warning [violence and explicit language]

''Miss, can I go to the restroom please ?'' I asked feeling the heat radiating my body.

''Sure Jimin. Just don't be late''.

I don't remember feeling so hot ever in my life. It was like having a fever, in a good kind of way. If I weren't so naive, I could believe that Yoongi was describing me during his heartbreaking monologue. He clearly said ''her'' you dumbass.

I couldn't be more wrong. But I just sat in front of the bathroom mirror trying to act out how I would react if these words were meant for me.

''Thanks man. I feel the same as well. It's been so long that someone made me feel proud of myself, thankful for my life. You are this person'' I started blushing against the mirror. He told me that I helped him join the basketball team. I once sang while we were playing videogames and he said that with my voice every single lyric he was ever written would sound angelic. I tilt my lips when I laugh. He said that I inspire him to become a better person. I can't see when I smile. Like literally, anything. I always observe him from afar, trying to get unnoticed. He mentioned how great I looked with both orange and blond hair. He always complimented me when I wore something out of the ordinary. Now that I am thinking about it he complimented me every single day. We were always happy when we were talking, but sadly not anymore. He might hate me for this, but it is for his own good.

''Are you talking to yourself Jimin?'' Hoseok ,who had just entered the restroom, asked me.

''Yeah, I do that sometimes''.

''You never had this habit while you were hanging out with us'', he said,  aggrieved.

''I am so sorry. I should be getting back to class. I am doing this for your own good, Hoseokie''.

''How is this for our own good Jimin ? We don't spend time with our bestfriend, how does this benefit us? The guys are all really sorry for coming to our performance like a bunch of assholes but they just wanted to surprise you, to make you feel loved. Yoongi planned all of that ...thing. He even bought us flowers. He hates these kind of stuff, but he did it because he loves us. Because you are his closest friend Jimin. He is not cheerful since you left. He barely speaks, like he turned back time to b.j. Yoongi''.

''What is b.j?''.

''Before Jimin. Come back to us, dude. We could be your family. We have also started planning something for your birthday''.

''I won't celebrate my birthday with you Hobi. I will spend them in my room, drinking expensive vodka and watching horror movies''.

''Then we will join your dramatic ass''.

''Can't you understand ? Of course you cannot. Your parents were so proud of you when you danced. Even Christy was observing you with wonderment, I saw her. My father turned my most beautiful day into a freakish nightmare. I am the faggot of the school now. I see how the bullies tried to hurt Namjoon. But they are afraid to attack him, because he is strong and courageous and has you, guys. I have none of these things. I don't think that verbal violence will be their solution''.

''Jimin-ah...''.

''Well, well, well. How are you guys? It's been a long time! I feel like I haven't kicked your asses for ages''.

I hate this guy. Maybe even more than my parents, if this is possible. I just want to strangle him. I can take him down and he knows it. Yet, he always brings his gang with him. I can put up a fight against him, but against 8 people? I am not Thor.

''I remember that you tried to steal my girlfriend Hoseok. How many bruises did your mother count on that day?''.

''Less than the ones I am willing to cause you''.

A small clue for Hoseok. You can hardly piss him off. I don't think I have ever seen him angry, except once when Jungkook ''accidentaly'' drank his sprite. So, to sum up if J-HOPE is mad, shit is about to get real.

''You should watch your fucking tongue, boy. You think you and your little bitch over there are capable of defeating us?''.

''I don't even think that we will waste our time on you. Come on Jimin''.

''Your little faggot always follows you ,ah? How many times have you fucked him? Is his ass as good as it looks? Is it, cocksucker?''.

I was so infuriated. I didn't mind being called names. What really bothered me was that they tried to drag down Hoseok too. He is straight and loves Christy. This fucker's girlfriend. I saw my hand turning into a fist and without hesitation I punched him at his jaw. He fell down and his ''friends'' gathered around him.

''If you ever insult me or my friends again, things will be worse''.

''Oh, yeah. Things will be worse. For you. Guys, hit these motherfuckers till their mouths bleed''.

They gathered around us and Hoseok grabbed my hand gently. Like he wanted to tranquilize me, that we are together in this. I felt so weak in front of them.

A guy kicked Hobi's stomach really hard. He fell on his knees quaking from the unexpected pain. Someone tried to punch me but I avoided his attack, turning around and kicking him with all my strength. I went to help Hoseokie who had three guys on top of him hitting him with their belts. I couldn't move though ,cause the other four started attacking me simultaneously.

''Jiminie...'' Hobi whispered while his mouth was spitting blood.

They lifted me up and threw me onto the sink. I felt pieces of shattered glass entering my skull releasing drops of dark, red blood in the process. I managed to get up though and tried to help Hobi.

''Jiminie...leave...''.

They kicked me down and they started kicking us uncontrollably. One of them ripped my shirt off and started playing with my nipples, while another tried to carve on my chest the word ''faggot''. Luck wasn't on our side since the restroom was really far from the classes, meaning that our countless screams were in fact hopeless.

''You thought that you could have Christy, motherfucking dick? You want to fuck my girlfriend ? Look at you, worthless piece of shit!!! How would she react if she saw how weak you are? That's what happens when you hang around with faggots like this bitch, who had the guts to punch me. Me.'' he screamed grabbing my face, licking it savagely.

''Show him what you have boys''.

I felt my pants getting unbuttoned. My shirt got ripped completely. One of them stuck his tongue into my mouth. All the memories hit me hard, as I realised that history was repeating itslef. This time though, nobody was here to save me and my friend.

In a blink of a moment I tracked down the emergency alarm in front of me. With all my strength I managed to escape one of my hands and pressed the red button mightily.

''Shit, come on man. Let's go'' they started running panicked.

''If you dare speaking to anyone about this, I will hurt everyone you love'' he threatened me.

I spit my blood on his face and he just left. I turned to face Hoseokie who was having a hard time breathing. He had bruises all over his body and blood -his blood- all over him.

''Hoseokie,d- don't w-worry. They are coming . We are safe. Everything is f-f-fine. I am with you. I am not leaving your s-side''.

I tried to button my pants back, when the bathroom filled with teachers. Their voices started echoing in my head while I was holding Hobi in my arms.

''Doctor, we need a doctor. Drive these men in the hospital right now. Find the one who did this and bring him to me''.

The bathroom looked like a crime scene and I am certain that I looked like shit. Students started coming in the bathroom to see what the fuck was happening.

''Leave, there is nothing for you to see here'' teachers started pushing the students away.

I saw how they were looking at me, like they were pitting me. I managed to notice Tae hugging Jungkook who was sobbing in his arms. Jin and Namjoon were observing us silent ,with their eyes wide open.

Through the crowd, I caught a glimpse of Yoongi who was trying to see what was going on. The moment he saw me looking at him he started running towards me, tears rolling down his eyes.

I smiled at him and fainted immediately after that.

I know that the moment I saw him , even after everything that happend to me, I felt happy. I felt relieved.

If this isn't love , I don't know what it is...