January 12th
... Yeah I really dont even think I need to tell you what it is

Tw: talks about self harm and abuse

Iris was still waiting for more people to join the stream so she could explain everything after she got about 300k in the stream she started talking

"I wanted to address everything going on right now umm I- I really dont know where to start so" iris started thinking of the timeline of when everything started happening

"Around June of 2018 my boyfriend at the time and i got together, then around late 2018 he started geting weird... He made me shut people out he made me stop being friends with all of my friends he told me they 'didnt like me' he made me shut out George and told me that 'he didnt care about me' he made me shut out nick because he 'flirted' with me he even made me shut out my brother 'because he didnt know what was best for me' this went on for a few months my family got concerned but i thought they didnt know what was best for me so I shut them out" she explained to her stream

"Things them took a turn from there my ex boyfriend would get mad at me for little things like if I didnt feel good or I wouldnt go out with him and his friends so..."  Iris took a sigh tears forming in her eyes " he got  physical with me he would grab me on the shoulder to tightly and slap me and kick me i thought this was normal because I was only 15" she said then holding up her phone to the camera for proof

"And even though me and clay werent on... The best terms at the time he knew something was wrong. Clay... Tried to get me to go swimimg he tried to make me do things so he could prove what he knew what was happening. I wouldnt give in. Then I got a dm from a girl named avery" iris pressed her lips together and closed her eyes as a tear trickled down her check
"The dm had said that her and my boyfriend at rhe time have been seeing each other for a year" she said with a sigh iris licked her lips before saying,

" I broke up with him because he cheated, after I did I was bashed from all of his friends my nudes where leaked to my entire school and my entire town hated me I was redeemed the 'hoe' of the school and town"

"I tried REALLY hard to... Act like i was okay when I wasn't, so what i THOUGHT was best was to...hurt myself because nobody liked me and I was still convinced that my family didnt either nick was the first person to reach out and-he found out about what I was doing I um..." Iris stoped to catch her breath and wipe her tears away

" and at the time i really didnt end it because of nick, me and George slowly started being friends again then clay um that was a lot easier because hes my brother but I think he found out what I was doing so he rushed to get me to do something to get that off my mind and i mean at first streaming wasnt working and i was still doing it"

"Then in August clay started the smp and I met Wilbur and Tommy and tubbo, and i honestly owe everything I have now to my brother nick and wilbur because even when things are hard they seem to know how to help me in every way possible and I honestly wouldnt be here still if it wasn't for nick" 

" but im not asking for apologizes or anything like that I just want this to be a lesson to everyone that you shouldnt just believe EEVERYTHING you see on the internet without knowing the whole story and I honestly dont care if you dont believe me or anything I just told you but it happened I have the scars and I have photo proof... Also for everyone who is struggling with self harm PLEASE dont do it I promise you theres people who love you i promise you theres people that can help you and your not alone.  I know that I dont personally know you but i am very thankful to have every single one of you and if someone hasnt told you today I love you so please stay" iris said before ending the stream she sighed and threw her head back onto the head rest of her chair. Iris heard a knock on her door

"COME IN" she shouted while rubing her nose from crying clay came in and hugged her

"You are so strong" he said while rubing her back she started crying all over again her phone was ringing again

Incomeing facetime from " bestie💅🏻"

Iris chuckled and then answered it

"Heyy" she said sniffleing and smileing

"Guess what?" Nick asked her

"Mhm?"

"I finished packing" iris eyes went wide

"Does that mean that your gonna-"

"Yeah" he said iris gasped

"WHEN!?" She asked him

"Two days"

*_*

Iris got off her bed to check who was ringing her on discord she smiled and answerd it, the first thing she saw where his icey blue eyes

"Hi ranboo" she said with a giggle

"Turn your camera on" he whined

"Noooo I look ugly I was crying a little bit ago"

"You dont look ugly" he told her

"How do you know you cant see me right now" she argued

"I dont have to know your pretty while seeing your face I know your pretty and besides I knew you were going to be pretty before I saw your face" he told her truthfully iris got ready to talk but she just processed what he had said she felt her checks heat

"Fine." She said finally giving in she heard ranboo snicker

"Nathen." Iris says

"Alyssa." He says, irises eyes went bit and and gasped

"WHO TOLD YOU?" She questioned him

"I dont know its almost like im friends with your brother and all of your brothers friends includeing the one he and you grew up with" he informed her

" it was sapnap wasnt it?" She asked

"Yeah..." He said disappointed

"That little bitch" she said with a laugh