“W-what did you said? No. N-no it can’t be!”

Soobin’s inside are panicking. Yeonjun’s words suddenly went back to him about meeting him again after he finished the project. He’s been holding on to that promise since they parted their ways and he believes Yeonjun won’t leave him just like that.

“I’m going to his house. I’m going to check it myself!” Soobin quickly walks away but Hueningkai grabs his arm to stop him. “Let go! I’m going to find him—”

“I’ll take you there, okay!?” Hueningkai snaps at him. “I’ll go get my car, stay there.”

Both of them went to the private subdivision where Yeonjun lives but before they could pass by the gate, the guard blocked their way. “Sir, you’re here again. Sir Choi isn’t here anymore, right?” he asked Kai.

Soobin looks at Kai because that’s already a confirmation. He started biting his nails in anxiety. “Can we take a look inside his house?” Kai asked.

“I’m really sorry sir but Sir Choi said not to let anyone including you inside after he left,” the guard replied.

Hueningkai look at Soobin, “See? He already flew.”

“N-no way… Why? Y-you aren’t kidding, right? You aren’t plotting this because of—” Soobin pauses when he receive an e-mail notification from the handled company of YJ. Soobin gasps after reading it. “Why…”

[…the artist YJ had filed a resignation letter to the company… by it said tje director is allowed to do everything in director's will as the producer and director of the documentary…]

Hueningkai started driving again, “Where should I drop you?”

“W-why did he left? Why…” Soobin almost whispered, chest is heavy, and tears are already forming on the corner of his eyes.

“Personal reasons, Soobin,” Kai replied.

“You know something, right? Tell me. Please. Please tell me,” Soobin pleaded to the other while gripping the other’s clothe.

“I do know something but I can’t tell you. It’s too personal that Yeonjun is the one who should tell you. I’m sorry,” Kai apologized and Soobin sobs as his reply. “That’s why I already warned you not to like him because you’re just going to hurt yourself.”

Hueningkai dropped Soobin in their apartment and he left right after. Soobin walks as if he’s floating. He doesn’t know what to think. Everything is so heavy for him. He’s just crying in silent until he reached their door.

The moment Soobin open their door, he saw Beomgyu and Taehyun kissing on the couch, Taehyun in Beomgyu’s lap. Beomgyu quicky stops and lift Taehyun to run towards Soobin who’s standing and sobbing by the door.

“Hey, hey, what happened?” Beomgyu panicked and hugs the other. “What happened, baby? Tell me. Why are you crying?”

Soobin look at Beomgyu and burst in tears that he can barely breathe. “H-he left— Yeonjun. He left me—” he wasn’t able to continue speaking when he breakdown on the floor and gladly Beomgyu caught him.

Taehyun was surprise by what’s happening but he remained seated, doesn’t want to interrupt anything but he’s currently witnessing how Beomgyu’s actually treating his best buddy and even calling him “baby”.

“What do you mean? What happened? Let’s get inside,” Beomgyu speaks in his calm voice.

Soobin shook his head, his eyes are already puff and can’t even speak properly as he catch air. “W-why? I-I can’t—h-he said he’s going to meet me—why!? Why…”

Beomgyu carried him towards Soobin’s room and made him rest on the bed. “Soobin, breathe in… breathe out. Nice, one more. Breathe in… breathe out,” Soobin was able to follow with Beomgyu in breathing but his breathing is still unstable. “You’re doing great, baby. Now, just calm down first, okay? Breathe… Now tell me what happened?”

“I-I meet Kai i-in the club a-and then… T-then he t-told me that Yeonjun already flew from the c-country— he l-left. He left me, Beomgyu. W-what should I do?” he cries again and Beomgyu hugged him tight.

Beomgyu let him cry while softly rubbing his back and listening to how Soobin throw some tantrums. Beomgyu’s in there to calm him down and convinced him about things until Soobin eventually sleeps on his shoulder because of feeling tired.

