Matthew's Pov
After a couple of weeks passed by and I began to feel better the atmosphere between me and Alfred became dangerously depressing, the mood was glum. His once happy smile was gone and was painfully forced so he wouldn't worry me but I noticed right away.

I was recently sitting on the couch with Kuchiki in my arms pressed against my chest. "Hey kuma...do you think everything will be alright?" I asked in a concerned whisper, he looked up at me with a confused gaze. "...who are you?.." He asked in confusion. I took a shaky breath and tightened my grip on him. "I'm Canada...Matthew Williams..." I buried my face in his fur quietly whimpering. "Please remember me..."

He shifted underneath me and clawed at my shoulder. "I remember you!...just remember my name!" his tiny high pitched voice was laced with concern. "...you're Kumajirou..." I whispered. "And you're Canada." He responded. Eventually, after a while I began to doze off, my chin resting at the top of Kuma's fuzzy head Alfred came downstairs and sat next to me, I reluctantly kept my face hidden not wanting to see his dull lifeless eyes. He slung his arm over my shoulder and pulled me against his chest.

I froze in surprise as he kept quiet. "A-Alfred?.." He pressed my head against his chest so I could hear his strong and steady heartbeat. "How are you feeling?" he asked, "I'm okay," I mumbled glumly and tightly gripped onto his shirt. "But..are you okay?" I looked up at him. "Of course I am! I'm the hero, the hero is always okay!" he grinned forcefully.

"...Alfred you really do love me right?" I asked reluctantly. "Of course I do!" he held me tighter. "Then...if you really do love me. Tell me what's wrong." His body was tense now and his heartbeat began to quicken. "Nothing's wrong." He stated with a calm and steady tone. "I'm not dumb Alfred!" I exclaimed and pulled away from his embrace so I could meet his eyes.

Worst mistake of my life, they were dull, lifeless, the light that gleamed in them was gone. "I know when you're sad.." I looked down and placed my hand over my heart. "Because somehow we're connected...and I could feel your pain." My heart was painfully hammering against my chest. "And right now this pain is unbearable," I whispered. "Please...tell me what's wrong." I forced myself to look at him this time. "Mattie I'm forgetting you.." He muttered with guilt gripping his voice.

I froze in fear. "No...please tell me this is a joke." My blood felt like ice pulsing through my veins. "I'm sorry Mattie...it really is happening. I'm losing my memories of you, and I can't stop it." I grasped onto his shoulders and looked at him. "Please Alfie...don't leave me alone again..I-I can't live without you!" I yelled, my breathing quick and unsteady.

Alfred quickly grabbed ahold of my wrists. "I promise I'm going to try everything to remember you. But I'm going to need your help." He explained with a calm and steady voice. "Anything, I just want you to remember me," I said quickly. "First...please calm down." He softly ran his hand through my hair. "H-how can I calm down? I...I just can't." I hadn't even realized I was shaking until Alfred pulled me into a tight hug.

"Just please, I need you to calm down." He rubbed my back. "O-okay... I'm okay." I took a shaky breath. "Thank you." He pulled me away from his embrace and held my face in his hands. "We need to do something that we will never ever forget. Something really unforgettable." I looked into his eyes. "... I'm going to try everything..." He smiled and kissed the top of my head.

"Let's get going then, I have enough money so we can go anywhere." He ushered me from the sofa and practically dashed out of the house and hopped into his car. "Wait right now!?" I asked in surprise. "Yup!" he grinned and fastened his seatbelt as he started the car. "No regrets right?" he looked at me as I buckled up my own seatbelt. "....yeah, no regrets from here on out." He beamed happily. "Great, let's try the beach first okay? I'm sure it'll be fun." I smiled as my heart dropped. "We can also swim together." The happiness in his voice made me feel terrible. "Yeah, I can't wait," I responded. But there was just one tiny little problem... I didn't know how to swim.

I looked out the window dreadfully. "You should take a nap, it'll take a while to get there," Alfred suggested in a quiet mumble. "Are you sure?" I asked in concern. "Yes I'm sure, now stop being so stubborn and take care of yourself okay?" worry glazed over his eyes. "I-I do take care of myself.." I nervously stammered. "I just think that you should worry about yourself more." He shrugged. "I will, don't worry about it alright." I frowned and rested my head against the cushion of the seat.

I closed my eyes and listened to the soft and comforting noises around me, at first there was nothing but the sound of the quiet hum of the car and the gentle voice of Alfred humming a soothing tune but then the noise slowly began to die out and I was ever so slowly engulfed into sleep.

I was mostly in a void of darkness in my dreams, they were quick and when I woke up every time I felt like I had slept only for a couple of minutes. But this was different, I was in a void of light, the floor was clear and reflective almost like a mirror. I looked around trying to find something, anything. A far silhouette of a person made me freeze in my spot I tilted my head in confusion, my vision cleared up and I could see small changes I could somewhat make out the person.

Their height was the same, and the way their jacket hung on their shoulders quickly gave out the obvious. "Alfred?" I called out as I made my way towards him. Little by little I was able to see how he looked like completely. "Alfred it is you, what are you doing?" I reached for his hand but was stopped when he backed away from me, confusion and fear filling his features. "Alfred?..what's wrong?" I asked worriedly.

