my little euphoria jus turned 21. i love my little baby so so soooo much. wanna kiss him all over n hug him tight n tuck him in his bed and make sure he has the best day ever   uwu

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"Clearly it's not working out if- if you're acting like this!"

"Can't you just leave me alone for one day?"

"One day? One fucking day? Taehyung you haven't called me for two weeks and you answer with one word texts, what the fuck am I supposed to believe?!" Noah snapped, and Taehyung sat there on his couch, elbows resting on his knees.

"Nothing. You're supposed to believe nothing and just trust me, Noah." Taehyung said, and Noah sighed, looking away, hesitant.

"I didn't think it would be like this. Y-you were so sweet when we met, and you seemed to like me too. Is it something I'm doing wrong? I know I'm not too experienced with relationships- but I'm giving this one everything I've got!" Noah said, and Taehyung looked at him finally, eyes a little red.

"I know. I do like you." Taehyung mumbled off-handedly, and Noah snickered.

"Right. Yeah, because it's so evident. You're not making any effort, Tae. You're a nice guy, and I like you a lot. I really do. Just talk to me, please? Tell me how I can fix whatever this is-"

"There's nothing to fix, Noah, everything's fine. For fuck's sake- I've just not been feeling well lately, okay? I thought you were understanding when we met, but clearly not since all you've been doing is whining for the past fucking week," Taehyung snapped, and Noah stilled.

"Whining? I'm fucking whining? Oh, right, sorry for wanting basic fucking respect in a goddamn relationship. Don't fucking-" Noah snapped, picking up a book off the coffee table and throwing it at Taehyung. "-tell me I'm fucking whining-"

"Noah- stop it! What- what do you want me to say?" Taehyung said, because Noah was always so goddamn sassy and had a remark up his sleeve for every situation and Taehyung didn't know how to deal with that.

Noah paused, and then sighed, looking to the side of the room. "Take that goddamn photo down, for instance." Noah said, and Taehyung turned to see what he was pointing at, and his breath hitched.

It was a picture of him and Jungkook, a polaroid which Jimin took when they were living in the mafia house. With Jungkook on his lap, giggling at something, and Taehyung with his arms around him.

"No- it-it's for memory." Taehyung mumbled, getting up to take that photo and turn it the other way.

"Right. How about the fact every morning you stare at that goddamn photo of him in your wallet for hours, is that for memory Taehyung?" Noah gritted, and Taehyung gulped, looking away.

"I'm not stupid, Tae. I see how your eyes light up every time you mention him. I saw how you smiled so wide when you thought you saw a glimpse of him last week. I hear you call Mark every other day to ask about him. I'm not stupid- I'm not fucking stupid." Noah said, and Taehyung finally looked up at him.

"Even a blind man could see how awfully you're still in love with him," Noah let out, and Taehyung dug his nails into his palm.

"I-I'm sorry," Taehyung let out, tears rising in his crimson brown eyes. "I d-don't know how not t-to- sorry- I-I tried to love you, I did, I promise I did because you're amazing, Noah, you really are. B-but you- you're not- you-"

"I'm not Jungkook. I know that." Noah said, and he had a small sad smile on his face. "I'll never be him."

Taehyung wiped his cheek quickly with the back of his hand. "I'm sorry. You deserve s-so much better than me,"

"I really do," Noah snickered, and Taehyung let out a small smile himself, not being able to help it. "I mean, dude- it's been 2 years, you think you'd get over it by now, sheesh-"

Taehyung laughed, eyes forming crinkles. "Shut up. Y-you're not mad?"

"Not really. You did tell me a long time ago you don't think you could love anyone beside him. It was foolish of me- thinking I could change that. I just r-really liked you, I guess. But it would suck for me too, y'know? Because even if you did fall in love with me.. it wouldn't come close to how much you loved that boy." Noah let out timidly, and Taehyung frowned a bit, seeing his light eyes water.

"Y-You did everything for him, everything. I just want you to be happy, you know? Just want you to get over him. Because you're hurting yourself through this, Taehyung. W-what if he's with someone else? Or- or something like that? It'll crush you- I know you think you're strong and I know you are- but this Jungkook guy really weakens you." Noah chuckled, quickly wiping a falling tear from his eye.

