Chapter 45 - Forgiveness
Cynthia's POV
"Frosch?!" we all yelled at the exceed sitting on my belly.
"Fro thinks so, to!" she beamed and cuddled closer to me.
"What is Rogue's exceed doing here?" Lucy said as she put her whip away.
"That is strange." Erza said while placing her index and thumb under her chin to think.
"Happy! You can come back! It's okay! It's only Frosch!" Gray called over to Happy who flew back to us.
"So... what are you doing here Frosch?" I asked and rubbed her head as she leaned into my touch.
"Fro was shopping with Lector... and I got lost again!" she wailed with a few tears coming out from her eyes.
"That's why... It's okay now... you found us. I was planning to visit your guild anyways, so I'll take you back." I smiled as I got up from the ground with her in my arms.
"Fro found Cynthia and followed you!" she exclaimed.
"Oh! It's Rogue's partner!" Happy said as he flew over to me and Frosch.
"Fro think so, to!" she waved.
"So Happy. Any sign of Natsu and the town? Other than Frosch following her?" Gray asked and folded his arms.
"Gray-san! You're clothes!" I blushed and looked away.
"Crap!" he yelled and went to collect his clothes somewhere.
"Well.. I did find the town only a few minutes away from us. And no sign of Natsu." Happy sweat dropped.
"Where on earth could he have gone to?" Erza said darkly an irk mark appearing on her forehead while cracking her knuckles.
"Fro thinks she's scary!" Frosch quivered in my arms. I chuckled at her cuteness.
"You could say that again." Gray added who now had his clothes on.
"Well... let's get going! I don't want Natsu to... blow up the town before we get there." Lucy shivered at the thought.
"You guys can go ahead! I'll take Frosch back to Sabertooth. I'll meet you back home." I smiled and turned into the opposite direction.
"Alright, be safe!" Erza called out.
"Don't get too jumpy when you see your boyfriend!~" Lucy grinned making me to blush.
"Oh she will." Gray smirked.
"She loveeeees him!" Happy snickered.
"Fro thinks so, to!" Frosch giggled in my arms.
"Ugh... see you guys!" I grumbled and ran with a blush on my face.
'I don't know about that just yet... Happy.' I mentally sighed. I still didn't say those three meaningful words yet to Sting. I don't know. It's probably most likely that it's all about that kiss still lingering on my mind. I still feel guilty. That's why I've decided to tell him today. I feel like I can't handle it anymore. I want to love him but Zeref was still on my mind. How Zeref stole my first kiss. I was on the verge of tears but hid my eyes with my bangs.
"Cynthia?" Frosch said sadly and patted my arms.
"Hm? W-What is it Frosch?" I asked softly, still running towards Sabertooth.
"Fro thinks you're upset."
"I-I'm fine... Don't worry about me. Thank you." I smiled and kissed her forehead but she didn't seem to buy it.
"Okay... but Fro thinks you're hurt."
"Something like that." I mumbled as we finally reached Sabertooth's guild. Thankfully it wasn't too far from our last destination. I just hope that the others are okay... and that Natsu didn't cause any trouble.
"Cynthia-chan? Frosch!" I heard a familiar voice to call out to us. I gazed up to see Rogue who had tears in his eyes and ran up to us with Lector flying beside him.
"Hey Rogue-kun! Lector!" I smiled and gave Frosch to Rogue who held her tightly in his arms.
"Where have you been Frosch?!" Rogue cried.
"Fro got lost!" she chirped making Rogue to chuckle.
"As always." Lector muttered and came to sit on my shoulder, which I didn't seem to mind. I've gotten use to it since he's been with me and Sting on our date, which was... last week.
"Thank you Cynthia-chan!" Rogue smiled toward me.
"No problem. I was planning to visit anyways after a job with Natsu and the others."
"Natsu-kun?" Lector asked.
"Yup! We were heading home but then Natsu ran off to a village and Frosch ran into us before we could catch up."
