Nanon's P.O.V:

I was in the hospital garden with Ohm.

"Draw something I miss your drawing" I said.

"Is that an order?" He asked.

"Yes" I said shrugging.

"You're the most demanding freeloader I ever saw in my life" He said.

I chuckled and shook my head.

"Fine I'll draw something...What do you want?" He asked.

"Yourself" I said.

"Huh? Why would you want a drawing of me?" He asked.

"As a keepsake" I said.

He sighed heavily.

"I won't draw myself it's embarrassing you do it" He said.

"Oh come on I never drew people before I'm not sure I can do it the right way" I said.

"You should try something different from time to time you told me so yourself" He said.

I pursed my lips into a thin line.

"Or are you scared you'll ruin my perfect face?" He asked chuckling.

"I won't ruin it that much you already look like an ape it's impossible to turn you into something worse" I said.

"See? And since it's impossible there's nothing to be afraid of right? Just try" He said.

"Hmmm...How about I draw what I see in you?" I asked.

"Fine but...If you draw me as a monkey I'll kill you in your sleep" He said.

I chuckled and shook my head.

Then we went back to my room.

"Sit down" I said.

So he sat down on the chair next to my bed.

I took a pencil and a paper then started drawing.

"How is it going with you at college? You never talk to me about that" I said.

"It's not bad I focus more on the written studies because it's more fun this way" He said shrugging.

"Why not join a sport? You'll have more..." I started then stopped talking and sighed heavily.

"I prefer the studying I can manage without sport there are other things I can still do" He said chuckling awkwardly.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean it" I said.

He can barely walk so how can I ask him to join a sport?

Me and my big mouth.

"It's alright as I said the written stuff are easier to learn I just have to memorise the drawings that's all...I can join other clubs if I want to have fun...For example the art club" He said.

"Really? That's great news I always wanted you to join the art club" I said chuckling.

"You'll have to get in line to see my work from now on" He said.

I chuckled and shook my head then went back to my drawing.

"Do you have a dream now? Tell me about it" I said.

Ohm's P.O.V:

A dream?

I thought about it carefully.

What can my dream be?

I closed my eyes and pictured myself in a foreign country...

Going to work everyday and picking him up from whatever place he works at then we go back home.

We talk to our parents and his sister every weekend.

We'd order delivery everyday because both of us are exhausted from working all day then fall asleep while watching TV and take turns at cooking every weekend.

Can that even be a dream?

I sighed heavily and opened my eyes deciding to just wake up from whatever that thing I pictured was.

"I have none...I'm just going with the flow" I said.

He sighed heavily and rolled his eyes then smacked my head with the pencil.

"Hey what was that for?" I asked frowning.

"You should have a dream you can't live without being something" He said.

"What do you think someone like me can be anyway? It's either I'll go to jail for killing someone or I'll kill myself because of my depression" I said.

Then pursed my lips into a thin line and looked at the floor.

"Just show me the drawing" I said.

"Do you think that's all you're worth?" He asked.

Then looked up from his paper.

"If that's what you think you're worth then...You're wrong...Dreaming is something and working to make your dreams come true is something else" He said.

"What about you then? What did you want to be?" I asked.

"What are you talking about? I always wanted to join the computer science faculty" He said then went back to drawing.

I shook my head.

"That's not your dream it's someone else's dream" I said.

He pursed his lips into a thin line.

"He's my only friend I can't leave him alone" He said.

I wanted to tell him the truth so much.

Scream and break down in tears and ask him to snap out of it because that friend of his has been gone for four years now.

Whatever he's holding on to so dearly in his memory doesn't exist in this world anymore.

"What about me? Aren't we friends? What do you take me for?" I asked angrily.

Then sighed heavily and brushed my hair back.

"You don't like what we have now? Is that it?" I asked.

"I like it ok? I'm just thinking about my friend is that wrong?" He asked.

"YES...Yes it's..." I started.

Then sighed heavily and stood up.

"Do whatever you want I won't stop you" I said calmly.

I turned and left the room.

I sat down on the floor and hugged my knees then started crying silently.

Milk's P.O.V:

I was on my way to Nanon's room but saw Ohm sitting down on the floor in front of the door hugging his knees.

So I walked over to him.

"Are you alright? Did something happen to Nanon?" I asked.

He looked up and wiped away his tears and smiled.

"No...Nothing happened he's alright" He said.

Then stood up.

I sighed heavily and nodded.

"Come with me we must talk" I said.

He nodded and followed me to my office.

"Take a seat" I said so he did.

I made him some green tea and set it in front of him.

"I called the police on Chimon's parents...Don't worry about Prim she's fine staying with me...But who you should worry about is Nanon...We've been stalling for a long time...You know what's best for him" I said.

