  He purred into my ear as revenge.  I flushed bright red.  "But you really need a fucking shower." 

"Oh a shower sounds freaking amazing,"  I whispered, shutting my eyes.  "With actual warm water and soap."

"Did Corruption let you bathe?" 

"Very rarely."  I sighed. 

"C'mon, shower time, now." 

~•~

Roman hasn't let go of me or stopped telling me how much he loves me since I got out of the shower.

We were lying on my bed. Cuddling. Just in pajamas. My face pressed against his chest. One of his hands running through my hair, the other keep me secure against him.

Trust me, I love it. Actually being held in a loving manor, after two months in Corruption's grasp, feels amazing.

I feel safe. Warm. Loved. For the first time in a long time. I love Roman so much.

But my leg was hurting again. Corruption broke it twice and then didn't do anything to try and heal it. I have a pretty bad limp now. Some days are better than others, but today it's really aching.

"Love you Virge," Roman mumbled for probably the millionth time, snapping me out of my thoughts. He kept pressing kisses to my forehead.

I didn't respond, too deep in thought. I don't deserve Roman.

He waited two months for me. He didn't fall back into his alcoholism this time. He still loves me.

"I'm sorry," I mumbled as the tears built up in my eyes.

"For what?" Roman asked, a soft tone to his voice.

"Everything," I sighed, a few tears slipping from my eyes.

"None of this is your fault," Roman told me, placing a firm kiss on my forehead.

"But..."

"But nothing," Roman said, kissing me.

"None of this would have happened if I hadn't tried to kill myself all the months ago," I mumbled, finally speaking my realization.

"This is Corruption's fault," Roman told me. "None of this is your fault. Stop blaming yourself."

"I ruined everything," I cried, breaking down into sobs. "I'm so sorry."

"Virgil...none of this is your fault," Roman said gently. "You didn't ruin anything."

"I caused Dee and Quinn's relationship to be ruined. Quinn has horrible PTSD from it. Did you know that Ro? He told me when Corruption took him again. I let Corruption use me. I hurt everyone. I'm a bad person. I...I'm the bad guy."

"No," Roman whispered. "No...baby...no... none of that is your fault."

"How?" I asked between sobs.

"All of that was because of Corruption's choice to be a bad person. He was the one that hurt Quinn, not you. It was his choice to hurt you. You weren't in the right mind set, you can't blame yourself for not knowing better." Roman told me. "You are not the bad guy. You never have been and you never will be. The only bad guy is Corruption."

"My fault," I whispered. "Maybe I should just die. Then people would stop getting hurt."

Roman looked at me with a heartbroken, horrified expression. Then he started crying too.

"Never say that again," He cried. "Never say you want to die again."

"Ro-"

"Promise me you won't hurt yourself, please," Roman begged me. "None of this is your fault. Please stop blaming yourself."

"No promises," I mumbled, my heart breaking as I watched the broken look in Roman's eyes grow. As much as I love him, I'm not going to lie to him and say I'll get better anytime soon.

"Virgil..."

"I can't promise something like that," I whispered. "But I know you'll help me. You'll help me get better."

"Always," Roman mumbled, kissing me deeply. "We'll help each other move on from this."

"I'm sorry," I mumbled.

"Stop apologizing," Roman told me. "Get some sleep, we'll talk about all this tomorrow. You need actual rest and to clear your mind."

"But..." I mumbled, unable to stop the pit of anxiety growing in my stomach. I fell back into that mindset again. If I fell asleep, Corruption could get me...

"You're safe here," Roman told me, pressing a kiss to my forehead. "I love you so much."

"I love you too," I mumbled, snuggling up to his chest.  Roman tightened his grip on me, continuing to press kisses to my face. 

"Can you sing me something?"  I asked, closing my eyes.

"Of course," Roman said, before drifting off in thought. Than he cleared his voice.

"Now the night has come to an end
The sun will rise and we'll try again,

"Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die,

"I will fear the night again
I hope I'm not my only friend,

"Stay alive, stay alive for me
You will die, but now your life is free
Take pride in what is sure to die,"

Roman sang the song beautifully.  Almost as good as Tyler Joseph, but no one can do the song justice like he can. 

"You asleep?"  Roman mumbled.  I yawned.

"No, sing more,"  I mumbled, placing my face again his neck.  I liked feeling the reverberations the singing made in his chest.  It felt nice.

"So long to all of my friends
Every one of them met tragic ends
With every passing day
I'd be lying if I didn't say
That I miss them all tonight
And if they only knew what I would say,

"If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
One day I'll lose this fight
As we fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright,

"Be strong and hold my hand
Time becomes for us, you'll understand
We'll say goodbye today
And I'm sorry how it ends this way
If you promise not to cry
Then I'll tell you just what I would say,

"If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
I'll fail and lose this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright,

"The light behind your eyes
The light behind your,

"Sometimes we must grow stronger and
You can't be stronger in the dark
When I'm here, no longer
You must be stronger and,

"If I could be with you tonight
I would sing you to sleep
Never let them take the light behind your eyes
I failed and lost this fight
Never fade in the dark
Just remember you will always burn as bright,

"The light behind your eyes
The light behind your eyes
The light behind..."

But Roman's voice faded away as I fell into a comfortable sleep.

I wasn't sure how long I had been asleep, but both Roman and I jerked awake as yelling came from downstairs.

"OH MY GOODNESS!" Screeched Patton. "DEE! YOU'RE HOME!"