"Hey Love," he says with his charming smile, but he must have noticed that something was off with me because his face quickly morphs into one of concern. "What's wrong?" I don't understand how I can want to be so far away from him because I'm scared to tell him something, and yet yearn to be next to him. Why does he make me feel this way? I have to tell him something that at least to me is a really big deal and it scares me, but at the same time I feel safe and I trust him.

"Can we talk, Hayden?"

"Sure, come in." He says, opening his bedroom door wider.

Isla's POV

"Thanks." I whisper, as I enter Hayden's room and shut his door.

I stand next to his door not really knowing what to do. Hayden stares at me in confusion. "Umm," he rakes his hand through his hair, unsure of himself. "Did I do something wrong, Love? Because if I did, I honestly don't know what it was, but I'm sorry."

He is making this so much harder on me than he even realizes. Hayden could never do anything wrong. It was me who did him wrong. "No, you didn't do anything wrong. You never do anything wrong."

He sighs in relief. "Okay Love. Umm, you do know that you don't have to stay standing next to the door. You can have a seat." He says patting the spot on his bed next to him. "It will probably be easier talking without you being all the way across the room."

Unwillingly, I force myself to walk across his room and sit by him on his bed. Why is this so much harder than it was telling Luke and Tyler? Sitting beside him, I twiddle my thumbs, not being able to force myself to make eye contact with him yet. Hayden cares so much for me, and I never wanted to hurt him. I'm so worried how he's going to take that I kissed Killian. Of course, Hayden being the amazing person he is, grabs my hand and intertwined our fingers. "Love, what's wrong? Did someone hurt you?"

The tears are already freely flowing from my eyes. "I'm so sorry Hayden. I don't know what came over me at the moment. I never meant for it to happen."

There is concern in his eyes, but I doubt it will stay that way for long. "Isla, what's wrong? What happened?" He says pulling me closer to him. "Whatever happened I'm sure it isn't as bad as you think it is. We can figure out a solution to the problem, I promise."

I pull my hand away from his, because at the moment, his touch burns me. I don't deserve to have such an amazing person in my life when all I'm going to do is hurt him. "I want to explain from the beginning, not that it makes any of this right. Sofia said her, Killian, and Nick were going to the mall and she wanted me to come. So of course, I agreed. Nick and Killian are great, but they aren't fun to shop with at the mall. On the way to the mall we found a carnival, and with Nick and Sofia's inner child, they wanted to go to the carnival instead. When we got there Sofia and Nick took off leaving me and Killian alone. We decided to ride some rides and get something to eat. Things were going great."

"Until..." Hayden says worriedly.

I swallow hard. "Until Killian and I decided to take pictures in a picture booth. We were just playing around doing different types of poses. In one photo I kissed his cheek and then in the next he kissed my cheek. I was going to kiss his cheek again." I gulp. "But I guess he had the same idea and our lips met. The next thing I know he was kissing me, and I was kissing him back." I cry. "I'm so sorry Hayden."

I wait for Hayden to say something, but he remains silent. His silence scares me. He's never been one to not have something to say that makes me feel better, but I'm afraid this time I might have hurt him. "Hayden, please believe me. I never meant for this to happen. I'm still trying to figure things out and the last thing I would ever want to do is to hurt you. You mean too much to me."

He continues to stare at his wall. His eyes glisten as they ever so lightly tear up. He finally looks at me. "So, first Luke kisses you and now Killian?" I nod my head shamefully. "But you're not dating either of them?" I shake my head. He sits there thinking and I can see the wheels in his head turn. "Fuck it." He mutters before crashing his lips into mine.

Unlike with Luke and Killian, I don't hesitate to kiss him back. This kiss is like nothing I've ever felt before. It's sweet and tender, but also possessive. It confirms every single feeling that he has told me he has for me. He starts to pull away, but I grab him pulling him back into the kiss.

Hayden's POV

After she walks into my bedroom, she shuts my door but instead sitting next to me on my bed like she would normally do she stays standing by my door. "Umm," I rake my hand through my hair unsure of myself. As far as I know, I haven't done anything to hurt or upset her, but she is acting strange. "Did I do something wrong, Love? Because if I did, I honestly don't know what it was, but I'm sorry."

She stares at me for a moment in thought. "No, you didn't do anything wrong. You never do anything wrong.

I sigh in relief. "Okay Love. Um, you do know that you don't have to stay standing next to the door. You can have a seat." I say, patting the spot on my bed next to me. "It will probably be easier talking without you being all the way across the room."

