Author's Note:

Guys, I'm a mother myself...and when I wrote this chapter...my motherly instincts were kicking in hard. I don't want to dictate anyone's decisions or lives, but I want to take this opportunity to say....If you are not 18 and over, do not fall for your sexual needs yet. Wait till at least 18 to explore. Also, SAFE SEX, ALWAYS WEAR A CONDOM, REAL LIFE RELATIONSHIPS AREN'T ALWAYS GOING TO PERFECT LIKE BOOKS...so be smart, love yourself before loving others, and be safe. Don't fall for sugary words...both actions and words speaks a thousand languages. Look for warning signs and ALWAYS KNOW that is ok to say NO and not feel guilty.

Ok...with that off my shoulders...please...carry on. :)

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In the past few weeks, I learned that there were many layers to everybody. Although on the outside, we might look like we have everything planned out perfectly, but that wasn't always the case. We never really know someone unless we talk to them.

Some people live their high school life as if it was the only year they have left. Their future was unpredictable. A few of them have everything planned out already. Others might enter the workforce right away after school. Whatever it was, we were different people with different paths.

Before Kai, I would have done what I could to fit in the perfect picture frame. I wanted to be perfect and Dean was perfect for me. He was what my parents would have found acceptable to date. It was what I found acceptable to my future. I wanted Dean because he was everything I wasn't. Lately, I've been questioning if my feelings for Dean were truly affection or were the feelings all based on admiration.

I shouldn't be here in a hotel room with Kai, but I was. There was a painful squeeze in my chest when I heard him on the phone. He sounded distraught and lost. Nobody should ever feel this alone.

When I saw him, I knew I made the right decision to come here. Who gives a crap what others think? He mattered to me, and that was the only thing that mattered.

When he revealed his past to me, my heart broke for him. No person should ever go through that kind of physical or mental abuse. The hard part was that Kai still loved his father. I saw it in his eyes. From my perspective, who could love a man who only showed abuse? However, I could see why Kai did. After all, he was Kai's dad, even if he was a cowardly bastard.

The wounds on his face looked painful.

All my questions stopped when Kai kissed me. I kissed him back until I remembered his injury.

"Your injuries..." I pulled back, but his right hand snaked to the back of my neck and pulled me closer to him.

"It hurts less when you're here," he whispered against my lips before kissing me again.

He broke the kiss enough to brush his lips along my jawline. I shivered beneath his grazed lips. I felt him push me back to the middle of the mattress before pushing me down. I wrapped my arms around his neck and threaded my fingers through his hair. His face hid in the crook of my neck. I felt him latch onto my skin. My body lit up, and I moaned at the novel sensation. His tongue licked and sucked my skin skillfully.

A second later, he broke away from my neck to kiss me again. I could taste a hint of metallic and knew it was blood from his open wound. It should have thrown me off, but I wasn't. It tasted sweet and addicting.

There was something about kissing Kai. I feel an insatiable hunger to quench the fire inside of me. I felt him situated himself between my legs. With one hand on my thigh, he pulled it up. I could feel all of him on top of me and the hunger inside of me burned even more.

The reality of what was going to happen next if I allowed it hit me. Instead of feeling afraid, I put my trust in Kai. I felt his hard length pressed up my core and I couldn't resist wiggling my hips. The sensation felt like a tease. I wanted more.

Kai deepened the kiss, and his tongue tangled with mine. I felt his hand move from my thigh to my hip and to my stomach. With one firm hand on my waist, he pinned me to the bed. I didn't realize I was rocking my hips so much until he stopped me.

He broke the kiss to look at me. His darkened, lust-filled eyes fell on me. They were so open and filled with so many emotions. They were shining with unshed tears. It was the very first time he has ever exposed himself this much to me through one look. My heart hurts and swells as I read each emotion in his eyes.

"Tamsin..."

The sound of my name on his lips... it brought tears to my eyes. I don't know why I was as emotional as he was. He cupped my face and placed a soft kiss on my lips before kissing my tears again.

