For those of you who were wondering about why I said I was feeling depressed, thank you so much for caring. I haven't explained everything, and now I feel bad. Starting this summer, yes, this summer, things have gone into absolute hell for me.

June-October, 2015
New school. Family matters. Attention. Even trying to make myself feel better about it was a problem. I would go to my room, put the earbuds in and draw, or watch Poofless or something. But a specific someone did not like this. My dad wasn't getting the best of it, either, so my step-mom moved out. That came later, though. She would tell me it's all my fault. She would yell at me out of the blue, calling me nastly things when I "wasn't listening". It was tough. On top of that, I had to worry about a new school. If you watch/watched me on dA, you'd know my grades were pretty low. It was a college prep school, though, which was a huge jump from public school. I was oblivious until my mom started taking things away. She almost took away Halloween. I knew she was doing it for the better, though. Like my step-mom, she would also snap at random times. I began to enter a depressed state. I didn't realize it at first. My teachers and my mom organized a parent-teacher conference without my knowing until the day before. I was nervous. I almost cried in front of my teachers. They told me they love having me at the school, but if I wanted to stay, then I would need to bring my grades up. And I did just that.

December, 2015

My grades have dropped again. I've lost my DeviantArt account to a hacker. A stalker. All my friends and loved ones are collapsing under the weight of the water. I want to help them. Show them it'll be okay. Show them they can. Show them who they are. Show them what they're worth.

December 18, 2015

My grades have gone up again. We got done with finals today. I came home to find one of my inspirations on dA deactivated, which I am concerned about. This only fits into what I've said before, about my friends collapsing. Some of my friends are slipping out of the famdom topics we used to discuss. I can't blame them, and I will love them for as long as possible, but it's just difficult to find something to talk about anymore. My irl friends are also slipping away... Trinity.... Molly.... Ashley....

Trinity, I've been close to you for seven years. You've been like a sister to me. Why don't we talk much anymore? Maybe it's just my fault I forget to tell you things like, "Hey! WAZZAP?!"

Molly, dear Molly, I don't care if I've only known you for this semester. You're my best friend for life. Never lose that happiness.

Please don't slip away....

Ashley, I might not have known you as long as Molly, but you have been very close to me. Remember, your parents can't choose your life. Keep collecting those Monster High dolls, girl!

This is not a goodbye note. Just an update. Sleep well everyone, and goodnight. :)