Logan POV

"How are you doing today Patton?" I asked, rolling my chair over to my bed where he was sitting. I always made sure to check in on Patton often ever since I confronted him about cutting. Patton looked up from his coloring book to smile at me.

"I'm doing okay." He mumbled. He paused for a second, obviously thinking about something. "I'm worried for Virgil though. He was cutting again today.  I don't know how to help him...does this mean I'm failing?"

"Of course not Patton." I promised him, resting my hand on his. "Your amazing just the way you are. Virgil understand that you're trying." I pulled his head close to me so I could give him a quick kiss.

"You're a lot better at emotions than you credit yourself with." Patton said with a small laugh.

"I understand that your upset and that as your boyfriend it makes me upset to see you upset." I said. "Therefore, I must do what I can to make you feel better."

"Thanks Logie." He mumbled, pulling me in for another kiss. "Can I ask you a question?"

"Of course."

"Do...do you really love me? Let me rephrase that. That came out wrong. How can you love me?" He mumbled. "Your so smart and calm and composed...and I'm so emotional and dumb and uncalm, if that's even a word. See, just proving how dumb I am."

"Patton," I said softly, Patton looked down at his lap in shame. "Patton look at me." I grabbed his chin and made him look me in the eyes. I could see tears welling up in his eyes.

"Patton, I love you more than anything. I love you so much. More than you can fathom. I wish I could show you how much I love you. If I could, I would give you the world. Everything you ever wanted, so that your happy. Your happiness is all that matters to me. You are not dumb or stupid or too emotional for me. I understand that we may be complete opposites, but that's why I love you. I love hearing your laugh. Watching you get excited over the small things. The way that you notice all the good things in life. That you care so much about everyone and everything. That's what I love about you. I love you because of who you are. You are an amazing, kind, gentle, affectionate, outstanding, considerate, incredible, lovely, marvelous, caring, empathetic, generous, witty, beautiful, adorable person." I paused and took a deep breath. Patton looked close to tears, a huge smile on his face.

I grabbed the sides of Patton head and pulled him into a passionate kiss. Still kissing, I got up from my chair and sat next to him on my bed. We finally pulled away from each other when we couldn't breath anymore.

"Patton, I love you so much." I told him, putting my hand on his cheek. Patton smile and placed his hand over mine.

"I love you too Logan." He said with gentle laugh.

"What can I do, to make you happy?" I asked. Patton thought in silence for a while, but slowly an smirk spread on his face .

"Can we bake cookies?" He asked with a giggle. My smile turned to a frown and fear filled me.

"You know I can't cook." I reminded him. I remembered the last time I tried to cook...it wasn't a pretty sight.

"Pleeeaaaasssseeeeee Logieeeeeeee!!!" Patton begged, trying not to laugh.

"Fine Patton." I obliged with a roll of my eyes. "If it'll make you happy than I supposed we can bake cookies."

Patton squealed and quickly jumped to his feet. He grabbed my hands and pulled me out of the room, almost causing me to trip.

I laughed softly. Patton was just too adorable.

"Patton slow down!"  I laughed as Patton dragged me down the hallway.  "I'm going to trip!" 

"Oops!  Sorry Lo."  Patton said while giggling.  He slowed down as we reached the stairs. 

We headed into the kitchen, hand in hand.  I looked across the counter at all the sweets Patton had already baked. 

"Do we really need to bake more desserts?  Do we not have enough?"  I asked.  Patton let out a gasp in mock offense, putting his hand on his chest.

"Logan I'm surprised with you!"  Patton said in mock disappointment.  "There is no such thing as too many desserts!"

"My apologies Patton." I said with a laugh.

Patton jumped up on his tip toes and placed a kiss on my cheek. While I blushed, he turned and started pulling all the ingredients out.

"Don't you need a recipe to follow?" I asked, watching as Patton started working.

"No, I have it all memorized." Patton told me.

"Of course you do." I sighed. Patton opened the pantry door and pulled his light blue apron off the hook.  He pulled over his neck, asking me to tie the string. 