That’s when Beomgyu went out of the room and saw Taehyun patiently waiting for him. “I’m sorry…” he apologized. “I don’t think we can do it tonight—”

Taehyun stands up and look for his bag, “No, it’s okay. Soobin really needs you tonight. I-I’ll just go home…”

Beomgyu smiles a bit and went closer to Taehyun and kiss the younger’s forehead. “I’m really sorry because I can’t take you back either,” he added.

Taehyun purses his lips, “It’s okay… Then, I’ll be going now.” Taehyun receives a kiss from the older before Beomgyu walks with him till he reached the elevator. “Bye-bye,” Taehyun bid his good byes while waving his hand and Beomgyu did the same. After the elevator closes that’s when he felt his knees weakened. “You should understand the situation, Taehyun. Stop being so dramatic,” he reminded himself but deep inside it’s actually him who wanted to get understood.

The next day, Soobin and Beomgyu did not attend to their class. The deadline of submission is also in three days and Beomgyu needed Soobin’s file already but he won’t even enter the other’s room because for sure he’s grieving.

“That goddamn Yeonjun will be the death of me,” Beomgyu cussed and went closer to Soobin’s door. “Soob, how’s your project? We need to pass it in three days. Please send me the file, so I can send it myself,” he stated but there’s no response.

Beomgyu keeps on knocking and that goes on for another day. His patience reached the maximum level so he left no choice but to barge in Soobin’s room and he closed his eyes in frustration.

“What the fuck are you doing, Choi Soobin!?” Beomgyu raved.

Soobin just covered himself with blanket and decided to not to talk to Beomgyu at all. “Hey!” Beomgyu yelled again. “Are you going to kill yourself!? Have you been jerking off nonstop, huh!?”

Soobin felt his cheeks getting wet again because of tears. “Leave me alone,” he muttered, throat is dry.

“Soobin please, don’t be like this. No matter how much you jerk yourself off he won’t come back,” Beomgyu pleaded and takes a seat on the bed. “Please baby, don’t be like this. There’s more important that we need to do,” he convinced the other.

Soobin uncovered himself and looked at Beomgyu. His bestfriend saw how big and deep his dark circles, how pale his lips, and how a total mess he is. The floor is filled of tissues probably with semen on it because of jerking off for countless times inside two days of being locked up.

“That’s… that’s the only way I can feel that he’s still with me. W-when I’m doing it I-I can feel that he’s with me—that we’re doing it!”

“Are you stupid?” Beomgyu hissed. “Soobin, you aren’t like this. Why are you acting like this?” Beomgyu frowns.

“Then what should I do? W-what should I do?” Soobin cries.

“Get up and take a bath. I’m going to take you to the hospital,” Beomgyu stated and started opening Soobin’s drawer.

“H-hospital? Why? Hey! I’m not crazy!” Soobin stands up revealing his naked body to Beomgyu.

“I never say you are, Soobin. I am helping you,” Beomgyu answered.

“N-no! No! I don’t want to! I-I can’t! I’ll stay here—”

Beomgyu turn around and pierce Soobin’s eyes with his glare. “And what!? Jerk off every minute!? I’m not going to let you go insane, Soobin. Not when you’re about to reach your goals, not when we’re about to graduate. Choi Soobin, you already finished your project. You only need to pass it, get it graded, and the instructor will recommend it to the producers. So please, pull yourself together.”

Soobin continued crying, “I’ll… I-I’ll make it right from now on just… just don’t take me to the hospital, please,” Soobin pleaded like a kid.

Beomgyu’s shoulders loosen down and cupped Soobin’s cheek. “Please don’t be like this. Just hang in there, please? Yeonjun’s not the only guy out here. It doesn’t mean that he’s your ultimate desire, that he’s your first means he’s the only one for you. Baby, there are a lot of guys who can treat you better, okay?”

“B-but… he’s the only one I like…” Soobin whispers and sobs.

Beomgyu nods and hugs Soobin. “Freshen up, please? I’m here. I’m here to help you, okay?”

Soobin nods at him and bit his lower lip, “I’m sorry… J-just… Just give me time. I-I can manage, I will…”

“I’ll be waiting and I’ll always be here, okay?”