It looks almost like she has to force herself to walk over to me and sit beside me on my bed. Sitting beside me, she twiddles her thumbs refusing to make eye contact with me. She's really starting to scare me at the moment. I don't know what is bothering her, but she has me so nervous that I feel like the walls in my room are slowly closing in on us. Not sure about what to do and wanting to offer her comfort along with comfort for myself, I grab her hand and intertwine our fingers. "Love, what's wrong? Did someone hurt you?"

The tears are freely flowing from her eyes. "I'm so sorry Hayden. I don't know what came over me at the moment. I never meant for it to happen." Wait? Why is she apologizing? What wasn't supposed to happen? I'm terrified of what she is about to say.

I look at her with concern, but also with fear. "Isla, what's wrong? What happened?" I ask, pulling her closer to me. "Whatever happened, I'm sure it isn't as bad as you think it is. We can figure out a solution to the problem, I promise." At least I hope we can. I'm in love with her. I've already given her my heart even though she told me to wait.

She pulls her hand away from mine as if my touch burns her. A million thoughts are racing through my brain. "I want to explain from the beginning, not that it makes any of this right. Sofia said her, Killian and Nick were going to the mall and she wanted me to come. So of course, I agreed. Nick and Killian are great, but they aren't fun to shop with at the mall. On the way to the mall we found a carnival and with Nick and Sofia's inner child, they wanted to go to the carnival instead. When we got there Sofia and Nick took off leaving me and Killian alone. We decided to ride some rides and get something to eat. Things were going great." Alone? Fuck. This is where her story is going to go downhill for me. What if she chose Killian? What if she's dating him now? Could this whole conversation be her telling me she has already decided who she wants a relationship with?

"Until..." I say, unable to wait for what she is about to say.

She swallows hard. "Until Killian and I decided to take pictures in a picture booth. We were just playing around doing different types of poses. In one photo I kissed his cheek and then in the next he kissed my cheek. I was going to kiss his cheek again." She gulps. "But I guess he had the same idea and our lips met. The next thing I know he was kissing me, and I was kissing him back." She cries. "I'm so sorry Hayden."

She kissed Killian back. Fuck. She didn't even kiss Luke back. Here all this time I was thinking my biggest worry was Luke, but instead it was Killian. I remain silent waiting for her to break the news that her and Killian are a couple. "Hayden please believe me. I never meant for this to happen. I'm still trying to figure things out and the last thing I would ever want to do is to hurt you. You mean too much to me."

I continue to stare at my wall trying to fully process what she just said. They kissed. She kissed him back. I mean too much to her, and she never said that they became a couple. "So, first Luke kisses you, and now Killian?" She nods her head shamefully. "But you're not dating either of them?" She shakes her head, causing a sense of relief to come over me. She's not Luke's girlfriend, and she's not Killian's girlfriend. I sit there, taking it all in for a moment. Isla's happiness means everything to me, but so does my happiness, and at the moment the only way I see me being able to be happy is to be able to call Isla mine. This whole time me and the other guys keep saying that we just want her to be happy, and if she picks one of the other guys, we will still remain friends with her, but I don't know if I can do it. I fucking love her. I swear my entire world revolves around her. Killian and Luke have both kissed her now, and I'm just sitting her on the sideline acting like a friend. If I want her, I'm going to have to fight for her. I know I'm supposed to worry about my friendship with the other guys too, but, "Fuck it." I mutter out loud, before crashing my lips into hers.

I expected her to pull away or just sit there for a moment before getting upset, but instead, she immediately kisses me back. I want this kiss to be like nothing she has ever experienced before. I want her to know only I can kiss her like this. This kiss is sweet and tender, but I also show her my possessive side. I want this kiss to confirm all of my feelings towards her. A sudden panic of guilt rushes over me. I feel bad for just kissing her. That's what Luke did. At least Killian's kiss with her started as an accident. I should have asked her if it was okay to kiss her. I start to pull away, but she grabs me pulling me back into the kiss.

We continue to kiss until we have to pull away for air. I rest my forehead against hers. "Isla, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have-"

She stops me by pecking my lips, "Don't be. I'm not." She says, looking up at me with the most amazing smile.

Before I even know what is happening, she lays back on my bed pulling me into another kiss. As I'm hovering over her and kissing her, I feel her smile into the kiss causing me to smile too. Looking into her eyes, I see nothing but happiness and love. We start kissing again when someone barges into my room. "Holy fucking hell!" The voice shouts.