"That's the first time I've heard you say my name."

I felt him smile against my skin.

"You'll always be Dollface to me. There is something I have to say, and I want you to know that I am serious." Kai pulled back to look at me. He caressed my cheeks with his thumbs.

"I'm not very good with words, Tamsin. So, I'm just going to say it."

I blinked, waiting. He looked like he was struggling to spew the words out. As if they were stuck in the back of his throat.

"You don't have to say it, if you don't want to."

"Fuck, I want to. I want to, so bad. I..." He shoved his fingers through his hair. "I just suck at making pretty words."

"Just spit it out, Kai."

"I fucking love you."

As I let the words sink in, it went quiet. He looked at me, waiting for my reaction. Kai loves me. He loves me.

I put one hand on the back of his neck and pulled him down to kiss. Our kiss quickly turned into something more. Soon, I was tugging at his shirt, trying to pull it off. He broke the kiss long enough to pull the shirt over his head before coming back down to kiss me. I ran my hands all over his hard body. God, this boy worked out without missing a single day. I could feel every ridge to every muscle.

The friction between my legs wasn't cutting it at this point. I slid my hands into his back pockets and grabbed his ass, pushing him toward me. When I felt how hard he was, I moaned louder than I expected.

He broke the kiss to talk. I moved my lips down his jawline. Placing small little kisses on the way down. He tried to pull away.

"Dollface..."

I didn't stop. I kissed my way down his apple and to the crook of his neck. He groaned, and I felt him dig his fingers into the mattress next to me.

"Fuck, baby, stop."

"Why? It feels good." When did I become so bold?

"Because I want to do more than just kiss you, Dollface. We need to stop. I didn't bring you here to do this."

"Oh?" My mind was still hazy with lust. I wiggled and Kai groaned. He placed his forehead against mine, grabbed my hands from his behind, and pinned them on the sides of my head. Our eyes met and I could see how hard it was for him.

"Dollface, we have to stop."

"What if I don't want to?" I responded. "We are both of legal age."

Kai bit his bottom lip and I watched his Adam's apple bobbed up and down as he swallowed. I realized he was holding back for my sake. He knew I was a virgin. It kind of hurt my ego, because it made me wonder if he ever held back for the girls he slept with. The smart me knew he did it for my sake and because he cared, but the childish part of me wanted him not to hold back. I wanted this.

"You don't want to-"

"No! That's not it," He growled angrily.

"Then was it? I want this, Kai."

For the first time, he looked uneasy.

"What if you regret it?" he asked.

"I won't regret it. I want this, Kai. I want you to be my first."

The shades in his pale green eyes darkened once again.

"There's no going back after this, Dollface. I'll be your first, and I'll make sure I'll be your last."

Kai snatched my lips again. He released my hands to grab the hem of my shirt and pulled it up to expose my stomach and breasts. With his hands, he pulled my lacey black bra down and sucked on my nipple. This unfamiliar sensation was on another level. I arched my back immediately and threaded my fingers through his hair. Urging him to take more of me. I felt his tongue flicking my nipple before circling it.

It felt so good. I was a blubbering, moaning mess. Kai moved his attention to my other breasts, and I didn't think it could get any better. I was wrong.

I felt one of his hands move lower to cup me over my black leggings. I died the moment his fingers touched me there. All coherent thoughts fled me. This thumb played and rolled my clit until I was rocking hard against his hand. He pulled back just enough to slip his fingers down the front of my leggings to cup my naked core.

I cried out when I felt one of his fingers slip inside of me. It circled my inside walls while his palms massaged my clit. He was stimulating me in all kinds of place and I couldn't hold back. I twisted and turned, but he didn't miss a stroke. He sped up his fingers. Slipping another finger in and scissor me from inside.

"Fuck!" I cried out and dug my fingers into his biceps. It was the only thing keeping me grounded.

