Chapter 8

Taehyung couldn't sleep for even a second. He was just staring at Y/n who was sleeping. He gulped his saliva, guilt engulfing him. He hid her face in her hands, while crying.

I didn't ask her permission, I am awful. She will misunderstand it, she will not understand my love, she will think it was lust.

It was hurting him, he hurt her. She was too drunk, even if she kissed him, he was supposed to pull back except for doing what he did.

And here it was happening, he didn't want to face her and just left. He has to face her.

"Taehyung, it was a dream right?" She spoke, she was wearing her clothes but she remembered some little things that happened last night. She was too wasted to control what she did.

Taehyung was silent, so she got the idea that it actually happened. "What? No! Why?"

"You kissed me."

"God Taehyung, you should have pushed me away. I was really drunk! How could you?!" She started crying, he is the last person she imagined would do something like that. She trusts him alot, and she woke up, knowing last night he took advantage of her.  "I hate you,"

No, no. He doesn't want this. He doesn't want her to hate him. He can die but can't let this happen.

"But I was drunk too." First lie that slipped out of his mouth.

"Taehyung, still. I didn't want it to happen. I-i," she hid her face in her hands while crying badly. She was thinking about Jungkook, how much she wanted him to be the one to be her first. The worst part is, last night she kept thinking it was Jungkook.

She took up, taking her things. She wanted to leave. She can't stay here for a second.

"Y/n, talk to me."  He held her hand. She pushed him away.

"Don't you dare touch me again."

He held her hand away. "Why are you blaming me? You came here drunk, you kissed me, you were the one kept telling me to not leave you, now you are blaming me for everything?"

"You are the one who hurt me, I was drunk too. And you know that I love you. You just used me and put the whole blame at me." Taehyung never thought he would get enough confidence to lie to her while still making eye contact with her.

He could see the hate turn into guilt. He hates to hurt her, and puts the whole blame on her. But he can't see the hate in her eyes.
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Jungkook was looking outside the glass door. "Are you okay? You look distracted today."

The only friend of Y/n who talks to Jungkook in a polite way is Hyori.

"Hmm, nothing." He replied and looked at his notebook again.

"You and Y/n broke up? You both looked serious and deeply in love."

"It was for the best, she deserves more than I can give." He replied, he looked at her. "You must be happy that I break up with her."

"M-me?" Hyori got nervous. "No? Why would I?"

"Your brother likes her."

"Oh, yes. He does like her a lot. I remember how he just started having falling for her, and he-"

"Can we not talk? I want silence, can you please?" Just shut up. He was annoyed, he doesn't want to hear about Y/n and definitely not about Jungkook.

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Y/n was messing up all the orders, she couldn't focus. And Jungkook's presence in the cafe made it impossible for her to focus on her work.

Her hands were sweating, she wanted to escape, leave. She is too weak to face him, she was broken, and now she felt pathetic too after what happened between her and Taehyung.

She wants to quit job, but she already finds Jungkook talking to the manager.

"That is why I tell the employee to not date, you can't leave the job like this. Not until I find someone in your place." The manager said. Jungkook tried to convince but he can leave the job before they find someone else.

After work, Y/n decided to get the courage to talk to him.

"You don't have to leave because of me." Y/n exclaimed.

"I am not leaving because of you, I got a better job in a restaurant." Half a lie, he had the restaurant offer for a long time but he never considered it since he enjoyed working with Y/n here.

He is leaving because he can't face her everyday, he can't resist her. So being close to her is not a good idea.

"Fine." She replied and was about to leave. Jungkook holds her arm, he is not supposed to care about her. But he still does. Her eyes looked tired, as if she had been crying. He is afraid it is because of him. "Are you okay?"

She pulled away her hand. "You don't need to care."

And then she left. Jungkook felt pain in his chest, a part of him wants to run to her and stop her. The other part wants to let her go.

He just let her go, but letting go is better than suffocating her.

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Jungkook was fine with his new part job. Except he hates how Taehyung always shows up there, like in cafes, then convenience stores and now restaurants too.

The city has so many restaurants, he can go to any of them but he comes here with his whole family. It was a new fancy restaurant.