"I'm sorry. Thank you so much, f-for understanding. And I know. I know he weakens me to the core- but I'll have him some day. I know I will." Taehyung whispered softly, and Noah walked up to him, hugging him tight.

"Does this mean we're breaking up? Ooh- can I subtweet you? I'll get so many retweets-"

Taehyung laughed, hugging him back. "Go ahead. Tweet some Taylor Swift lyrics while you're at it. I'll buy you ice cream, too."

"You better. None of that low fat crap. I want proper chocolate. With chocolate chips and everything." Noah said, giggling lightly and leaning up to give Taehyung a small smile.

Taehyung smiled back. "You deserve so much better than me. And one day you'll find someone who'll love you so so much. I just know you will."

Noah pulled away from the hug. "You'll find someone who'll love you so so much too, Tae. And I hope you can love them too."

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Taehyung ran out of the apartment door, seeing Jungkook walking really fast towards the lift, steps fast. "Jungkook-"

Jungkook began walking faster. "Kookie-" Taehyung said, running up to him and grabbing his arm to turn him around. "Wait,"

"I-I'm sorry. I thought y-you were alone." Jungkook squeaked, and Taehyung breathed heavily, shaking his head.

"Kook that wasn't what it looked like. Noah and I, we- we just-"

"I d-didn't know you were dating him. Sorry. I should go. J-just come to the car quick-" Jungkook piped in a small voice, and Taehyung sighed.

"No, we aren't dating- we just hook up. We're just- friends with benefits or something," Taehyung said quickly, and Jungkook looked down at his shoes, and finally moved his eyes up to look at Taehyung.

"Liar." Jungkook mumbled, and Taehyung frowned.

"What? No-"

"You like him."

"No I don't, Kookie. I don't like him like that. He's just a friend-"

"T-Then why were you d-doing that to him!"

Jungkook squeaked, stomping his foot, and Taehyung gripped his side.

"Baby it's just casual meaningless sex! Without any feelings-"

"M-meaningless- do you always have meaningless sex? Do you sleep around often? Y-you used to when you were 22 do you- do you still-"

"No, Kookie, I don't." Taehyung cut him off, and Jungkook was still looking away. "I was just.. upset, okay? Noah's one of my only friends here.. I wanted to spend time with him-"

"Well it's mean." Jungkook mumbled, lips forming a small pout as he talked. "You knew we were going to the airport today.. knew we were gonna come pick you up.. couldn't even be ready. Hmph." Jungkook said, looking away angrily.

Taehyung raised his eyebrow. "You know what else was mean? You shunning me and leaving me like that the other day, and then none of you bothering to contact me at all. Do you know how that made me feel?" Taehyung said, and Jungkook looked up at him.

"Made you feel... b-bad?" Jungkook asked softly, and Taehyung nodded.

"Yes. I thought you wanted something and weren't just using me to get over your ex. But now it seems like you were." Taehyung said, and Jungkook shook his head.

"Wasn't doing that." Jungkook replied in a murmur, and Taehyung pressed his lips today. "Then why did you kiss me if you didn't want to rush into things?"

Jungkook gulped, toying with the bottom of his pretty jacket, and then looked at Taehyung and frowned. "W-well even if I didn't say all that- you would've gone ahead and had sex with-"

"No I wouldn't. Is that how lowly you think of me?" Taehyung said, a little sharp, and Jungkook frowned at him.

"You said you were sleeping around with him how was I supposed to-"

"How does it matter to you anyway? I thought you didn't care about me and didn't want to be in a relationship. Isn't that what you said?" Taehyung snapped, and Jungkook stilled. "And for matter of fact, Noah wasn't the one who acted like a bitch even after I did so much for him- and he wasn't the one who ditched me even though I helped him out so many times."

Jungkook's eyes turned big. "I-I'm not acting like a-a bitch," Jungkook said timidly, and Taehyung snickered.