"Here,"  He said, handing me a black apron.  I pulled it on and managed the tie it myself. 

"Are you sure you need my help?"  I asked, not really wanting to make a mess of something that Patton loves to do.

"Oh stop complaining and come here and help me." Patton giggled. I stood next to him at the counter and watched as he baked.

"I'm afraid I don't know what to do." I laughed. "I haven't the slightest clue how to bake."

"Just crack the eggs into this bowl and start mixing everything." Patton explained while passing me a bowl full of the 'wet' ingredients.

I did as he told me to, somehow not making a mess of myself. Patton on the other hand was making a mess.

He was mixing all the 'dry' ingredients, meaning that there was flour all over the counter and on Patton's apron. He's too precious.

I finished mixing the ingredients, setting the bowl down on the counter. I placed my hands on Patton's hips, causing him to jump a bit from the sudden contact.

I slipped my arms around his waist and rested my chin on his shoulder.  Patton laughed gently, causing me to smile.  We stayed like that for a while, me just holding Patton while he bakes.

Patton took one of his flour covered hands and booped me on the nose.  Flour covered my nose and glasses. I looked at him in shock while Patton just giggled like he was some evil mastermind who just pulled off a dangerous scheme. 

I sneezed, causing the flour to go everywhere.  Patton burst out in laughter.  I let go of him and stuck my hand into the bag of flour. 

I booped Patton back on the nose, getting flour all over his face.  Patton threw more flour back in retaliation.

After a good minute of just chucking flour at each other, we stopped and looked at the mess we made. Flour was all over the counter and the flour. Patton and I weren't any better.

"Now we're gonna have to clean all this up." Whined Patton, cleaning the flour off his glasses.

"Going to." I corrected, placing my now clean glasses on my face. Patton laughed.

"You have flour in your hair." Patton told me. "And all over your shirt...and apron...and pants."

"You do too." I told him with a laugh. "You look adorable." I said softly, not really meaning to say it out loud.

"Awww Logie." Patton squealed, wrapping his arms around my neck. "You're adorable too!"

"Not as much as you." I said sheepishly. "Did I mention that I love you?"

"Maybe a few times." Patton laughed, leaning his head against my chest.

"Good, just making sure." I said, placing a kiss on his forehead. Patton pushed out of my arms and went over to the sink.

"We gotta clean up this mess now." He said, soaking a washcloth in water. He tossed me the washcloth.

"You can clean up the flour," Patton told me with a smirk. "I'll finish baking the cookies."

"Oh really now?" I asked, raising an eyebrow.

"Yep!" Patton chirped, turning back to the mixing bowls. I laughed gently, but started on wiping all the flour off the counter.

Once I finished cleaning up, Patton had just put the last cookie sheet into the oven. Patton tossed all the dirty bowls and measuring cups into the sink, not bothering to wash them.

"Thanks for baking cookies with me." Patton said with a big smile.

"It was my pleasure." I told him, giving him a quick kiss. "But we should probably go clean ourselves up now."

Patton looked down at his flour covered shirt and laughed. I ran my hand through his hair, shaking out some of the flour.

"I guess your right." Patton agreed.

"Onesies?"

"Onesies."

-•-

I knocked on Roman's door, hoping he was still awake. I had to wait until Patton was asleep before I could sneak over to Roman's room. I need to discuss something very important with him.

"Come in!" Roman called from inside. "Doors unlocked!"

I pushed open the door and stepped inside the room. Roman was sitting on the edge of his bed, and strangely enough, Virgil wasn't there with him.

I shut the door behind me and headed over towards Roman.

"Greetings Roman," I said. "I need your help with something." Roman let out a gasp.

"Logan?! The nerd?! Mr. I Know Everything?! Has come to me?! For help?!" Roman gasped in a over dramatic way. He pretended to faint, placing one hand on his forehead and falling back onto his bed.

"I'm being serious." I said, but had to stifle back laughter at his eccentricness.

