January 11th
Guess what it is...ITS A NARRATIVE...

Also TW: mentions of self harm

Iris now on her bed just laying there she put her phone on silent she didnt want to deal with anyone at the moment she hears someone open the door she assumes it is clay as he is the only one she knew was there so she didnt turn around if it was clay then he would talk to her.

"Hey i" Macy announced iris slow turned around and got off her bed to get up and hug Macy. As soon as iris was up to where macy could hug her Macy ran to her.

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It was now around 8pm Macy had just left iris room to go get some food iris was going to take a nap because of how exuashed she was but she got Another knock on her door. She wasnt even bothered she knew this was going to be happening alot for the reast of the day and night she also knew that clay was scared he wouldnt tell her but he saw the way she was different after her and Jared broke up he really couldnt figure out what it was till he realized why she always wore hoddies even when it was hot outside and she stopped wareing dresses to formal things or why she never came out of her room and why he always would hear sad sobs coming from her room late at night. She was hurting herself when clay found this out he couldnt stress it enough to get her out of the house get her into something to do get her focused on something other than hurting herself. He was moving out soon because he had gained alot of fame from streaming and making youtube videos. Clay convinced her to start streaming she gained popularity FAST. He had asked their to let her move in with him they thought it was a good idea so because of her gaining 'fame' fast.

"Hey" he said iris smiled up at her 'younger' brother though they were twins she was older witch means she ALWAYS made fun of him for it

"Hey lu" she said with a shakey voice he came up and hugged her she just sighed she was so mentality drained.

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It was the next day, iris was now geting ready to stream so she could talk about everything that was going on she didnt want to tweet or make a Instagram post about it and seem insensitive so she thought that streaming was the best option.

She had tubbos live in the background of her geting ready. Ranboo was talking to him while he was live they had gotten really close lately. Iris got on to discord for the first time in two days it was weird since she usually goes on every day atleast for talking with her friends

"Tubbo hold on im going to leave the call for a sec" ranboo says to t UBBO

"FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKKKKKKK" iris whisper shouts as she thinks she knows what he is going to do. He did it....

She was deciding wither or not to answer him she did but hesitately.

"Hey..." Iris said with a tired voice.

"...hi" he said back to her

"Can I call you in a few minutes? Im about to go live to explain everything"

"Yeah its fine" he told her before the line hanging up she sighed as she REALLY hoped this would change her relationship? Friendshid?  She really didnt know what to call it she knew she liked him she also knew that he 'simps' for her she really didnt think he actually liked her but her friends told her differently.

Her mouse hovered over the 'go live' button she didnt think this is how she how spend her Tuesday afternoon, she really didnt want to have to explain to THE ENTIRE INTERNET that she was mentally and physically abused and manipulated starting from the age of 14 she didnt want to explain to the entire internet why she tried to kill her self, BUT none the less she HAD to. If she didnt she was going to continue to, get enormous amounts of hate, on every platform and the death threats from the random people in her dms telling her to kill herself.

Iris sighed she pushed the go live button she REALLY did not want to do this hands shakey she mutes the mic so she can pull up the photos from her camera roll for proof of the abuse after she waitedfor people to get on so she could address everything she finally spoke up she cleared her throat before saying,

"Hi guys" she turned her camera on.

"I um... I wanted to talk about a few things"