nO tRiGgEr wArNiNg?! WhAt iS tHiS?!FLUFF?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?!!?!??!?!?!
there's just excessive swearing thanks to trashy rat boi

Remus POV
Oh god, my head was pounding.  This is by far one of the worst headaches I've have in a long time. 

I let out a little grunt when I opened my eyes.  It is way too bright wherever I am. 

I heard movement and than someone's face came into view above mine.  And the only thought I could process at this moment was;

Fuck.  He's beautiful. 

The person smiled down comfortingly at me.  He had gorgeous brown eyes with little gold flecks in them.  Despite having the same type of hair as everyone else here, his seemed more wavy than others.  There was a soft littering of freckles across his nose and cheeks. 

"Where...where am I?"  I mumbled, pushing myself up onto my elbows.  I shut my eyes as the room spun around me. 

"You passed out in front of me last night.  I didn't exactly know where you live so I just brought you back to my apartment."  Answered the person. 

"I did?"  I said in confusion, reopening.  I don't remember anything after watching Ignorance die.  That bastard.  He deserved that death. 

"Yes."  He answered.  "You were extremely drunk." 

"Who are you?"  I asked, looking him over.  He sat down on an armchair next to the couch I was on.  He had light blue jeans, a flowy white blouse, and a long light grey cardigan.  There was a pretty flower crown on his head, made out of big white flowers. (Begonias)

"Oh, silly me."  He laughed.  "I'm Innocence.  But my real name is Evan." 

"Oh."  I managed to say, slightly in shock.  So he'll never like me then...  We are literally opposites. 

"I'm Remus."  I told him. 

"I know."  He mumbled.  "You're an actual side." 

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"Just that you actually get to meet and talk with Thomas.  You're important to Thomas, whereas the traits, such as myself, don't really matter that much."  Evan explained. 

"I don't understand."  I mumbled, rubbing my forehead.  "Than again, I'm pretty fucking hungover."

"What does that mean?"  Evan asked, titling his head. 

"What does what mean?"

"Fucking?"  Evan said.  "I've never heard that word." 

I had to refrain from bursting out laughing.  Is he seriously that innocent?  Then again, that makes him even more adorable.

God.  Stop mind.  Not again.  Not after everything with Ignorance.  Not going down this road again.  Besides, Evan could never like me.  We're too different. 

"Don't...don't repeat that."  I laughed, unable to help myself.  "It's a bad word." 

"I don't understand."  He mumbled.  "Anyways, I made some lunch, since you've slept in till almost noon." 

He had a bubbly personality.  Kinda reminded me of an even more innocent Patton.  And more shy and flustered easily. 

I slowly got up off the couch and followed him to the kitchen.  His house was very bright.  All pastel and white.  Very different than what I was used to. 

There were plants, ranging from tiny succulents to giant houseplants, placed all over the place.  It was an open concept house so I could see everything.  There were fairy lights everywhere.

One corner really caught my attention.  There was an old wooden piano.  Next to it was a big bay window with a guitar, ukulele, and violin.  Tons of sheet music was littered everywhere around it. 

I sat down on a barstool and leaned my head down on the counter.  I understand that I'm probably being an ungrateful guest, but I'm too tired to care. 

"Here ya go."  Evan said, placing two painkillers and a glass of water next to me. 

Mumbling a 'thanks' I quickly dry swallowed the pills. 

"Would you like anything to eat?"  He asked, leaning against the counter across from me. 

"No."  I said, getting off the barstool.  "I'm just gonna go.  Thanks for your help and whatnot but I'm going now." 

"Oh okay."  Evan mumbled.  "Goodbye!" 