"That's why... are you here to visit Sting?" Rogue smirked in my direction and I blushed a faint red.
"Y-yeah... I've actually got to tell him something important." I sighed, running a hand through my hair.
"Care to talk about it? You seemed to be troubled to tell him. I mean.. if you want... Sorry, still getting use to and learning of being considerate of others..." Rogue blushed.
"It's fine. Thank you." I smiled.
"Whatever it is Cynthia-chan. I know that Sting will understand. He can be an idiot sometimes, but he loves you so much. So there's no reason for him to get mad at you. Think positive."
"After all he is your boyfriend now... which I totally knew it was coming!" Lector grinned.
"Fro thinks so, to!"
"Oh hush up Lector... Frosch...and thanks Rogue-kun... Wish me luck." I sighed as Lector flew off from my shoulder and onto the ground. I started to walk inside their guild hall, leaving the three of them to stare at me before they left to go shopping? As soon as I got into their base, I met the faces of the other Sabertooth members who were smirking in my direction. They knew that Sting and me were dating already.. actually everyone around fiore knew. Rumors spreaded by fast huh? Geez.
"Cynthia-sama? I mean.. Cynthia-chan?" I heard a familiar shy voice nearby. I turned to see Yukino who held a smile on her face and walked towards me.
"Hey Yukino-chan!"
"Well... if my memories tell me so, Cynthia is now together with our Master. What a spectacular memory." Rufus smirked as he walked towards us.
"H-Hey Rufus-san." I sweat dropped.
"Hey there Cynthia. Long time no see."
"Very."
"Oh?! If it isn't Cynthia-chan!" I heard a deep masculine voice towards us again. And I knew who exactly it was.
"Orga-san!" I smiled.
"Hey there kid." he grinned and ruffled my hair.
"Geez Orga-san... I'm not a kid." I puffed my cheeks out.
"Anyways are you here to see Sting-sama?" Yukino blushed.
"Yeah... Thanks. I'll be going to his office." I said, and walked away since I've visited their guild a few times in the past past week. I may have gotten lost twice... but now I've gotten used to it.
Time for me to tell him the truth. No more lies anymore, myself! Sting deserves to know, if I keep this up... he'll hate me even more. Maybe we would lose our trust. Maybe he won't love me anymore? I'm scared... to lose him... I sighed in frustration before knocking a few times as I came up to his office door.
"Come in." I heard him to gruff as I opened up the door to step inside his office.
I looked around to see paper around the floor and scattered. His bookshelves were now unorganized since the last time I came in. I looked over to the desk to see none other than Sting who scrunched up his spiky hair in both of his hands in frustration, staring down at the paper in front of him. Honestly, I would be mad at him for making his office messy. I absolutely hate unorganized rooms... but right now I couldn't be mad at him. He seems to be stressed out and I didn't want to push it any further.
"What do you want? I'm busy!" he sighed.
"Is that anyway to say hello to your lovely girlfriend?" I sarcastically said and folded my arms after I shut the door behind me.
"Cee-chan?" he said and gazed up to meet my eyes.
"Hey Spiky. You seem to be really stressed out." I gave a soft mile and walked forward a little to gather the sheets of paper, scattered on the floor.
"Hey Cee-chan. I've missed you... I'm so sorry that we haven't been seeing each other for a while. It's just that..." he trailed off and signed another piece of paper.
"I've missed you too Sting-kun, and it's fine. I understand... you're under a lot of pressure of being the Master and doing your responsibilities, huh?" I gave a cheeky grin as I gathered up more paper in my hands before placing them on his desk.
"Yeah... I'll make it up to you one day." he sighed as he got up from his seat to walk up to me.
"Don't worry about it." I bit the inside of my cheek.
"Cee-chan... I know you're lying. You don't like this, don't you?" he sighed and placed his hand on top of mine that was still sitting on his desk.
"I don't like what?" I joked. Averting my gaze from meeting his.
