"Sorry, my eyes are a little watery today, I didn't get much sleep last night," Eren said with a fake laugh that managed to cure the student's curiosity. "I'll be right back, I'm going to splash some water on my face maybe that will wake me up," Eren said excusing himself as the students had gone back to a worksheet that he hadn't even realized that Levi passed out.

Levi followed him to the door and grabbed his arm as they entered the hallway causing him to turn around. "Are you okay?" He asked knowing that his little statement, though it was true was not the reason his eyes were watering. He was crying about something, and Levi wanted to know what it was.

"Yeah, my mind is just being an ass today," Eren said with a shrug.

"You should talk to Erwin, he'll let you go home early if you need," Levi said brushing some hair out of Eren's eyes.

"I don't think that's necessary, I can still work," said Eren.

"Just because you can force yourself to work, doesn't mean you should. You're pushing yourself too hard, take a break go home clear your head and come back tomorrow," Levi said handing Eren the keys to his car.

"Look, I'll be okay, I don't have to go home," Eren said in protest.

"Eren, you look like you're going to break down any second," Levi pointed out. He grabbed one of Eren's hands and looked him in the eyes. "Please, go home. I need you to go home and take care of yourself. If you stay I'm going to be more focused on taking care of you that I won't be able to teach. I know that being back here causes some of the old memories to come back up, and sometimes it can just get to be too much. Remember one of the things that you promised Erwin was that if they get to be too much you let him know and you go home. Taking care of yourself is more important than being here okay," Levi said looking at Eren liked he was concerned.

Eren almost laughed Levi concern looked so real, but he knew it was faked 'he doesn't actually care about me,' Eren thought. 'It's not the memories that are getting to me, it's you,' is what Eren wanted to say.

"But how will you get home," Eren asked looking at the keys in his hand.

"I'll catch a ride with Hanji or Erwin, don't worry about that," Levi said placing a kiss on Eren cheek. "Go talk to Erwin, I got to get back to the class," He said letting go of Eren's hands and heading back into the room.

Eren stood there for a minute as another tear slipped down his cheek. He went to the bathroom to clear his eyes and erase the evidence of tears before heading to Erwin's office.

He knocked at the door and heard someone say come in. "Eren," said Erwin, "Is something wrong?" He asked setting down his pen and looking up at Eren.

"Nothing's wrong, Levi just insisted that I go home, but I think I'm okay," Eren said with a shrug. "He told me to talk to you," he said putting his hands in his pocket.

"Eren, I agree with Levi on this one, you look like you need a break," Erwin said standing up and walking over to Eren. He placed a hand on his forehead. "You look like you're coming down with something," he said as he felt Eren's forehead he realized it was warmer than it should be. Taking a closer look Erwin could see the tear stains on Eren's cheeks and knew why Levi had suggested Eren go home. He moved his hand away and told Eren to follow him. Eren obeyed and followed Erwin with his head down, he already knew where he was taking him.

They made it to the parking lot and Erwin escorted him to his car. "Eren go home, take as much time as you need, and come back when you're ready okay?" Erwin asked with a worried tone. "If you want I can stop by later to check on you?" Erwin asked.

"Thank you, but I think I'll be okay," Eren said gratefully.

"Call me if you need anything," Erwin said as Eren got in the car.

"Okay, I will, thanks," Eren said before starting the car to head home.

His drive home felt short he had turned up the music making sure it was loud enough to cover up his thoughts. He had tuned out most of his surroundings making sure to just focus on one thing. Home.

When he arrived all he wanted to do was crawl into bed and curl up into a ball and cry himself to sleep. He wanted to shrink into himself and disappear forever so he wouldn't have to deal with the unbearable pain that ate at him. He collapsed on the bed looking at the ceiling trying to think of what he was going to do. His depression had been draining him, and now with everything else that's happening his depression was in control. Eren had to spend every second trying to make sure that it couldn't take full control of him. Last time his depression had taken full control he wound up with huge scars down his arms as he blacked out in the bathroom from blood lost to wake up the next morning feeling like a failure. 

He held back his tears and forced himself to sit up. He had to distract himself. He made his way into the room that posed as his studio. He looked at the beautiful walls that he had painted for Levi with all the intricate little details. He ran his fingers over one and felt as a tear slipped down his cheek. The murals he had done that had once made him and Levi smile every time they walked in had brought him so much anger now. He wanted nothing more than to grab the black paint and a roller and paint over every single one of them in spite.

He grabbed a brush and looked at the paint when he grabbed the bucket he had realized it was empty. Eren let out a sigh and grabbed his little brushes. If he couldn't paint over the walls he would work on the painting he had already started. He intended to finish it today.

He grabbed the paints he would need and noticed that some if not most were empty or on their last legs. "Looks like I have to go to the store anyways," Eren sighed hoping he would be able to just stay home. He looked at the large can of black paint and told himself 'when I finished this one I started I'll paint over the walls.'

Eren grabbed his keys and headed for the door. He jumped in the car and hurried to make his way to the store. When he pulled up he quickly made his way inside to try and waste as little time as possible here. He quickly made his way over to the paints before slowing down to look for what he needed. He had grabbed only a few of the colors he needed, "I should have written them down," Eren mumbled cursing his bad memory as he did.

"Eren?" A familiar voice had said from behind him.