"I don't know anything anymore...I really don't know...What am I supposed to do? You said that if he faces the truth he might die from shock and a lifetime in a hospital is suffocating him too" He said.

I sighed heavily and nodded.

"My brother said that he's keeping a good eye on Nanon...His physical health is improving...It won't be the same but it's going to be fine...He'll be out of here soon enough if he doesn't take any medication" I said.

He chuckled and shook his head.

"It's good news but...I'm really tired of all this...I got myself in trouble I got my friends in trouble...And I still have a lot to do...This is only the tip of an iceberg" He said.

"Don't you think it's worth it?" I asked frowning.

"It is...But...If he discovers the truth about his friend...Wouldn't that be like...Throwing all that work down the drain?" He asked.

"You're still young...When you grow up and become an adult you'll know the meaning of all this work" I said.

"What's the meaning of it anyway?" He asked.

"Saving a life...Forget about friendship...Forget about love...You're saving someone else's life...Doesn't that mean anything?" I asked.

Then brushed my hair back and sighed heavily.

"Fine...What does Nanon mean to you? Why did you bother doing all that when you're going to give up eventually?" I asked.

"What does he mean to me? He's my very first friend...The one who links me with my two other friends...The love of my life...The reason why I can look at Bright and Tu's relationship without feeling lonely...The person who cured me...But...Looking at him now..." He started.

Then took a deep breath and wiped away his tears.

"It's like...Living in a dark world...A world without a sun...And I'm fighting...All the time...But is there hope?" He asked.

I pursed my lips into a thin line.

"Because as you said...The only thing that will help him is telling him the truth...But what if he dies? What can I do after that?" He asked.

Then took my hand.

"You're an adult right? Tell me then...What should I do?" He asked.

He let go of my hand and rubbed his eyes.

"If you were me what would you have done? Because I really don't know what to do anymore" He said.

And honestly I didn't know what to say either.

They say that adults don't understand youngsters because they are supposed to have seen alot and gained experience and maturity.

But in front of me right now was a child who was forced to grow up in just one year.

It's such a short time...

And of course he's bound to break at some point.

But what made me angry and sad at myself was that...

I'm his elder and yet I can't do anything in this situation because we both know well what Chimon meant to Nanon.

And worst of all what Nanon means to him.

If the truth causes so much damage then...Is it worth telling?

I sighed heavily and took his hands.

"We have no choice...This damage must be done eventually...Be prepared for the worse...I'm sorry but as a therapist that's all I can tell you" I said.

He chuckled and shook his head.

"In the end the truth is what people call happiness but...Right now..." He started.

Then stood up.

"I only see it as a one way gate to hell" He said.

Then left my office.

I stood up and threw away the things on my desk in anger causing the pot plant to smash on the floor.

I looked at the floor blankly.

I was angry and sad and depressed at the same time because I didn't like what was going on one bit.

It felt like I have no choice.

So I smashed my stuff as I continued crying in anger.

The door opened and my brother rushed in.

"Ai Milk what happened?" P'Jimmy asked.

I turned to him and wiped away my tears.

"What's the point of being an adult when you can't help a youngster?" I asked.

"What are you talking about?" He asked.

I walked over to him.

"I'm saying that people grow up when they get more and more experienced in life right?...But what's the point when all this experience doesn't work out in the end?" I asked.

He sighed heavily.

"You misunderstood...Your experience in life is working hard and doing your best while hoping for the best...It's never meant to make you play with fate" He said.

Then put a hand on my shoulder.

"As your older brother I have to say that you did well...I'll be by your side if it comes to the worst case scenario...You just have to do what you have to do...No one will blame you for doing your job" He said.

The right thing?

I sighed heavily and nodded.

"You must be stressed...How about..." He started.

"When a patient dies mid surgery...What do you do?" I asked cutting him off.

"First thing is...Apologise and take full responsibility...Then offer my condolences to their family...And ask for their forgiveness" He said.

I nodded.

"And does doing your best at your work give you the right to smile again after failing?" I asked.

He pursed his lips into a thin line and looked at the floor.

"Is that it? What use would working hard be if the patient dies in the end?" I asked.

My eyes widened in shock when he suddenly slapped me.

"As a therapist you of all people should know that you're not fate" He snapped.

Then sighed heavily.

"I'm sorry I hit you but you should really snap out of it and get a hold of yourself...You told me that you can help those kids...You said that you'll help Nanon recover and I believed you so I would like to see how you'd do that" He said.

I looked at the floor and nodded.

"Adulthood means taking responsibility for your promises so...Here's what will happen...You'll come have a nice cup of coffee with me then get back to being the strong woman I know you as or else...You won't be my sister" He said.

Then he offered me his hand and I took it then we left my office.

So be it...

If anyone has to tell Nanon the truth then...

It has to be me.