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I felt my cheeks are heating up with me staring into space trying to figure out what just happened. I touched my lips so many time to convince myself it happened but I don't want it to be. It took me a while to get back to my senses. I was sitting there my back leaning in against the door frame thinking about of what just happened.

Why didn't I slapped him or pulled away from the kiss? An unsettling feeling began welling inside me. What is this feeling that I kept on having?

I felt my chest with My heart is pounding like the persistent waves against the crumbing cliffs. In a way deep down I was kind of happy even though it got me of gaurd. I got up and jump on my comfy bed to go to sleep but I couldn't. I kept on having my odd memories flashes before me.

Flashback

Two years ago, I was walking to school. Students were staring at me weird.

"Who's her? " said one of the girls.

"she's ugly" said another girl as she stared at me.

"I think she's the new student" said one of the guys.

So Ye just ignore them. Let them be. But I know deep down I felt sad from their words. I looked for my locker in the school hallway. People still looks at me weirdly. I know I am not perfect, not pretty, not to everyone liking but why must they stare it making me uncomfortable.

My mom always says" just be yourself,Everything has beauty, but not everyone sees it... Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart. So just be kind, people might be kind towards you"

I took a deep breath and walked to my new class.I was so nervous I thought I was gonna throw up again. I could feel sweat beading on my forehead as I walked to my new class.

I was so focused on my direction that I didn't look at where I was going, so I thought my body was losing control, and I bumped into someone who made me pause and stared at the guy.

"Are you OK?" said the person, and lend me his hands.

He's taller than me, with long, ash brown hair and light hazel eyes. He's got a thick, straight eyebrow and a slander nose. Though considered by many to be very handsome. Compared to me, a fat girl who just fell down on the ground was helped by an attractive man.

"Y-yes" I said with a stuttering in my voice.

He helped me get up "Are you new here?"

I just nodded.

"Oh Where's your class then want me to help you?" he said and I handed him my documents that shows what class I will be in.

"Oh your class just around here" he pointed to the left.

"Thank you" and I gently bowed at him.

"No need to be formal here if you need any help just tell me I will help I'm the class president after all and by the way I'm Kim Junmyeon but just call me Suho" He smiled offering a handshake.

"I'm So Ye" I shake his hand but I felt nervous with my heart pounding so fast.

"See you around So Ye" he wave at me as he walked away.

Oh, my god, my god. I felt my face blush as much as I covered my face with my bare hands. He's gorgeous, sweet and kind. He's so dreamy. I'm falling for him. No, it can't be that I've just met that guy.

I walked into my new classroom, and I was anxious as people began to look at me. All their attention were on me.
"Class this is your new classmate she will be joining us today please introduce yourself" said the teacher.

" Isn't that the girl we saw at the hallway earlier" a girl asks one of her peers.

"Yeah I can't forget her face when I see one" answered her friend.

"Yeah a fat girl like her how to not forget" they giggled in silence.

But I heard what they said, and I just kept my mom's words, and I kept calm.

"Hello everyone I'm Lee So Ye and nice to meet everyone I am not good with introduction so I hope we can be friends" I introduced myself.

Just a few people clap for me.

"You will be sitting next to Han MinJee" the teacher pointed at the sit.

I walked towards my sit but I got tripped by someone leg. I fell with my face planted on the ground.

"See that's how we welcome new comers and by the way you're seat is over there if you can manage to walk there without falling fat girl" the girl devilishly said.

"Who do you think you are?" I said nervously.

"Yi Miyoung see you around fatty" as She laughs.

"Hi I'm So Ye" I said.

"Hi and don't talk to me let me sleep" the girl next to me said.

The next two weeks were a leaving hell. Those girls and Miyoung were getting on my nerves they tripped me everytime I am with them in the cafeteria when everyone is watching and they laughs at me and went to the rooftop and cried my eye out. I was devastated. I hate my life.

On the bright side Suho were helping me when I don't know where to go. Remember I am still new. He is some what nice.

Day by day, I started to have feelings for Suho. I want to tell him but I was scared what if I get rejected. My sister said just confess to him and just get it over with.

And I just do just that. MinJee she is kind off my friend. When I need her she helps me a bit when no one is watching. Maybe she doesn't like me.

"I'm going to confess to Suho today" I said in excitement.

"Yeah whatever I got to go" MinJee said and runs away.

Maybe she isn't my friend after all.

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"Suho I am willing. To tell you something" I said and he was standing in front of me.

The only thing that making me even more nervous is that a lot of people were watching us.

"Yes So Ye is there any other things I can help" he replied.

Here’s goes "Suho I like you"

Everyone who was watching us were talking to eachother while some were laughing.

Suho looked at me and then to the crowed. I think he was looking at a particular person. I just assumed.

The next thing make me heart broken. I know he will rejected me. I just knew. But the way he said it. Just makes me think of him differently.

"Do you honestly think I like you So Ye... I got to laugh I already have a girlfriend Miyoung... I just helping you because you are a new student and I know who you actually are Miyoung told me" Suho said, and I ran away somewhere where nobody could find me.

After that, Miyoung continues to bully me in any shaped or form and the part that makes  me hurt even more is the guy that I like started to do the same I don't know what came over him but through out my middle scholl years him and Miyoung makes it even more difficult and a living hell for me.

End of flasback

Thinking about my past memories just makes me sad, and the pain has not changed since then. It's still in there.

These painful memories are the same as nightmares. They disappear when I'm awake, when I'm right here with everyone at the moment. Once I really open my eyes, let it be in the daylight, they have no choice but to leave.

The world has become distorted, and so have all the sounds. The flavour of it. It's the scent. It was all just gone. I paused to try to keep back the peculiar feelings that were rumbling inside me, but I couldn't. There was a single tear in my eye, and just like that, the floodgates opened. So many tears burst out of the dam like water, flowing down my face. My chin trembled as if I were a little girl. I breathed a lot harder than I ever did before. I was gasping for air that wasn't there. My throat burned to form a silent scream. Is this really what it felt like crying?

Few minutes later, when I was calming down a bit. Reverently, I rubbed my fingertips over the silk mattress. I pressed a cool, velvet pillow on my cheek. The consolation was dense and irresistibly fluffy, like a shimmering cloud. I collapsed into it, happy to rest my tired legs. Warmth and darkness have enveloped me. Soon, I hugged my pillow  to go to sleep.

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