"Cee-chan.. this is not something to joke about. I know you don't like how I'm busy with doing my Master duties and being away from you. It's tough...." he gently said as he lifted my hand in his and placed a gentle kiss on it.
"I'm not joking. I'm proud of you to be doing your responsibilities... but it does hurt me that you would be away from me." I sighed. I felt Sting to stare at me intensely before using his other freehand to lift up my chin to face him.
"Cee-chan look at me." he demanded, his tone ever so gentle. This time I looked in his eyes full of softness, passion, and love. I felt so guilty that I couldn't return his feelings. Because I don't think I have the guts to tell him about Zeref anymore. I couldn't make it any worse for us. I wanted to stay by him. I don't want to leave him.
"Sting-kun..." I mumbled softly and started to cry.
"Shhh... it's okay Cee-chan. I'm here. I love you." he replied before planting a soft kiss on my lips, then into a warm loving embrace as I sobbed into his chest. He hugged me even tighter and I clutched onto his fur that was on his feather boa that was part of his jacket. I cried even more in pain, in frustration, of me lying to him.
I felt him to play with my long sand brown hair and kissed my cheek that was stained with my tears. We've stayed like this until I could no longer cry anymore. Just until I've calmed down and let out all of the emotions I'm feeling, within my gut.
"Cee-chan." he said softly and I looked up to him, my eyes glassy and swollen. "Are you okay now?" he murmured and kissed my eyelids and sighed at his touch. I've missed his touches, I missed his sweet and loving kisses. I've missed him so much it hurts.
"I'm sort of better now.. getting all of that out." I gave out a small giggle making him to smile.
"Good... was there another reason why you came?" he arched an eyebrow and I froze.
Should I tell him now? Or should I not? Thoughts of before were running through my head of the possible outcomes that might happen when I tell him. I'm so scared to tell him. But now is my chance. This is what I came here for... to tell him about Zeref. I have to do it! Come on myself. I was so conflicted in my thoughts that I didn't even notice Sting to kiss me on my lips so passionately that I melted into it, draining abo Zeref away in my thoughts.
"Cee-chan." he whispered through our kiss and held me tighter to his chest. I sighed into our kiss and felt a few tears to fall out from my eyes once more. This time he cupped my cheeks as we kissed and wiped them away with his thumb, breaking our kiss.
"Cynthia. Tell me the truth." he said. His eyes were full of concern. I couldn't keep my gaze away from him. He held me captive and I was mesmerized by his eyes. I didn't dare to say a peep but stare.
"I won't hate you. I never will. I trust you and you need to trust me. I will always love you no matter what happens... you should know that already by now Cynthia." He kissed my forehead and I nodded in defeat.
"I m-met Zeref..." I managed to choke out, his face still written in full of concern.
"Zeref? When?" he asked firmly.
"I-It was right after the g-games... and w-when I met him... we talked b-but then he... s-stole my first kiss! I'm so sorry Sting-kun! I...I wanted m-my first kiss to be special with someone and that would be you... but Zeref stole it without me knowing and I couldn't do anything! I've tried my best to fight back but I couldn't! My powers got drained by his little demon! Just like what happened with Wendy-chan and Lucy-chan at the games! I felt so weak, tired, miserable since that day. Those images of him kissing in my head would keep on replaying over and over in my head. I'm so scared that If I've told you about him... you might ... leave me and hate me for it. I'm scared of losing you. You're special to me and I-" I choked and started to sob again. I fell to my knees and cried uncontrollably, leaving Sting to stand and stunned by my sudden outburst.
"I... j-just can't take it anymore... It hurts! I want to remember my memories about our times together when we were young. I really do! I... I want to love you like you love me... but I don't deserve your kindness and love! You can hate me if you want. I lied to you... I kept this away from everyone... I felt disgusted about myself. I can't...and now I'm a burden to you! You're going to get more stressed because of me. I'm so sorry." I sobbed.