He looked at me. "Umm...I'm sorry do I know you?" he asked as he nervously scratched the back of his neck. "You don't remember me? I'm Matthew...don't you remember me? I love you...you love me too right?" his eyes went wide. "Woah dude I don't know who you are but there's no way I'd love a complete stranger. I don't even know you yet!" he exclaimed as his face filled with disgust.

I felt my heart shatter in my chest. "It's...just a dream.." I reminded myself anxiously to calm my shaky breaths, the ground beneath us began to shake and before I knew it black ooze filled the once white void. A pang of deja vu washed over me, reminded me of another nightmare I once had. I pinched my arm. "I have to wake up, please wake up!" panic began to set in.

Alfred had vanished and the black mucky ooze began to rise, soon enough black blotches stained the plain void. The ooze was thick and I found that I couldn't move anymore if only I could wake up from this horrible nightmare. My voice hitched in my throat I was unable to call out or even scream for somebody...for anybody. I felt numb. The ooze quickly rose to my neck.

My breathing was sharp and quick, why couldn't I just wake up? My mouth was agape as a silent wordless plead echoed in the nothingness of the black smeared void. The ooze reached the top of my head, my vision black and my throat strained tightly as the thick ooze filled my lungs. I was drowning in my greatest fears.

I awoke with a desperate gasp of breath, beads of sweat formed on my forehead and my hands trembled uncontrollably. "Whoah Mattie, you okay?" Alfred asked in concern. "I'm... I'm fine." I mumbled, "...you're shaking." He stated with a worried frown. "I'm just cold." I looked out the window trying to avoid his worried gaze. I froze in surprise when he held my hand and ran his thumb across my knuckles. "You're a very bad liar Mattie," he muttered.

I kept my gaze outside watching as cars zoomed by. "You had a nightmare didn't you?" I could feel his gaze switch to me. "So what if I did?" I asked in a low murmur. "I care a lot about you, and I want to know what's bothering you." His grip on my hand tightened. I slowly met his gaze, I opened my mouth to say something but was cut off when a loud horn of a truck alarmed us both, Alfred jumped and quickly brought his gaze back to the road and stomped on the brake.

A sharp cry escaped my lips and his arm shot across my chest to keep me from going forward, my breath became shaky. "Mattie are you okay?" Alfred frantically asked, "I'm okay." I reassured shakily feeling my heart hammer against my rib cage I looked forward to seeing a line of cars heading toward the entrance of the beach. The ocean was dark blue and I could see from the size of the waves that it was high tide.

"We're already here? How long was I asleep?" I asked he hummed in thought. "An hour or so, you were fidgeting a lot I was worried." He responded, "I'm sorry for worrying you." I apologized guiltily, he smiled. "I'm just glad you're okay now." He kissed the top of my head.

Eventually, we found a spot to park and Alfred was smearing sunscreen on himself. "Are you ready to swim Mattie?" he asked in a tone of happiness. "Y-yeah I'm ready.." I stammered fearfully. "Good, now come on." He slipped off his shoes and shirt. "I didn't bring extra clothes since we were in a rush I'm sorry." He frowned glumly. "It's fine Alfred no need to worry." I smiled and reluctantly slipped off my own shirt and shoes.

He threw our stuff in the car and locked it before he grabbed ahold of my wrist and dragged me toward the ocean, I couldn't stop this now I couldn't protest. The hot sand burned my feet but once the cold water reached to my ankles I shivered violently. "Let's go to the deeper end, it's more fun over there," Alfred suggested, was he literally trying to kill me!?

I forced a smile, the freezing water reached up to my waist I tried my hardest not to panic. I was calm and collected until a wave collided strongly against me jerking me back and the current then pulling me forward, I clung onto Alfred's arm. "A-Alfred! I...I can't." I whispered my last words. "Whoa what's up bro?" he looked confused, I froze in fear even though the strong current jerked me forward.

I looked into his eyes. "You...remember who I am right?" I asked anxiously. "Well... I know you're my brother... I think?" my heart dropped, he kept on waking not caring if I held onto his arm or not. "D..do you know why we're here?" I stammered the water was already near the top of my shoulders. "Hmm..not really! But since we're already here we can still have fun right?" he grinned.

I felt useless, confused, afraid. What was happening? Why does every single person I keep close to my heart and love greatly always end up forgetting me? The current pulled once again, bringing me back to my horrible reality. A wave was coming, a big one, and from where I was standing I could tell that it would knock me down and I'd be submerged into the water.

I panicked and looked at Alfred who was practically jumping up and down in excitement. "Here it comes!" he exclaimed happily and energetic, I quickly grasped onto his hand and intertwined our fingers. He suddenly went stiff which startled me, he looked around in confusion and somewhat fear. "How did I get here?..." He asked then switched his gaze to me. "And who are you!?" I opened my mouth to try to explain but the wave hit us.

I was jerked forward, my head fully under water, I tightened my grasp on Alfred's hand....he let go of me. The strong current then brought me back towards the sea, I couldn't feel the sandy surface anymore. I flailed my arms until I had a chance to reach the surface and gulped in a breath of air before once again being hit with another wave, once again my head reached the surface of the water. "Alfred! Please help!" I desperately called out to him.

The bay was becoming further away from me as the current took me, I was beyond terrified. I tried everything I could to keep myself afloat but memories of my nightmare filled my mind and the horrid realization hit me. My greatest fears...my worst nightmare....was coming true...