"you can't just keep drinking away your problems!" you scolded your boyfriend of two years, ethan.

"well you nagging at me isn't helping!" he shouted. out of frustration, he ran a hand through his dark brown curly locks. you let out a sigh, while sitting on the brown couch.

ethan had just came back to your shared apartment from drinking with his friends. his eyes were red and lazy, hair tossed in all directions as he walked in he tumbled over his own words, alcohol reeked from his breath. prior to when he left, he got a phone call from someone and harshly gave you a peck then stormed out of the apartment, followed by a loud slam of the door.

ethan shuffled his feet while making his way over to you. he plunged himself onto the couch next to you, followed by a sigh.
you turned your body facing him. silence filled the room, it was far to silent.

just as you were about to break the silence, his husky voice beat you to it.
"i'm sorry" he whispered.

"i'm so sorry" his voice cracked. you reached out to his face, and lifted his chin with your thumb and index finger. you looked into his dark hazel eyes that were once filled with such light, but were now clouded with sadness. he leaned his head into your hands as he closed his eyes, enjoying your embrace.

once he opened his eyes again, they were glossy. "oh ethan" you murmured, pulling him between your legs and laying his head on your chest as you softly propped yourself on the couch's arm. you ran your hair through his soft locks, mumbling sweet nothings in his ear.

a ear-splitting sob ripped through ethan's throat and slipped out of his pink lips. it sent chills throughout your whole body, what happened during that phone call?

"its okay" you uttered into his hair, you lips brushing against his chocolate brown strands. as we sat there in quiet besides ethan's sniffles and sudden cry's in each other's embrace until ethan's cries died down. by now your black sweater was damp in ethans tears. he cuddled closer to you, sniffling.

"my head hurts" he groaned, his voice raspy from not speaking. you scoffed, "well your drunk, and you cried" you reminded.

"y/n-" he started before you cut him off "it's okay, i'm not mad at you." you stated softly. though you were angry at him for thinking his problems would be solved by drinking, you were only worried about why he was so upset.

"ethan" you spoke easy, making sure he didn't feel pressured. "what happened?"  the known silence that has happened more than enough times tonight filled the room, again. ethan lifted his head and rested his chin on your chest, looking up at you.

you ran your fingers over his features, while he stared at yours. your fingers touched his jet black, naturally arched eyebrows. you leaned down until your lips brushed against his forehead and left a lingering, delicate kiss. you removed your lips and looked at his face. his lips curled up into a sad smile, which you returned. he looked away from your eyes.

"mom called" he stated, "she-" he shook his head lightly. you gently grasped his hand that lied beside your arm, intertwining you fingers with his. his glance shifted back to you as he let out a shaky breath.

"my dad has cancer" his voice cracked.

you were taken back, astonished. you sincerely felt a pain in your chest. "ethan, baby-" tears welled up in your eyes. you pulled the shaking boy into you, wanting to be strong for him. you blinked away the tears in your eyes. " he is an extremely strong man, eth." you spoke tenderly.

"I love you so much y/n" he spoke, lifting his head to look at you.

your lips curved up into a smile, as you looked into his slightly red eyes. "I love you so much more ethan grant dolan" you said with just as much love. his eyes glanced from your eyes to your lips as he leaned in, his soft lips brushed yours. you finally connected his lips with yours.

the kiss was so passionate, it scared you how much you loved this man. you smiled into the kiss. the taste of mint and alcohol lingered on his lips, you devoured it. he grasped the back of your neck, deepening the kiss. you moaned in satisfaction. seconds felt like hours you truly felt you could sit and kiss him dusk til dawn, but you desperately needed a breath.

pulling away from his now wet lips, you rested your forehead gently against his.
both your breaths jagged and heavy. a chuckle escaped his swollen pink lips. "my god, I love you so much." he spoke.

"I love you too ethan" you said against his lips.

                       AUTHORS NOTE

yo sorry this was trash. unedited.
I was actually really nervous to publish this.

anywhore, peace out

-r