"I don't know if you understand, Kookie. This isn't just a game to me. I know if it seems like I'm rushing you, but I've been waiting 3 goddamn years for this- so I'm just going to say it out loud. I still like l- like you very much. And I want nothing more than to have you be mine again. And when you kissed me back and let me cuddle you- I thought you wanted to be mine too. But suddenly it feels like you don't. So please, explain this to me. What do you want?"

Jungkook paused.

He gulped, meddled in his thoughts. Taehyung waited for a few seconds, and then Jungkook looked at him unsure. "J-Jin told me not- not to-"

Taehyung laughed. "Right. Y'know- why don't you just go along with Jin and the rest since all you do is listen to them- I'll just grab a taxi and get there myself." Taehyung said with an angered smile, and Jungkook looked at Taehyung, gulping.

"W-we have a ta-taxi- you- y-you should just c-come with us-"

"I don't want to. Whatever I do doesn't seem to have any impact on anyone anyways. And you know what- since I did come all the way here for you, and I am going back for you- I might just end up staying here. Who knows? I'm just gonna go back to my apartment to say goodbye to a person who actually cares about me." Taehyung said sharply, and then turned around with a roll of his eyes.

Jungkook's eyes teared up instantly. He hated getting yelled at, it made him feel like a baby all over again. He felt a tear fall down his cheek, seeing Taehyung walking away.

"T-Tae.." Jungkook squeaked out, seeing the door of Taehyung's apartment open, a confused Noah standing there.

"Tae- is Jungkook okay?" Noah asked softly, and Taehyung nodded quickly, walking into his apartment.

Jungkook saw Noah, and stared at him angrily for a few seconds, before wiping his eyes and running into the lift, letting out a stiffled cry as he did.

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"What do you mean he's not coming-"

"H-He said he might not come.."

"Jungkook are you fucking serious? What did you say to him?" Yoongi snapped, and Jungkook gripped the handle of his suitcase, angrily looking down.

"Nothing! H-he got mad at me for leaving him a few days ago." Jungkook mumbled, and then Jimin frowned a little.

"Didn't he say he was getting a taxi? He's probably doing that. Don't worry- we have a lot of time before check in. Let's just wait in the airport," Jimin said softly, but Jin looked a little upset.

"Kook we ask you to do one thing-"

"I-it's not my fault! He was too busy having... sex with Noah." Jungkook grumbled, scrunching his nose.

"Noah- the cute coffee house guy? Oh god- did you walk in on them?"

"Yes."

"Okay so that sucks for you- but we can't keep waiting here for long. We have to leave in 20 minutes-" Jin started, and Jungkook shook his head.

"We can wait for a bit, Jin! Just call him again," Jungkook insisted, and Yoongi looked a little dubious of Jin.

Jin looked at him wearily. "Kook there's no point forcing it on him- let's just get out of here already. He'll join us in there-"

"Jin, the only reason he's not coming is because of the shit I told him that day- which you told me to tell him! And now, it's like you want us to leave without him or something," Jungkook snapped, and then paused, furrowing his eyebrows. "Wait.."

Before anyone could respond, Jungkook saw a familiar figure walk through the gates of the airport. Taehyung, clad in a black leather jacket with his hair falling on his eyes.

Jungkook smiled.

Until he saw Noah there- and ugh, Jungkook's smile dropped. Taehyung hugged the boy tight, and Noah hugged him back, and Jungkook turned away, feeling jealousy bubbling in his stomach.

Noah pulled away from the hug, smiling at him. "Go get your boy."

"I will." Taehyung whispered, and then kissed him on the forehead, and Noah hugged him tight one last time, and they bid their saddened goodbyes and Taehyung walked away.

Jungkook saw Noah still standing by the gate, waving at Taehyung. Thankfully, Jimin rushed up to Taehyung and grabbed him. "You're late- we need to leave now,"

No one noticed Jin sigh, almost as if he was upset or angered.

Jungkook walked up to Taehyung. "I'm sorry-"

Taehyung gave him a quick smile. "Don't worry about it." Taehyung shrugged it off quickly, and then walked away and to Jimin.

Jungkook bit his bottom lip. Ugh- he hopes this whole thing about him feeling unsure about his feelings towards Taehyung doesn't hurt him later on. But Jungkook feels like it already has.

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