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Since we were kids we've been preparing to making decisions.

At the beginning questions are easy.
What's your favorite color? What's your favorite food? Cats or dogs? What should I wear today? What makes you happy? What character makes you laugh the most?

Probably a child will answer with easy answers. Blue. Chocolate of course. Dogs! A beautiful pink dress. Food! Scooby-Doo, he's awesome!

When we're growing up the questions begin to be harder but sill easy.
Who's your favorite band or solo artist? Do you like reading? What is your favorite childhood memory? What school subject do you most enjoy learning? What makes you laugh?

The answers get more constructive. My favorite solo artist is Selena Gomez because she's so inspiring! She has gone through a difficult phase in her life. She's so brave! I love reading! When I'm reading I'm in my own perfect world, I love this feeling. I've always enjoyed learning English because it's a very interesting language. My friends make me laugh a lot. They are the best person I've ever met in my entire life.

At the age of 15 we are asked what we feel like doing as a student, what job we shall do... at that moment it's not easy to answer. When we were kids, it was easy to answer. I want to be princess! Or maybe an astronaut! But now?

We are supposed to ask ourselves: who I want to be? But how are we supposed to answer to this question? I don't know who I am right now. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. If i want to be an actress or maybe a doctor? I don't even know what I'll be wearing tomorrow! So how can I say who I want to be in the future? Everybody's waiting for me to answer. But what I have to say? That I don't know!? I'm afraid to make a wrong decision!? I prefer not to answer!? That sometimes I hear this little annoying voice in my head telling me that I'm not good enough to do what I want!? That even if I make a choice it will be a wrong choice?
Why does everybody expect clear answer? Why can't I just say that I want to be happy? Have a great life?
I know it's important to have this little idea of who we want to be... but I'm scared. I am scared. I'm scared to answer to myself. I'm afraid to say my answer aloud.

I know it sounds cliché, but I think sometimes we need to be reminded that it's OK not to know how to reply.
We are trying to find out who we are and who we want to be.
But if we don't know... what's next?