"Okay, what's up than?" He asked, sitting back up.

"Well, first, if you don't mind me asking," I asked. "Where's Virgil? Not that I mind, I did only want to talk to you. But I'm surprised he isn't here with you."

"He said he wanted to be alone." Roman said with a sigh. "He promised he be back tonight, but he still hadn't showed up."

"I'm sure he'll show up eventually," I said in a bored tone. I waved my hand in the air as if brushing the topic away.  "Anyways...I'm having a bit of a dilemma right now."

"Emotions?" Roman asked, raising an eyebrow. "Shouldn't you be talking to Patton about that kind of stuff?" I sighed and rolled me eyes.

"Patton is why I'm here."

"Okay..." Roman said with a confused face.

"Well, considering that you're the romantic side-"

"Sounds gay I'm in!" Roman yelled, jumping up from the bed with an excited look in his eyes. I sighed and rubbed the bridge of my nose.

"Can you calm down, please?" I asked. "I am already aware of how you will react to the next thing I say, so please, try to control your excitement."

"Well you've gotten me very excited about what this is now!" Roman said, bouncing up and down. "Now tell meeee! What's the question?"

I took a deep breath. God, I'm really about to say this.

"Considering that your the romantic side, I am almost positive you will know the answer to this," I said. "Do you know if sides can get married to each other?"

I watched as Roman's face of confusion turned to one of shock and than one of pure joy.

"Oh my god oh my god oh my god!" Roman screamed, jumping up and down again. "Holy shit hoLY SHIT! You wanna propose to Patton don't you?!"

"Yes, I do." I mumbled, very flustered now. I could only imagine how red my face is now.

"I mean, yeah! I'm pretty sure sides can get married! I don't really see why that would be a problem." He answered. "And shouldn't you know this? Your logic?"

"This has never happened in our mindscape before, therefore there is no records or books I could read about it." I told him.

"Oh." Roman mumbled.

"I just wasn't sure, considering we all have the same last name already." I said, voicing some of my concerns. "And we are all just figments of Thomas's personality."

"Well, who really cares?" Roman asked. "No ones gonna stop you two. If you wanna get married to Patton, than marry him."

"But I'm not sure how I would even ask." I said, hoping Roman could help me plan something. "Or if he would even want to get married."

"Hey, Patton loves you." Roman said in a comforting voice. "I can't think of a single reason as to why he wouldn't say yes."

"Thanks Roman." I mumbled.

"And for the whole 'popping the question' thing, I would plan an amazing date. With dinner and dancing and kissing and roses and candles and all that's stuff! And than, just when the time feels right, you ask the question." Roman explained.

"I don't know if I could do that." I sighed, feeling the nervousness welling up inside me again.

"I'll help you set up the date." Roman suggested. "We can set it up in Imagination. All you'll have to do is get Patton to go on the date with you, which should be easy since you guys have been together for like over a year now and you two are honestly goals, and just ask him to marry you."

"Thank you Roman," I thanked him. "I'm not sure when I should plan the date for."

"Do you already have the ring?"

"Yes."

"Oh my god! Can I see it?!" Roman yelled, getting distracted. I nodded and pulled the little velvet box out of my pocket.

I handed it to him. He opened it and gasped. I couldn't help but smile and feel proud of myself.

It was a silver band with two colored diamonds.  The band wrapped around the diamonds instead of the gems sitting on top of the band.  One diamond was a light blue, the other a dark blue. It had cost me a lot to commission and buy it. You don't get rings like that in the mindscape, it's from the real world.

"Logan...it's beautiful...Patton's going to love it so much." Roman mumbled breathlessly. "How did you get ahold of something like this?"

"Thomas helped me buy it. It's from the real world." I explained.

"Oh okay, that's good, Thomas knows you want to propose to Patton." Roman mumbled to himself.

"So since you already have the ring," Roman said, continuing where he left off. "Any day would probably be fine. Just whenever you think you're ready to ask. Come get me and I'll help you set up the date."

