9: He cared about that you wont see him cry. He was always cheery and happy around you but when he thought you don't see him he cryed. You were with him a while and you cared for him. He was best thing you ever met in your life. Of course he didn't knew about how you felt because one time he told you about his rule. "You can spend rest of your life with me, but I can't spend rest of my life with you" He explained and you just nodded. You realised what he meant. He couldn't love you. And he wont, so why would you bother to tell him you might feel something. It will only make your friendship awkward. You walked out of your room because you were tirtsy when you heard quiet sobs. You walked to console room and you saw him sitting under console, his face buried in his legs. You quietly walked toward him. He didn't knew you were there so he continued. You kneeled to him and put your hand on his knees. His head shot up and his red eyes met those yours. His eyes wided. You didn't said anything, wiped his tears away, gave him comforting smile and hugged him tightly. He hugged back. "I am sorry" You mumbled. "What for? You didn't do anything" He wishperd back, then cleared his troat. "Doc..." You kisses his forehead like he does when you are upset. He smiled with weak smile. "If you will be sad, you can tell me and we will deal with it okay?" You smiled and he nodded. You got up and rised your hand toward him. He took it and looked at you. "We gonna get you banana" You smiled and his smile wided. "I think I wont be upset soon with you around" He chuckled and you blushed.

10: You knew he was sometimes sad because of his comapnions he lost but you didn't knew he was crying every night. And he liked it as a secret. He said you he hate to see your wonderfull happy face in tears. That was your reason to not cry. But as he kept it like a secret he didn't get reason. You loved when he smiled and or when he had his cocky smirk. You woke up from nightmare and looked around. Every time you had night you just read book or something but now you were trully scared so you got up and walked out. You knew what Doctor didn't used his room often so you didn't bothered to look there. You ended in console room. No sound. This felt strange so you walked around untill you found sitting Doctor on stairs. He had buried his hands in his hair. He looked more stressed then sad but when you heard sob you knew something was wrong. You walked toward him. His back was facing you. You put your hand on his shouler. He froze. No sound, or breathing come from him. That deep in thought he was, thinking how he will escape this situation. But you sighed, hugged him from behin and rested your forehead on his back. "What's wrong Doctor?" You asked quietly. He sighed and you felt his big and warm hands on yours. "I am just upset. Why are you here?" He sounded like he cryed. Now you knew he was crying. "Not: just upset. What happend?" You said and he let out long sigh. "I am thinking about my companions" He said. He already told you abour Rose. You knew he surely had morw of then if he lived that long. "It'll be okay" You said quietly. "I know..." He said. "So why are you here?" He asked. "Nightmare" You replied. He nodded. "What about we both gonna watch some movie to cheer up?" You asked softly. He chuckled and got up as you. "Sounds good" He said. "That's why I am telling it Doctor" You winked and he chuckled at your cute face. "And don't you think I wont stop your night adventures. I will sleep here if you will keep cry okay? Just, if you're sad you have me" You said sheepishly. He bowed a little to you and kissed you on cheek. "I'll keep it in my mind" He replied and walked toward cinema room. You just smiled and followed.

11: Doctor's emotions were, like storm. Changing. He was still childish but his emotions could change just like that. Most of time when he thinks about his past, you can see his eyes changes a bit. But you didn't tought he cryed. He did't cryed in front of you so you couldn't even imagine it. You were about to go read a book, when you entered into library and found Doctor in one of comfort chairs, his face in his hands. "Doctor?" You asked worried. "Oh [F/N]! I didn't thought you will go here" He mumbled to himself. You rolled your eyes. He still didn't remeber you loved books, and if he knew, he didn't like to be with you now what made you mad for a while. But when you saw wet tears on his cheeks wave of sadness came trough you and walked to him. "Doctor! What's wrong?" You asked and wiped his tears away. He looked up at you with his big sad eyes and sighed. "I just sinked into my memories" He said and you let out kind sigh. "Come here" You sat next to him and hugged him. Smile showed up on his lips and he hugged back. "What would I do whithout you?" He said and you chuckled. But he sounded a bit serious too. "Have another companion?" You said. He sighed. "I discovered that, in that day you walkd into Tardis, it was locked. She let you in" He said and smiled. "Then she knew I will help you" You winked. "Maybe" He chuckled. "What about I will read you some book you like?" You asked and his eyes shined. "Yes!" He said like unpatien kid what made you giggle and he handed you regular book with deep red cover. "Let's begin" You said and opened first page. His smile wided.