December 24th 2018

Louis would've been 27 today. Harry thought to himself as he sat in the rocking chair he'd spent so many hours in rocking and comforting Louis. His eyes were glazed and fixated on the Christmas tree that stood in the corner of the room. It was adorned with gold lights, and photos of him and Louis decorated the branches.

It'd been a long month without his husband. He missed him so much everyday. He knew he'd have to get a job soon, as he was of course no longer receiving the disability pay anymore. But, he wanted to wait until after Christmas. It was too much to worry about as he was still grieving.

He checked his phone, realizing the battery was low, and headed up to his bedroom to get his charger. When he walked in, he noticed the box of flash drives, sticking out from under the bed. He'd forgotten all about those!

He grabbed his charger, before carefully grabbing the box. He'd seen all of the videos except for the one titled: "Watch After I Go <3 ps, sorry for leaving you." Harry teared up, seeing Louis' scribbly handwriting that he hadn't seen in ages.

He went back to the rocking chair, plugged in his phone, and then turned on his laptop, inserting the flash drive.

"Hi Harry," Louis spoke quieter than in the usual videos, he seemed more solemn. "If you're watching this, I guess it means that I'm gone. Wow, that's a scary thought." He shuddered.

Harry bit his wobbling lip as he watched. "Well, first I want to say you're always in my heart. I've told you this so many times I know, but I just wanted to remind you."

Harry put a hand over his heart and nodded, whispering, "And you're always in mine."

"I'm sorry that I had to leave you babe, that was never what I wanted. And I wish I could've stayed.. but the universe just wasn't on our side this time. I'm also sorry that you probably had to see me in a pretty bad way. I hope my forgetfulness, confusion and disability never got too much in the way. I'm sure you probably had to care for me and I'm sorry." Louis said, looking down.

Harry wished he could lift his chin, look him in the eyes, and tell him that it was okay. That he had been more than willing to care for him. But he couldn't.

"But uhmmm please don't waste the rest of your life. Don't become a recluse who never sees the light of day or never dates around, you deserve to find someone."

Harry shook his head. He wouldn't become a recluse, but he definitely didn't want to date someone new.

"Or if you don't wanna date, that's fine. Get a pet, adopt a kid, do something so you're not lonely." Louis said softly, "Enjoy your life okay? You only live once, make the most of it."

Harry smiled a little, wiping his eyes.

"I know you're crying Haz." Louis said to the camera, "Now stop it! Get out there and take on the world! Start fresh. Love you always. Goodbye Harry."

"Goodbye Lou." Harry whispered, closing his laptop. Louis was right, he couldn't mope about for the rest of his life. He needed to do something. For Louis.

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Later that evening, Harry received a text from Lottie, announcing that the baby had been born and they'd love a visitor.

When he arrived at the hospital, he walked up to the labor and delivery floor, entering Lottie's room. She was cuddled up with her new baby boy in her arms, her new boyfriend, Niall, at her side.

"Hey guys. Congratulations," Harry smiled as he walked in, and came closer to Lottie looking at the baby. "Well hello there little one." He cooed.

Lottie and Niall shared a look, and Niall spoke up. "Thanks for coming Harry, listen we have a question for you."

"Oh, sure what is it?" Harry asked, as Lottie passed him the tiny baby to hold.

"We were wondering, if you'd like to be his nanny during the day time? We know you needed a job, and we all work full time." Lottie explained.

Harry was overjoyed at the idea. He missed having someone to take care of honestly. "I'd love that, so much." He nodded, and kissed the baby's soft little head. "What's his name by the way?"

"William." Lottie said softly, "William Tomlinson."

Harry teared up, he'd been named after Louis. "William, I promise to take the best care of you. I'll take care of you, just like I took care of your mummy's brother." He promised the sweet baby. "And he's looking after you too. I promise."

FIN

Thank you all so much for reading, and sticking through to the end of this book. It means so much to me you have no idea! I love you all so so so so so much!!!!! Please check out my other fics that will be coming soon, they're each very different from another and I hope that there's one you'll enjoy.

All the love in the world and more xxx

-Sunnie

Also stay tuned if you want more of Louis' flashdrives :)