"Thank you Roman, I appreciate it." I said. Roman smiled, about to say something but was stopped by a gentle knock on the door.

The door slowly opened, causing me to freeze. I panicked, worrying it was Patton. I grabbed the ring and shoved it back into my pocket.

But instead, it was a very tired looking Virgil. He shut the door behind him, only briefly glancing over at me.

"Hey Logan." He mumbled. "Why so flustered?" I opened my mouth to answer, but Roman cut me off.

"Logan's gonna propose to Patton!" Roman squealed, jumping up and down again.

"Damn specs." Virgil said in a impressed manor. "Didn't think you had it in you to ask Patton to marry you." I sighed and rolled my eyes at his comment.

"Show him the ring! Show him the ring!" Roman said excitedly. I laughed softly and handed Virgil the tiny velvet box.

Virgil's reaction when he opened the box made me proud of myself again.

"That's one hell of a ring." Virgil commented. "It's very pretty."

"Thank you." I said with a smile. I took the box out of his hand and put it back in my pocket.

Virgil turned to Roman and practically fell on him. Roman let out a gentle laugh, holding tightly to Virgil's waist.

"I want cuddles. Now." Virgil demanded.

"Of course mi amor." Roman laughed. I took this as my cue to leave.

"Goodnight you two." I said to them. "I must return to Patton before he wakes and wonders where I've gone."

"Night Lo." Virgil responded.

"Goodnight!" Roman yelled as I shut the door behind me.

I leaned back against the door and let out a sigh. I reached into my pocket and absentmindedly ran my fingers over the box.

I smiled, picturing how the evening would play out in my mind.

I hope Patton says yes.

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A/N
HOLY SHIT WE HIT 50 CHAPTERS!! FIFTY F-ING CHAPTERS I'VE OFFICIALLY WRITTEN 50 CHAPTERS

THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH FOR READING THIS BOOK!!!!! I CAN'T EXPRESS HOW HAPPY IT MAKES ME THAT MY BOOK HAS DONE THIS WEEL!!! I CAN'T THANK YOU GUYS ENOUGH FOR YOUR CONTINUAL SUPPORT OF THIS CRAZY STORY!!!!!THANK YOU GUYS ALL SO MUCHHHHHHH <3 <3 <3 <3 xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

ALSO BIG SHOUT OUT TO Els_Bisexual_Eggos FOR HELPING ME TO WRITE THIS CHAPTER!! YOU GUYS ALL OWE HIM/HER FOR CONVINCING ME TO WRITE LOGICALITY FLUFF INSTEAD OF ANGST!!!!

Q&A (q&gay) TIME
(I put questions that were similar together before answering)

QUESTIONS FOR ME (THE AUTHOR) :

Q : 'So like did you know your like the angst queen and shall get a crown?' @gracechud
A : thank you! And I'm very proud to be considered the angst queen so I'll gladly take a crown

Q : "why do you hurt me like this?" @pepsigh
A : MWA HA H A I just love writing angst and destroying my readers feels

Q : "how are you such a good writer?" @pepsigh
Q : "how are you such an amazing write?" @Fourthwallpolice
A : i read a lot so that helps and I'm honesty not sure how because I've never taken any creative writing classes before.  I guess it kinda just comes naturally

Q : "how are you so talented (Don't say your not - I know you will) Els_Bisexual_Eggos
A : I'm not really (sorry had to xD) and I'm not sure writing just comes naturally to me it's kinda how I cope with everything and I know when you can put feeling and passion into your writing it'll be good

Q : "teach me how to wrrite good plz". OuranAndTStrash
A : sorry, I'm not sure how to.  I think it really all just comes down to grammar, how you describe things, and character dialogue

Q : "what's your favorite vine?"  OuranAndTStrash
A : i WoNt hEsiTaTe BiTcH

Q : "what's your favorite book(s)?"  @hopelessloser14
Q : "what is your favorite book or series?" @1Polar-Beat
A : all the Warriors books by Erin Hunter.  Six of Crows by Leigh Bardougo.  The Asylum series by Madeline Roux.  The Lunar Chronicles by Marisa Meyer.  The Red Queen series by Victoria Aveyard.  Stephen King books are great.  And so many more, I could go on and on about all the books I love I'm a giant book nerd if you couldn't tell

