Epilogue- Dear John Lauren's, my one and only love

Dear John Laurens my one and only love,

Fuck, I should've known not to push you, I should've known you couldn't swim. Now you're gone because of me and my stupidity. If it wasn't for me you wouldn't be dead. Even though I loved you with all my heart I just, I wish I never met you and I wish we never fell in love. I'm sorry my sweet boy. I'm so sorry for what I've done. I'm sorry for what happened with Eliza and I'm sorry for cheating after I took your virginity. You'll never know how much you meant to me, my feelings haven't changed for you. Just to see your smile, eyes and hear your voice or laugh, I wish I could just see and hear you for one last moment. I wish I could hug you, kiss you and protect you again. I wish I could hold your small soft hands that were always warm. I wish I could smell your scent and hold you when you're sad. I'm sorry my sweet boy. I love you with my everything and all that I am. I'm sorry my love. I'll never forget you.

I love you
-Alexander Hamilton