"You are here too, so annoying. They hire such cheap people like you." Taehyung said in a low tone. The weird smirk that Taehyung had on his face, Jungkook wanted to punch him so badly. 

They booked a private space, and we're here for dinner. Jungkook just did his job. His job is to assign people to their seats. He did that.

It was Taehyung's birthday as he cut the  cake even when Taehyung looked tired and didn't want to celebrate the birthday. He agreed to have a family dinner.

He hasn't received a birthday wish from Y/n, so he was hurt.

Everything was fine, until they heard the glass shattered. Jungkook just went to check if everything was fine, but he ended up witnessing something Taehyung was hiding.

Jungkook's eyes looked at the spilled wine on Taehyung's father's shirt, the wine glass on the floor. Then Taehyung's mother was fine when she entered the restaurant, and now she had a bruise on her left cheek, and a cut on the side of her lips. Hyori who looked scared and Taehyung was just staring at the candle of his cake while even blinking.

Jungkook can guess what possibly might have happened.

"You ruined my fcking shirt! What am I supposed to do now?" Mr. Kim yelled, he noticed Jungkook's presence and changed his expression.

"I will get it clean." Jungkook spoke. He called someone to clean the mess.

"We would like to leave now." Mr. Kim held his wife's arm, "Hyori, get up."

They left, except for Taehyung who was still sitting at his place.

At that moment, Jungkook felt really bad for Taehyung. He must be going through a lot by seeing such stuff everyday.

Taehyung finally stood up, he looked at Jungkook. "What? Don't give me that look." He was standing three feet away from Jungkook. "Don't pity, It's not like I am the one whose mom is a gold digger wh*re who left me and father just for money."

Jungkook holds his collar, he doesn't feel bad for Taehyung anymore, he wants to dig his grave here. "DON'T YOU DARE CURSE AT MY MOTHER!"

Jungkook can curse as much as he wants. He is mad at her, but still she is his mother and he can't tolerate someone else cursing.

Taehyung smirked. "Your mother? I was talking about a random Wh*re but looks like your mother is also-"

He had lost it, he punched his face. And Taehyung looks like he was waiting for this moment to punch Jungkook back. Taking his frustration, Y/n, his family, everything that was bothering him.

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Taehyung stared at the river, it was night time and it was cold at this time. There weren't many people there, everyone was going to their home, where they could seek comfort and warmth. While Taehyung, doesn't feel peace in his own house.

His birthday is about to end, and yet, no wishes from Y/n. He is afraid to lose her.

Y/n: Can we meet?

He looked at the text, he was dying to meet her. He wants to hug, apologize for what he did.

After 20 minutes, Y/n arrived there. She looked at Taehyung, who had a few bruises on his face after the fight with Jungkook. His eyes were teary, his cheeks and nose red because of the cold.

"Tae, did you fight with someone?" She spoke.

"Y/n, I was waiting for you." He said. The way Taehyung avoided the topic it was clear he doesn't want to talk about it. "What do you want to talk about?"

"I was angry at Jungkook, I thought he was being ridiculous for breaking up with me even when he loved me. But when I hurt you so many, without intention. I realized it. Our friendship, everything is complicated. I want a break." She exclaimed.

"We can have a break then." Taehyung replied.

She shook her head. "I am sorry. I am an awful friend. I don't deserve you."

He thought he couldn't get hurt anymore. His birthday can't get any worse. Y/and give him something. " Happy birthday. It's not a fancy brand. I designed and stitched this sweater by myself."

Taehyung smiled and looked at it. "It is already my favorite, Thank you for it. I love it."

Sure he can buy all the branded outfits he wants, but this one is made and designed by Y/n. It's special.

Y/n forced a smile. "Sorry for being a bad friend. I hope you don't have to see me."

She was about to leave.

"Y/n! No, that is not happening. Are you breaking our friendship? No." Taehyung holds her arm. She started crying.

"You do so much for me, and I don't do anything for you except I just hurt you."

"No, you are doing so much for me by being in my life. I have never been happier." Taehyung hugged her. "I am fine with getting hurt a little with you by my side, I don't want to get hurt alone without you."

She breaks the hug, "Just, I need some time. Everything is a mess."
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