Q : "favorite fanfic genre?"  Marleyexe
A : angst and fluff are always the best but I've come to love HS and college AUs (pssst...go check out my Sanders Sides HS au called But Now We're Stressed Out) *shameless self promo*

Q : "say a actual compliment about yourself you are obligated by goat law to proceed" Marleyexe
A : i can sing and write good that's literally all I got

Q : "when did you start writing and for what fandom?" PanicKai0
A : oh god here we go. I started out writing Creepypasta fics with some OC's I created during the summer of 2017. Please don't read them, they're pretty crappy. May of 2019 was when I got into the Sanders Sides fandom (I saw the accepting Anxiety vids) and I kinda started writing this book right away after seeing all the vids

Q : "favorite ship? Any fandom" PanicKai0
A : don't make me choose between all my babies but if I had to list my top five favorite otps:
1. Prinxiety
2. Logicality
3. Phan
4. Picremi/Remile
5. LAMP (polysanders)

Q : "how do you find the motivation to write?" @destinywarrior123
A : I'm not exactly sure if I'm being honest. It just kinda comes naturally. I'll open up Wattpad with an idea for the chapter, start writing, and before I know it I've written five chapters lol

Q : "does writing energize or exhaust you?" Basically_Hannah
A : energize bc I use writing as a sort of coping mechanism for my depression. It's the one thing I can still do when I have a depressive episode it kinda gets me out of it bc I get so excited and happy about my writing

Q : "how are you not in emotional pain when you write this?" @Pink1Zebra4
A : all the pain just kinda blends into the regular depression and I know how his is all gonna end anyways

Q : "cats or dogs" angstyreadingaddict
A : i fricken love cats <3 I have two indoor cats and two outdoor kittens I'm trying to tame

Q : "Do you know that you sit on the throne of angst and shall be crowned queen?" @anxious_mess400
A : yaaasssss it's my dream to be the angst queen

Q : "favorite meme" @doogle123d
A : MOTH MEMES IDFK WHY BUT I LOVE EM

Q : "do you ship analogical?" @doogle123d
A : yes and no. I would definitely be okay if analogical became canon but I kinda see them more as my brotp I love platonic/brotherly analogical

Q : "who is your favorite published author?" @1Polar-Bear
A : ummmm Erin Hunter, Leigh Bardougo, Marissa Meyer and Stephan King are probably my favorites

Q : "any advice for a writer who's a beginner?" @Catty76
A : basically just say f to people's negative reactions and learn to really take positive reactions to heart. It's your writing, your book, you decide what happens. And honestly, if your having fun while writing and it makes you happy, who gives a fuck if it isn't perfect

QUESTIONS ABOUT THE BOOK :

(I had a lot of questions along the line of my inspiration, so I put them all right here)
Q : "where did you get the inspiration to write this?"  @WetSock_
Q : "how did you come up with such a good book idea?" @Wolfepirate
Q : "what inspired you to make this book?" @doogle123d
Q : "why did you write such a great book?" PanicKai0
Q : "why did you have to write such a good book?" PanicKai0
A : it's a very long complicated story and I kinda wanted to wait till the last chapter to tell all you guys, but I guess now is as good as ever.  I think what started all of this is Fairly Local by Twenty Øne Piløts, hence the lyrics at the very beginning.  At first, I wanted this to be any old cliche depressing Sanders Sides fic where Virgil attempts suicide but Roman saves him la de da and everything ends up happy in the end.  But I just kept writing, and said f the happy ending .  So it became this amazing plot that we have now.  Like nothing that's going on in the book now was planned at all in the beginning.  Corruption didn't exist yet.  Doubt didn't exist either yet either.  At first I was going to have Deceit be the the villain of the whole book, but I love the smiley boi too much.  He gets too much hate and I don't like him always being the bad guy, so than I created Corruption but than I needed a reason why Deceit listened to Corruption so I created Doubt.  At first I was going to use Ignorance and Greed, but than Remus got introduced so I kicked Greed.  Originally, I was going to end the book after Deceit defeated Corruption, but than I had the idea to trap Virgil in the Pit, so I kinda went with that and kept writing. Somehow I've managed to create a whole ass story that all ties together.  Anyways...that's about it 😂

