May 13 2018

Louis hadn't spoken a single word since the day Lottie had come over. He could make sounds and that was the extent of it.

It was midmorning, and Harry was currently in bed with Louis as Louis weakly held onto Bobo, he didn't even recognize the toy as an animal anymore, it was just an object that felt soft and nice, so he liked holding it, though he couldn't hold onto it well. His motor skills were pretty much gone. They were watching Netflix on Harry's laptop, though most of it was lost on Louis. He missed their life together, he missed the way Louis used to be. He even missed who Louis was two months ago. Sure, he'd been confused, but he could speak a little, and was more mobile. Harry missed that.

"I've gotta take a pee love." Harry murmured, kissing Louis' head. "I'll be right back" He got up, and Louis just watched, not having any understanding of what was going on.

Harry went to the bathroom as quickly as he could but apparently not quick enough. He nearly had a heart attack when he heard a thud come from the bedroom. "Shit." He muttered, rushing back to the bedroom. "Louis!" He called out, not seeing him on the bed. He went around, and saw him curled up on the floor. The poor man had tried to get out of bed, but had forgotten how to stand so he'd immediately fallen. Harry though, thought he'd merely fallen out of bed. "You're alright babe, it's alright." Harry said softly, his heart breaking when he saw Louis was in tears.

Louis knew something was wrong with him. He knew he was broken. He didn't understand why, how, or even what was wrong with him. But, there was some sort of awareness in him that told his body he wasn't okay.

Harry pulled him into his arms, rocking him back and forth, just trying to soothe him as he cried. "I'm so sorry lou, so sorry." Harry whispered, kissing his hair again and again.

The only thing Harry hated more than seeing Louis cry, was knowing there was nothing he could do to fix it.

A long while later, Louis had calmed down, and Harry was relieved. "How about a nice warm bath hmm?" He suggested slowly, not knowing if Louis understood.

He helped him up, and held him steady as he always did, and he choked back his tears as he watched Louis' legs wobble and try to move, before the man just fell back into Harry. "Oh no... Louis" Harry knew what that meant, and he desperately tried again to get Louis to walk, but it only resulted in the same outcome.

Completely ditching the bath idea Harry sunk to the floor, Louis still in his arms, and broke down into sobs. The past ten years he'd witnessed the love of his life essentially revert back to an infant like state. Memory is a huge part of a person, and Louis' had been ripped away before Harry's eyes. First his short term memories, then his long term memories, then the memories of his loved ones. Next was his day to day ability to think, his ability to speak, his ability to eat on his own. Then his muscle memory in his fingers and hands, and now... now he couldn't even walk. Harry knew what was next, and he wouldn't even think of it. He couldn't.

"Louis...don't do this to me... you can't do this to me" He sobbed, holding his husband as close as he possibly could. "I need you... I need you more than I need air baby." He put a hand on Louis' cheek, looking into his eyes. "You're my everything. The love of my life."

Louis looked at him with his sad, empty hollow eyes. He couldn't comprehend a single word Harry had said, but he could sense something was up. Slowly, he did his best to lean his head on Harry's chest, which of course brought Harry to more tears at how sweet he was.

"This isn't fair Louis. This isn't fair. If the true Louis, who is stuck behind this awful disease could only see you now..." Harry choked out, "his heart would be broken. Just like mine."

Harry continued to just ramble on for a while, needing to let all his feelings and thoughts out, even if Louis didn't understand.

Louis ended up falling asleep in the middle of one of Harry's sentences, which only solidified the reality that he didn't comprehend any of it.

With a heavy heart, Harry kissed his sleeping husband on the forehead and carried him up to bed again to let him nap a bit.

As Louis slept, Harry picked up Bobo off the floor, and noticed a box he'd never seen under the bed as he did. Curiously, he reached under the bed to grab it, wondering what could be.

Opening the box, he found it to be full of labelled flash drives. "Oh Louis..." he whispered, having a slight idea what this could be. There were several different ones, but the one that stood out to him at that moment was one that read, in Louis' scribbly handwriting: "Watch When You're Feeling Sad.:)" He sniffled and climbed back into bed, opening up his laptop and plugging it in.

Soon, a bright eyed looking Louis popped up onto the screen.

"Hey hazzie! Having a bad day?" He asked, with the biggest of smiles.

Harry teared up, and nodded, even though of course, a video couldn't respond.

"Well cheer up!" Louis said into the camera with an adorable giggle. "Bet you'll remember where I am" he said, briefly turning the camera to show his location. He was on the balcony of the Ritz, the hotel they'd stayed in years ago when Harry had taken him to the concert.

"London... The Ritz" Harry whispered as the memories of the trip played through his mind.

"I probably don't remember it, but do me a favor and when the video is over, remind me of this trip?" Louis chirped, making Harry's heart ache as he looked at the very different Louis who was asleep beside him.

"Anyway, I'm supposed to be cheering you up aren't I?" Louis said with a laugh. "I've never been too good at that mushy gushy stuff but I guess I can try... you know this trip meant so much to me Harry. I hope you're looking back on this trip with good memories, be it sure as hell was an amazing holiday. And the sex wasn't too bad either" He smirked. Harry chuckled quietly, wiping his eyes as he smiled, remembering that night clearly. Louis was right about that, it was wonderful. "I do have to tell you though, it's four am and you're snoring like a lawnmower." He rolled his eyes, "hence why I'm awake and making this video. You should be grateful I still love someone who snores like that!"

Harry chuckled again, love for Louis completely filling his heart. He hadn't heard his sweet voice in ages, and this was exactly what he needed.

"Anyway..." Louis let out a sigh, "Stay positive yeah? The sun goes down, sure, then it comes back up. Whatever hard thing you're dealing with right now, probably related to me and I'm sorry for that, but just know it'll get better again. I know you'll get through this Harry, even if I don't. All I ask, is please, please, don't let go. I need you. Remember, Harry Styles, you're always in my heart. Yours sincerely, Louis." He said, blowing a kiss to the camera and just like that, the screen went black again.

Harry was so overwhelmed with emotion he hardly knew what to do, so he just pulled the sleeping Louis into his arms and whispered, "Don't worry Louis, I won't let go."

Hey guys! Hope you liked this chapter! :) I feel like I get too feelsy sometimes oops.. Anyway, thanks so much for reading. I have a question, do you guys prefer the flashbacks or the current moment chapters????

-Sunnie