Shehnaaz POV :

" Shehnaaz beta kya sonch rahe hai tu " I heard my mother as I was making her bed .

( Shehnaaz dear what are you thinking )

" kuch nahi maa bas " I said correcting the pillow , taking another sheet I spread it on the ground making my bed their .

( Nothing mom just like that )

" Ider aa bait bol mujhe konse baat tujhe pareshan kar rahe hai " my mother asked taking my hands in her making me sit beside her on the bed .

( Come here and sit , now say what is bothering you )

I sighed knowing she won't leave me untill I tell her , " maa vo log itne Amir hai aur pade likhe hai , phir mujhse kyun shadi karne hai unhe " I asked the thought is eating my mind .

( Mom they are so rich and educated , why they want to marry me )

Yes I remembered very well he said he is ready to marry me because I'm his grandfather choice but when I become their choice out of no where . I was not from their class nor I even completed my education . I'm nothing compared to anyone so why me ? .

" Tum he kyun ? Iska mere pass koi jawab nahi hai Shehnaaz lakin jodiyan bhagwan banata hai . Agar uperwale ne tum dono ko ek rishte me banda hai tho kuch kyun ke jawab nhi hote " maa said making me more confuse . Seeing my confused face she chuckled .

( Why you ? I don't have any answer dear . God makes the pairs if God United you guys together then for some questions their is no answer )

" Meri gudiya hai he itni pyaari koi bhi pasand kar lega " she said .

( And my princess is so lovely , everyone like you )

" Hume dar lag raha hai maa " I said keeping my head in her lap and her fingers caressed her hairs . I'm scared damn scared to think about living my home , my mother the only family I have till now . How will I live with him , his family they are still stranger to me .

( Mom I'm afraid )

" Mujhe tho ladka bahut pasand aya , kitne ache sanskar hai . Bado ki izat karna , kitna mehnati hai . Pratap ji ne bataya kaise vo din raat ek kar ke kam karta hai , aj ke zamane me kon milega jo apne dadu ki pasand ke ladke se shadi kare " she praised him making an unknown sensation passed through my body , I smiled agreeing to her .

( I like the boy , he is ethics manners and respects elders . And Pratap sir had informed he works hard day and night . In today's generation where will we find a guy like him who agrees to marry a girl , who is grandfather's choice )

" Main haa bol diya beta unhe " she asked me I looked up at her getting up from her lap I said " maa aap ko chod ke main kaise ... " .

( I had said Yes to them )

( Mom how will I leave you alone )

" Sana mera bacha tum meri fikar chod do apne faisla batao , kya tum kush ho Sidharth se shadi ke liye " she asked .

( Dear you don't worry about me , say what's your answer Are you happy with this marriage )

" Mujhe nahi karne shadi maa , aapko chod kar nahi jana mujhe " saying I cried hiding myself in her embrace .

( I don't want to marry , i don't want to leave you and go )

She caressed my hairs patting my back she said " ek na ek din har ladki ko shadi kar ke Vida karna hota hai beta . Aur mai tumare liye itna acha ristha kabhi dund ke nahi la paungi " .

( One day every girl has to get married and leave . And I can't find alliance like this again )

" Par maa " I was cut of by " par var kuch nahi Shehnaaz , tum abhi apne bare me soncho . Mera kya hai beta aj dharti ke uper hu kal dharti ke ander " she said her eyes were moist .

( But mom )

( No But's and if's Shehnaaz , Now you think about yourself . Today I'm here and tomorrow I will be buried under the ground )

" Maa isa mat bolo please mai kaha jaungi agar aap isa kahenge tho " I said my tears were continously rolling down .

( Mom please don't say like this , where will I go without you )

" Vahi tho beta meri fikar hai agar mujhe kuch hogaya tho tere kya hoga , akele kaise rahegi tu . Ye duniya jeene nahi degi beta " she said wenting out her fear .

( That is my worry dear , if something happens to me . Their is no one for you to take care . This world doesn't let you live peacefully )

" Maa roo tho nahi , aap ise kyun bol rahe ho . Kuch nahi hoga aapko main kabhi nahi jane dungi aapko " I said hugging her tightly .

( Mom don't cry , why are you talking like this . Nothing is going to happen I will not let you leave me )

" Shehnaaz hume nahi pata kal ka suraj hamare naseeb me hai ya nahi aur jab hume itne ache log samne se ho kar rishte lee aye hai tho Mai apne beti ki khushiyon ke liye khudgarz bana chahte hu . Mere beti ko sare duniya ka pyaar aur kushiyan mile " saying she kissed my forehead wipping my tears .

( Shehnaaz we don't know if we will see tomorrow's sunrise or not . When the people themself came and asking for your hand then I want to be selfish for my daughter's happiness . I want my daughter to get all the love and happiness )

" Maa aap jaise chahte hai vaisa he hoga lakin please ye sab baate dubara na bole mujhe acha nahi lagta " I said .

( Mom whatever you wish I'm ready but please don't talk like this again . I don't like it )

" Mujhe maf kardo beta , mai tumhe ise zindagi de jaha sirf taklif hai . Tumhe apne padai bichme chodne padi , itne kam umar me itni samajdar ban gayi Kabhi parivar ka pyaar he nahi mila tumhe mere vajese " she said again she is wenting out her pain .

( Sorry dear , I gave you life were their was only troubles at every stage . You left your education become so mature in the young age . You didn't get family love because of me )

" Nahi maa , isa nahi hai . Main bahut kush hu aap isa na bole . Aap kyun aj ise bahki bahki baate kar rahe ho , aap mujhe daara rahe ho maa " I said taking her hands .

( No mom it's nothing like that . I'm happy you don't say like this . Why are you talking nonsense today . You are scaring me )

" Meri bachi tik hai ab se no roona , chalo ache se hasdo . Ab mere lado duhlan banegi kitne badi hogaye hai meri bachi " she said cupping my face .

( My baby its okay now don't cry , smile . Now my lovely daughter will become bride . You become big so soon )

" Nahi main tho abhi bhi aapki choti se gudiya hu " I said snuggling into her warmth making her laugh saying " jab tere chote chote bache hongey tabhi bhi tu mere liye meri choti se gudiya he rahegi " she said , instantly my cheeks heated up .

( No I'm your little daughter )

( When you will have your kid then also you will remain my sweat little daughter )

" Kya maa shadi ke baat ho rahe hai aap bache tak chale gaye " I said covering her with the blanket she chuckled . Then I laid down thinking about my unknown future and drifted into the deep slumber .

( What Mom here we are talking about marriage and you gone to grand kids )

How this chapter came out ?
I tried to show their mother daughter bond and her life struggle . The insecurities of her mother and the daughter .

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