I was so close. I know I was. My entire insides were twisting and melting. I felt like I was about to burst. He slipped a third finger, and it hurt a little, but it wasn't too bad a second later. He broke his mouth away from my breasts and I opened my eyes to see him looking at me.

The connection between us snapped together. I couldn't look away and I couldn't stop the wave that hit me. I cried out as he finger fucked me to bliss. My hips shaking, rocking, and squeezing his hand that was between my legs.

When done, I collapsed onto the mattress. A second later, he yanked off my leggings and panties. Before pulling my t-shirt over my head. He flipped me over onto my stomach and unhooked my bra strap.

I heard him remove his clothes. A minute later, he grabbed me by the hips and lifted me up onto my knees with my upper body still on the mattress. I was still breathing hard from my orgasm and didn't bother fighting or looking at me.

That was a mistake because I felt his mouth on my backside a second later. He licked and sucked me from behind. The way his tongue lapped me had me crying out into the mattress. It felt so good. Better than anything in the world. I'll take his tongue over ice cream cravings or my favorite dishes in the world. His tongue was magic.

Kai stopped to cover my backside with his body. I could feel his cock on my ass. He kissed my shoulders before leaning into my ears. His hands moved to palm my naked breasts.

"So, fucking good, Dollface. I dreamed of this moment. I'll wake up at night with a fucking hard on and with my boxers wet. You know how long it's been since I wetted my boxers? A fucking long time. Now, I can't control it. I want to fuck you so hard. I want to lick every single part of your body."

I moaned at his dirty words. I felt myself grow wetter between my legs. I wiggled my ass until I felt his cock between my buttcheeks. He groaned and rubbed the length of his cock up and down before I felt the tip of him at my entrance.

He slipped the head just inside and it already felt good.

"Please," I begged.

"You want my cock inside your pussy, Dollface?" I nodded my head.

Kai slid the entire length inside me in one quick movement. The sharp pain brought tears to my eyes. I felt like it ripped apart my legs. He was so big. I didn't realize how much he stretched me.

He stopped moving and kissed my shoulders before murmuring his apologies and telling me to take my time. His breath was heavy and panting. It must take a lot of control not to pull out and shove it back in.

I focused on my breathing until the pain subsided. When Kai felt me relaxed, he started inching out. It still stung when he pulled out, but when he slid it back inside me, I felt something else. I groaned at the overwhelming sensation.

Once Kai realized I wasn't in pain anymore. He started moving faster. I became a major slut. I couldn't get enough. I clawed at the sheets beneath me and cried out to Kai.

Listening to me, he pulled away from my upper body to grab my hips. He began pummeling into me. My eyes rolled to the back of my head and I lifted myself off the bed. Kai slid one arm around my waist and pulled me up against his body. All the while, he was still pounding me from behind. The new position made my breasts bounce up and down. He sucked my neck from behind.

"You like this position, don't you? You like it when I fuck you from behind. When my dick is all the way up inside your pussy." He lowered his hand and played with my clit. "Say it, Dollface. Tell me how much you like it."

"I love it. I love how you make me feel. I love it when you talk dirty to me."

"Fuck, you're so fucking hot," he growled and increased his speed.

My insides clenched, and I knew I was there.

"Kai..." I gasped.

"I know, baby, I know." He pinched my nipple with one hand, while fiddling me with the other, and still managed to fuck me.

"Kai!" I shouted.

"Let it go, baby." He said through gritted teeth.

The walls of the dam broke. I shook. My entire body was uncontrollable. I couldn't control my muscle spasms. When my walls stopped clenching around his cock, he pushed my upper body back down onto the bed and spilled himself on my buttock. I heard him groan and call out my name.

When he finished, Kai got up and walked to the bathroom. I heard the water running, but I was too tired to open my eyes. I felt a cold, wet cloth on my backside and between my legs.

Kai walked away before coming back to my side. He lifted me up and put me under the comforters before kissing me on my forehead. I heard him whisper something to me, but was too far out to make out what it was.

My last thought before I fell asleep was how happy I was.