"Whatever."  I mumbled, slamming the door shut behind me. 

~~~~le time skip bc I is dumb lazy author~~~~~

"Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck." I repeated over and over, walking quickly back to Evan's house.

God damn my fucking emotions. Why does Evan have to be so adorable and precious?! Why can't I get him out of my mind?!

Somehow I managed to convince myself to go over to Evan's house this afternoon. 

Well actually, that was Roman. 

We talked, mostly calmly, about what happened last night.  I ended up telling him about Evan.  He said I should get him some flowers, apologize for being an asshole, and then see what happens.

So here I was. Bouquet of dead flowers in hand, because for some reason they wilted within minutes of me touching them, standing outside Evan's house now.

I took a deep breath and knocked on the door. I waited for a few seconds before I heard the door opening.

Evan answered the door, an adorable soft smile on his lips.

"Hi Remus." He greeted me cheerily. "What are you doing back here?"

I completely lost my train of thought when I saw his adorable face. Now he was wearing a flower crown with tiny blue flowers and those tiny white flowers that you see with roses. (Forget me nots and gyp flowers)

"I..." I mumbled but trialed off in embarrassment. "I wanted to apologize for being a dick this morning. You helped me and I was just a jerk to you."

I shoved the flowers into his hands, making him giggle a little.

"Aww thank you Remus!" Evan said. "But you aren't that. You were hungover, so it made sense that you were a little grumpy."

God damn. Why does he have to see the best in me and be so forgiving? He's making this harder than it should be with his preciousness.

"Wait...how do you know what dick means but you didn't know what fuck meant this morning?" I asked, raising an eyebrow in suspicion.

"Oh." Evan mumbled, his face seeming to fall in sadness. "I don't really represent a sexual innocence now. I was stripped of that part of me when Thomas lost his innocence. It still effects me in some ways, but I really just represent as child like wonder or innocence now."

"Oh." I breathed out, feeling bad for him. I remember how horrible the split was for Roman and I. That's probably what it was like, I'm guessing, except it's just him now.

"Don't worry about it." Evan said, back to his cheeriness. "It happened a long time ago. I'm fine now."

"Sorry the flowers died." I said, changing the subject.

"It's okay," Evan told me. He gently ran his hands over the flowers and they suddenly started blooming again.

"How'd you do that?" I asked in shock.

"Not what I did, what you did." He said with a laugh. "Because of what you represent, it killed the flowers. But now being in the presence of someone like myself, they bloomed again."

"Doesn't make sense, but I'll take your word for it." I said. "That's annoying though that I'll kill any plant I touch."

I'm glad the flowers were blooming now. I didn't know what type flowers these were, but they seem to make Evan smile. I like that.

Wait. Why is his chin glowing. His chin started glowing when he moved to smell the flowers.

"Why's your chin glowing?" I couldn't help but ask.

Evan looked at me in confusion before looking down at the flowers. Then he smiled again and gently removed a certain flower from the bouquet.

"This is a buttercup." He said happily. "One of my favorite flowers. When you hold it up to your chin, it sometimes makes it look like your chin is glowing."

He held the flower up to his chin to demonstrate. His chin was glowing a soft gold now. God damn he's beautiful.

He then moved the flower over to me and held it beneath my chin. He frowned.

"Aw it doesn't work for you." He pouted.

"Sorry Buttercup." I said, the nickname slipping out before I could catch myself.

Evan's eyes widened and he blushed. Just like what I did when I realized what I said.

"Sorry," I mumbled. "Is it okay if I call you that?"

"Yeah it is." Evan told me. "I like cute nicknames like that."

I'll have to keep that in mind.

"Do you wanna come in? I just finished making dinner?" Evan asked me, opening the door wider.

"Yeah sure." I mumbled, following him into my house.

Evan POV
I couldn't help the small smile on my face as Remus followed me into the kitchen. My heart was beating faster than usual and I'm pretty sure I'm blushing.

I don't know what this feeling is. But the thing is, I love all the sappy romance stuff. I can tell I'm getting a crush on Remus.

It's wrong. Very wrong. But it feels right at the same time.

We're too different. What we represent... It would never work out.

I grabbed a vase out of a cupboard and set it in the sink. I filled it with water and then set it in the middle of the table.

Remus sat down at the table. I grabbed another plate and silverware and set them down in front of him. He smiled up at me in thanks.

"I made homemade pizza if that's okay with you." I told him, getting the pizza out of the oven.

"Who doesn't love pizza?" He asked with a laugh.

"I don't know." I laughed. "I was just making sure."

"Pizza sauce reminds me of blood." Remus stated randomly. "You can stab a pizza and pretend it's your enemies because the cheese feels like skin and the red sauce that comes out is like the blood."

"Ummm." I muttered, kinda in shock.

"Sorry, I do that some times." Remus said sincerely. But I've heard around that he never apologizes for his weird thoughts...?

"It's okay." I told him gently, setting the pizza down on the table. I took my seat and we started eating.

~~~~MaGiCaL TiMe sKiP~~~~

Remus POV
"It was nice hanging out with you!" Evan said cheerily.

"Yeah, it was fun hanging out." I agreed. "We should do it again some time."

"That would be amazing."

"I'll come get you tomorrow around lunch time." I told him. "I have an idea."

"Okay, see you tomorrow than." He said, waving goodbye to me. I waved back and left his house.