It was like this for a good 10 minutes and I still kept on crying my tears out. I curled myself into a ball, to feel weak and tired from everything already. Sting averted his gaze from me and hardened his look, his hair covering his face. He was still stunned by my outbursts and saw him from the corner of my eyes through the slits of my hair, fallen on my face. He clenched his fists tightly for him to turn his knuckles pale white and blood was seeping through his palms to drip on the floor.
I finally stopped crying but hiccupped and sniffled because of my longest cry, that I've had in such a long time since the games. Sting didn't move an inch. It was getting dark soon because of the sunset that was setting through the windows and I knew that I had to go... and leave him. So much for being girlfriend and boyfriend for 2 weeks huh? I chuckled at myself. How lame of me. I slowly got up on my feet and turned around so that my back was facing Sting.
"I guess this is goodbye. Sting..." I seethed through my clenched jaw, trying to hold back anymore tears from falling. "I don't expect you to say sorry or anything. I know you hate me a lot by now so... I'll be going to back the guild. You don't have to hear about me or see me anymore. I am a horrible girlfriend for not trusting you.. I know that now and I don't deserve you. You deserve someone much more better than me. I didn't even have the guts to love you... " I sighed and took a long pause before speaking again.
"Well... Good bye Sting Eucliffe, Master of Sabertooth. It was nice meeting you." I said, tightening my jaw and walked towards the door. I could hear no movement from him. He was frozen still... probably trying to register of what happened. I don't blame him. I've told him the truth and I feel somewhat better but at the same time... I lost a piece of me.
As I twisted the door knob to slightly open a jar, a sudden surge of wind rushed past behind me, shutting the door shut. I gasped in surprise as a hand pulled on my wrist to turn me around and saw Sting to kiss me on the lips, his eyes were open with pain, desperation and longing. I whimpered through our kiss but he fully wrapped his arms around me securely to protect me from anything. I felt a jolt of electricity through me and started to cry once more.
He still loves me.
Sadly the kiss didn't last long since Sting broke it off between us. He placed his face at the crook of my neck, inhaling my scent. I shivered as his warm breath was tickling my flesh and his soft blonde spiky hair poking against my stained cheeks.
"S-Sting...kun?" I whimpered to feel him lick my neck and slowly kissed it.
"Cee-chan... don't you ever say those words again." he scowled and I felt myself to tremble but he only tightened his grip on me. "Don't you ever say those hurtful words! You can be such an idiot Cynthia! It hurts me even more to see you in pain. I've told you countless of times to come to me if you're scared, hurt or if you're ever upset about something. You're not a horrible girlfriend, you are the best that I could ever have! My first one to be precise. I've loved you ever since we were young and I don't want to ever lose you again. Not after what happened with your fall. It doesn't matter if you can't return your feeling to me... As long as you with me I'm fine with that. I just want my best friend to be with me." he blurted in pained and a restless tone that I have never heard from him, making me to cry even more into his chest. "I'm so inlove with you that I can't let you go... no matter what happens Cynthia... I will always love you to the end. I love you so much Cynthia." he whispered into my ear before kissing me passionately, more than ever.
I sighed into our blissful moment. Our lips lingering onto each other. His warm soft lips against mine to feel our love and warmth. I felt him to bit my lower lip asking for permission which I granted him and shivered at the sudden increase of our kiss to deepen. He gently slid his tongue to overlap with mine, making them to dance to taste the sweetness of our kiss.
Sting's tongue was warm and soft sending shivers down my spine as he started to nibble on my bottom lip, and I quivered in delight making me to grow weak. But he held me tightly, to make sure that I wouldn't fall. I felt him to smile into our kiss and suddenly it became more rough and aggressive. He started to nibble even more on my bottom lip making me to moan. He brought his face down to my neck and placed light kisses before sucking on my soft spot. I felt our body heat to rise up as Sting was softly tugging against my flesh making me to moan louder in pleasure.
