Make It Stop (edited)
Matthew pov
It all happened so quick, there wasn't a warning or anything just the huge pang in my chest that came so sudden like a bullet piercing through me with great force knocking the wind out of me. I could feel myself losing my balance and falling back but pairs of hands grabbed at my arms keeping me upright...Alfred tried to kill himself this morning with a bullet to the head.
The gun was to his head but Arthur came to his room just in time causing the bullet to just graze his head and thankfully missing his skull. Arthur, Francis and I were all waiting in the hospital waiting room all anxiously wanting to know how Alfred was, the clock ticked obnoxiously counting the seconds that soon turned into hours it was taunting me making me want to yell out loud
And finally, as if my prayers and pleas were heard a doctor wearing a long white coat with a tablet in hand arrived with a grim look displayed on his features. "Are you all related to Alfred Jones?" he asked, his voice was low and raspy, Arthur stood up quickly from his chair. "Y-yes!..umm I mean yes we are his family." A blush of embarrassment flared up in his cheeks as he looked down at his feet.
"You see..there was minor damage to Alfred's skull but it seems to be healing quite quickly the only problem is that we don't know when he'll wake up or... if he'll ever wake up." He ended with a look of pity towards us, Arthur covered his mouth with his hands holding in a sob that escaped his lips. "I'm very sorry...you may see him now if you'd all like" Dr turner -his name was displayed on his name tag- said as he gestured his arm toward the open door.
I held onto Arthur's hand tightly before giving him a reassuring smile and together him and I including my papa Francis followed the doctor to Alfred's room. When we entered the room the sight was so heartbreaking I could feel tears fill up I my eyes making my vision blurry, sobs were heard by both my loved ones as they embraced each other in a tight hug crying in each other's shoulders.
Alfred was lying on the large hospital bed, a secure bandage was wrapped around his head, his body was strongly built but now he looked weak as if one punch could easily break him. I slowly walked over to a chair that rested near his bed and sat on it, I reached over to grab one of his hands. They were freezing cold which frightened me a little but the shallow rise and fall from his chest calmed me down a bit. "I should've been there... I left you all alone." I choked a sob as I let my tears stream down my cheeks.
I felt a strong hand rest on my shoulder and with teary eyes, I looked up to see papa Francis giving me a sad smile. "We have to go mattheiu.." He said as he glanced over at Arthur who was at the other side of Alfred's bed, "yeah...I'll meet you guys at the waiting room in a bit," I said hoarsely staring at Alfred's sleeping face. He gave a slight nod and left with Arthur close behind
"Hey Alfie...you probably can't hear me but I just want to let you know that... I'm sorry." I looked at our intertwined hands. "I-I love you, Alfie." I barely managed to say above a whisper. The door suddenly opened making me jump, a nurse with brown hair and blue eyes entered. "Oh? I guess they all left.." She muttered to herself, seriously? I'm literally right in the middle of the room. With an irritated smile, I sighed softly and brought my knees up to my chest as I examined the nurse who walked towards Alfred's bed.
She switched her gaze from Alfred's IV monitor to me, her eyes went wide and she let out a startled yelp. "Oh my! I didn't even know you were there." I stifled a chuckled. "It's alright...um have you seen two men? One of them has weird eyebrows and the other is kinda a pervert." I asked curiously. Her eyes instantly lit up with recognition. "Oh yes, I just saw them leaving the building." A kind smile was placed upon her lips.
How can they quickly forget about me? Am I not as important as Alfred?
And as if just to answer my question the nurse turned her head towards Alfred. "I think they were here for him. They must love him dearly, are you a friend of his?" This question literally broke my heart. "N-no I'm-" "Well sorry to intrude but I must be leaving now, bye!" she cut me off and waved a quick goodbye before leaving the room leaving me alone with Alfred. I rested my head on Alfred's lap and with a shaky sigh I closed my eyes and felt the stress I've been holding in lift itself from my shoulders, and surprisingly I fell into a comfortable sleep.
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I felt soft fingers stroke my hair soothingly, I groaned quietly. "Papa...stop that," I whined and swatted the hand away from my hair, a low chuckle was heard. "How can you compare me to that pervert?" the voice said dramatically, the voice was strangely familiar my eyes shot wide open and I quickly sat up. I met with a pair of blue eyes and was greeted with a wide smile, tears instantly welled up in my eyes as they fell down my cheeks in streams, I sobbed and hiccupped uncontrollably.
I haven't cried this hard for so long, I think I was a little colony the first time I had cried so hard. My papa had given me a stuffed bear, it was my first kumajiro, Alfred had wanted it but I didn't give it to him. We fought and pulled at the bear like tug and war and it had torn in half, I was a total mess that day I felt a pit of sadness in my stomach, but this time I felt happiness and relief.
"M-Mattie!? What's wrong?" Alfred asked worriedly, I rubbed my eyes and sniffed. "Nothing... I'm just so happy...You're awake" I said between hiccups and smiled, Alfred's face softened but still held a look of concern, he sat up with a groan and grabbed a hold of my wrist pulling me on the bed making me yelp in surprise. Alfred pulled me into a bone crushing hug memories flooded into my mind causing a pang of guilt to surge through me
I began to sob again as I clutched onto Alfred's hospital gown "I'm sorry!" I particularly yelled causing Alfred to flinch. "N-no Mattie it wasn't your fault!" he rubbed circles on my back in an attempt to calm me down. "I did it because I was in so much stress, my country is in huge debt, and lots of other bad stuff is happening I just couldn't handle it anymore," he explained in a low murmur.
He then whispered soothing words to me which finally calmed me down. "Please...don't ever do that again." I pleaded to hold onto Alfred's hand giving it a little squeeze. "I promise I'll never ever do it again." He hugged me tighter. "...that's all I needed to hear," I said in a low whisper as I rested my head on his shoulder, maybe...this time I'll be noticed.
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Weeks later Alfred was finally released from the hospital, both Arthur and Francis had broken into tears of happiness and gave Alfred a huge hug. Everything was returning back to its usual state although my family has completely forgotten about that day I really did believe that maybe..just maybe I could finally be noticed.
But all my hopes were crushed when I decided to bid Alfred good morning during a G8 meeting, he gave me a quizzical look along with a gasp of fear. "Dude I think I'm hearing things please don't tell me I'm turning into Arthur!" he shouted with fear. "You damn git!" Arthur yelled angrily. "Actually it's me." I waved a hand in front of Alfred's face, he jumped back and looked at me again with a questioning look.
"Umm dude....who are you?"
"I...I'm Canada..."
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