Q : "why is Corruption such a bitc-" PanicKai0
A : i didn't want Deceit to be the villain, so I created my own character.  Which basically allows me to have them do whatever evil thing I want them to without getting backlash if it was a canon character and fans not liking how I wrote them.  And I just enjoy writing villains that people can actually hate and have no sympathy for

Q : "how did Corruption respawn?" @cunningalien765
A : if any side or trait dies, they will respawn. Corruption isn't a true trait, but because what he represented is so "important", he respawned. Also since he represents insanity or madness, everything he does doesn't really follow the normal guidelines of the mindscape. He respawned when he shouldn't have. He was able to keep his memories and so on. I hope that makes sense

Q : "why did Virgil listen to Corruption?"  @cunningalien765
A : Virgil understands that Corruption is an extremely powerful entity and he can't really stop him, especially now that Corruption has a hold on his mind (being able to telepathically communicate with Virgil and force images and memories into Virgil's unwilling mind) Virgil is also willing to suffer to keep the others safe, which Corruption knows and plays towards by threatening Quinn. Virgil knows it would destroy Deceit to loose Quinn again, so he's willing to let Corruption control him and beat him up to keep the others safe.  That's all Virgil wants.  He doesn't care about his own personal safety, he just wants the others to remain safe and happy

Q : "can Corruption ever die or disappear?"  @destinywarrior123
A : Since the answer involves an unpublished chapter, let's just say the only person that can actually kill/defeat Corruption is Thomas.  Stabbing Corruption in the eye is the only way you can hurt him or make him disappear.  Due to his glitching body, he can't feel pain or be killed.  For example a lot of you guys complained that Deceit shot himself instead of Corruption and yea that makes sense logically for him to have shot Corruption, but Deceit knew that the bullets would have literally no effect on Corruption.  He can't be harmed, like at all.  If he got shot, that part of his body would glitch and the bullet would go straight through him without causing any damage.  Hope I explained that enough so it makes sense

Q : "will this ever have a happy ending?"  @destinywarrior123
A : yes, we'll get to a happy ending eventually, trust me.  I already know how I'm going to end the book, I even know the very last paragraph I'll write.  But I just like writing all the angst and fluff so I just kinda keep pushing the ending off

Q : "what inspired you to add glitches as a part of Corruptions character?" @InfinitesimalDna
A : Corruption is a glitch of them mind. He represents insanity and instability and my mind kinda went...hmmm...so someone that would twitch and stutter...thats kinda like glitching...and since that goes with electricity...he gets that's too

Q : "do you go by a plot or do you just get random ideas and try to put them in your book?"  @heyheyIguess
A : it's a little bit of both. I started with a plot but changed it a lot as I got further and further into the fandom.  I had the plan for Corruption's reveal and all that stuff, but rewrote it a good 4 times before actually publishing it. And now I'm just working on getting to the end of the story. And pretty much every other part of the book is stuff I think of randomly and sometimes it gets added into the book (examples are Quinn (he was not going to be apart of this story at all originally), Roman and Virgil's date, this entire chapter (hell I didn't even think of having Logan proposing to Patton until I started writing the chapter), Remy and Emile's relationship and so on) and well so far that system has worked for me

I CANT THANK YOU GUYS ENOUGH FOR YOUR CONTINUAL SUPPORT OF MY BOOK ITS HONESTLY SO AMAZING AND IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME THAT YOU GUYS LIKE MY BOOK 🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

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anyways....
Till next time xoxo
—Jinxx