"S-Sting..." I whimpered but heard him to growl. I blushed at our sudden passion for one another and felt Sting to push me against the wall which I squeaked in surprise and Sting kissed me on my lips, catching them in his.
He brought one of his hands onto my waist and down to caress at the side of my leg, then picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist to straddle him. He growled even more between our kisses and went down onto my collarbone, leaving love bites. I felt him to pull down my shirt just a tad bit for him to see my soft skin.
"You're so beautiful... Cynthia." He murmured as he gazed up at me, with those blue orbs of his that I love so much. He continued to kiss on my collarbone where he once left love bites, and then onto my bare shoulder slowly tugging and nibbling on my skin. To feel his fangs lightly grazing over them. I trembled as he brought his lips lower to my exposed cleavage and left some bite marks there as well.
"Cynthia..." he whispered and pulled away from our embrace but still held me in his arms before going any further that we might would regret. He placed a hand on top of my left cheek and caressed it, as I leaned into his warm and gentle touch.
"Sting-kun..." I panted trying to catch my breath and my cheek raised up in heat and averted my gaze from what happened a few minutes ago. But I felt him to pull me into his chest which I didn't fight back and just laid there to feel his warmth and hear his heartbeat.
"I love you Cynthia. Don't say those things again. Okay? You have to promise me." he sighed against my hair.
"I...promise." I choked.
"Good... and about Zeref... I'll make him pay for what he did to you. I'm just glad you're safe."
"I'm sorry..."
"Don't say sorry. It's not your fault. He did it to you and I won't forgive him. I will protect you from him and from anyone else who would harm you." he grunted in slight anger.
We stayed in this position for who knows how long. I wanted to stay in his embrace forever but I knew it wasn't going to last. I think I'm starting to fall for him... I feel more attached to him than ever. He trusts me and I trust him. He still loves me which I'm glad. He doesn't hate me which made me to burst in joy and happiness. Sting is full of wonders.
"Cee-chan... do you know the word mate?" Sting asked, snapping me back to reality.
"Mates?" I croaked and looked up to him.
"That's right."
"Well aren't mates like... soul mates? One where a male and female are linked to each other and love one another for life? Like they were made for each other? But for animals to breed and uh have offsprings?" I questioned with a thinking expression on my face. I heard Sting to laugh and kissed my forehead.
"You're so cute, but yeah... Dragon's have mates as well... and since I am a third generation Dragon Slayer. I was taught by Wiesslogia and have Dragon lacrima implanted in me, that makes me to acquire Dragon traits as well. Meaning that I have a mate... which I have found mine."
"D-Don't tell me..."
"Yes. It's you Cynthia. You're my mate." he smiled and kissed my nose this time and I scrunched it making my eyes go wide in shock.
"Y-You're mate?" I blushed and buried my face into his chest while he rubbed my back.
"Yes you are. But I won't mark you... yet... not until I hear those three words.. and I don't want to force it on you. I want you to fall in love with me and mark you as mine by making love with you. I'll be patient and wait as long as you want me too." he smiled, making me to smile.
"You would do that?"
"Of course. I love you alot and I would do anything for you."
"T-Thank you Sting...kun."
"Anytime my love." he whispered and I blushed a deep red to hear the word 'love' escape from his lips.
"Hey Sting-kun..."
"What is it?" he whispered.
"How would you mark me... If I did say those words and notice my feelings for you?"
"That's simple. I would have to bite you... implanting my mark on you so that others would know that you're mine and mine alone."
"Others?! Don't tell me that the other Dragon Slayers would have to mate too..." I asked in disbelief to see him grin.
"That's right. Rogue, Natsu-san, Gajeel-san and the others would have to find their mates."
"What would the mate mark look like on me?" I softly asked.
"Hm... possibly my white dragon scales." he smiled.
"Interesting."
"Very... and I can't wait to mark you as mine, my love." he said before kissing my forehead once more.
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Awww.... Soooo cuteeee !!! Hehe. Next chapter in 2-3 days c:
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