I took a deep breath. What have I gotten myself into?

Corruption still has Virgil and he's still trying to destroy Thomas. Ignorance just died literally yesterday.

And here I am trying to hang out with Evan. Someone who I don't stand a chance with. He probably doesn't like me at all. He's probably just being nice to me because he doesn't want to hurt my feelings.

But some of it seems genuine. We spent almost two hours talking and eating food. All that time spent getting to know each other just made me fall more head over heels for him.

Evan's just too precious.

He told me he can play piano, violin, guitar, and ukulele. He writes his own music sometimes too.

He loves gardening. Buttercups and Dahlias are his favorite flowers. And of course, me being my demented self, went on a long rant about the Black Dahlia Murder after he told me that he liked those flowers.

Evan just giggled at my ranting and obvious obsession with strange murders. I liked the fact that he was obviously terrified by those murders, but listened because of how much I liked them.

But I got to laugh and watch him rant about all his flower crowns so, win-win situation I guess. He grows the flowers and then threads them into crowns himself. He told me all about which ones were his favorites and how he made them. He promised to make me one too.

He also loves animals. Like, a lot. He said kittens and baby bunnies are his favorites. But he's sad because animals don't exist in the mindscape, so he's never gotten to see one in person.

I promised him in my mind to take him to the Imagination and create all those animals for him too see.

I also had to explain myself. Why I was drunk last night. And all that shit. And I had to clear up about all the rumors surrounding me for him. But I had to be careful because of how innocent he was.

Evan also had to explain to me that he knows what sex is, he just doesn't know any details about it. So he doesn't understand all the kinky, juicy stuff. Stuff that I would like.

Yet another reason why we are too different. That it's never ever going to work. He would never like me romantically.

I need to stop getting my hopes up. No one could ever love a freak like me.

A/N
Ummm I got tagged 5 times by the same person 😂 thanks Els_Bisexual_Eggos for all the tags (and don't feel bad I love getting tagged)

OOF HERE WE GO

1. Nope not at the moment
2. Bold of you to assume anyone could ever love me
3. Cecile
4. Single Pringle
5. My fren emisareader
6. Cake by Melanie Martinez
7. 92%
8. emisareader
9. Not best friends but my only guy friend, his name is Caden
10. PRINXIETY, LOGICALITY, REMILE, REMUS X EVAN (someone make a ship name)
11. Originally it was just to read, but then I started writing
12. Already shown ya guys
13. None-ya business but it's in the summer

1. None-ya business
2. Playing piano, writing (obviously), baking, kayaking
3. Fairly Local by Twenty Øne Piløts
4. Already told ya guys
5. To be happy, to fall in love, to have my dream job (high school English teacher), to eventually get Thomas Sanders to read my book ig
6. Yes
7. Like four (including internet ones)
8. NO KILL IT WITH FIRE
9. English
10. The USA
11. NOPE
12. Idk kinda underweight for my age but otherwise I'm healthy
13. What
14. Gerard Way, Anna Blue, Billie Eilish & Melanie Martinez
15. Yes two
16. Kinda
17. As in classes at school??? I have 8 every day
18. No
19. Single and really damn lonely
20. Thomas Sanders lol

1. The Queen of Angst (otherwise no but I really like cute nicknames but no one calls me those)
2. Hazel
3. Dark blonde ig
4. I've been diagnosed with severe anxiety disorder and mild depression
5. Grey-blue
6. My garden
7. Thomas Sanders, Dan Howell, Phil Lester
8. Fairly Local by Twenty Øne Piløts
9. Cats
10. all the Warriors books by Erin Hunter. Six of Crows by Leigh Bardougo. The Asylum series by Madeline Roux. The Lunar Chronicles by Marisa Meyer. The Red Queen series by Victoria Aveyard. Stephen King books are great. And so many more, I could go on and on about all the books I love I'm a giant book nerd if you couldn't tell

1. Idk it sounds creepy and I love Black Veil Brides and Jinxx is my favorite member of the band
2. I'm not repeating myself
3. My icon is a black rose and my background is black waves
4. ANGST ANGST ANGST ANGST ANGST
5. Six of Crows by Leigh Bardougo, Warriors by Erin Hunter, Asylum by Madeline Roux
6. My parents have no idea that this book exists

1. Creeped Out
2. 5'4"
3. Take Me To Church by Hozier
4. Cats
5. Cancer
6. Fire
7. Single and hella lonely
8. My Chemical Romance and Twenty Øne Piløts
9. Music

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