Chapter 6

Taehyung rolled in his bed, and put his hands over his eyes. He got up, he hasn't been doing anything lately, he just lay on the bed and wondered how his life would be.

He stood up, and went to his wardrobe. There was a box in it, he opened it and found a journal.

He sits in the wardrobe, although he wants to write his feelings down. But right now, he wants to write about feelings from the past.
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Finally something incredible happened in my life. Something I really want to write. The day started as bad.

It was a horrible day. It started as normal, I was in my room and I heard yelling. Dad was going to an event, he couldn't find his blue tie. He has thousands of blue ties, he could just wear any of them. But he wanted the one he couldn't find. I peeked inside the room, I couldn't see much as they were in the walk in wardrobe. I could see a little as he pinned my mother to the wall by her neck, 'Because of you I will be late now. You are useless and why are you dressed like a wh*re. Are you planning to seduce my friends and business partner?'

I could see blood on her face, he must have hit her. I could see her struggling in his arms as he hold arms with one hand while his other was taking off her underwear. While my mother was mumbling, 'The door is open, please close it. Please stop and first close the door, Taehyung and Hyori might come.'

I couldn't stand there anymore so I left. I hate myself because I can't help her. I tried, I tried to complain about my father, call the police on him, but everytime, mom supported dad. I hated mom too, because she accepted him. And still love him, how is it possible to love the man who abuses you? It makes me feel disgusted.

Yeah again. I have seen worse and how I wish I haven't. It was on my 12th birthday, dad never hit mom In Front of me and Hyori when we were young. We would always find bruises on her face, arms and legs. But mom would lie to us saying she accidentally hit her. And we would believe it, we couldn't imagine that our dad could hit mom.

He acts normal to me and Hyori, but on my birthday, I saw the worse side of him, it was after the party. When I caught him beating until she was bleeding, I don't know the reason exactly, but I remember how she was biting the back of hand in order to control her screams.

He thought we went to sleep, I am grateful that Hyori didn't witness that. But I did. And my father stopped when he saw me. He stopped that night, but after that I think his limits got pushed further, because he started hitting her even when I was there, he thinks that I have seen worse.

Back to what just happened, I left the house to get some fresh air, I was walking the streets blankly. I came too far without even realizing I was thinking what possibly I can do for my mother. My father says he loves her, but if he love her then why would he call her wh*re and beat her over such little things?

'Hey, You!' I looked up and two guys blocked my way. They were of my age, I looked around, I was not familiar with this area. I didn't know for how long I had been walking. 'What's your name? I have never seen you in this area? And you look so neat.'

One of the guys said. I was in a bad mood, so I just tried to walk away but the guy stopped me, I don't even remember what they were saying. They were just making fun of me, taking my apple watch and phone. He doesn't look like a robber , they were just messing around, they pulled my hair. 'Don't you have a tongue? Say something?'

I don't know how to deal with them. 'Hey! What are you doing to him!' I heard a girl's voice, I looked at the girl.

The girl looked scary, it was the middle of the night and she had long hair and was wearing white dress with a black crop hoodie. She looked wild, she stepped closer in light. And I was wrong, she looked more like an angel than a ghost.

"Leave little girl. We are just having fun with him." The guy said.

She put her hand in the pockets of her dress, "Looks like I have to teach you a lesson." She said she pulled out some tubes.

"Fck off or less I use pepper spray."

The guys just chuckled, "Pepper spray? Don't they even work?" He walked near her, she hit his eye with the tube. Ouch, that is brutal.

"Yah! You crazy girl-" The other said.

"Leave or you want me to beat you guys." She held my hand, that was the time I realized that I was just standing there confused. "Run in count of 3." She whispered.

Run? But wasn't she about to beat them? I don't know what happened, I was getting dragged by this girl, okay so we are running away, not fighting back.

When they were not behind us, we stopped while catching our breath. "Yah! Why didn't you fight back? "

"I don't like violence." I said, my heart beat stopped as she put both of her hands on my shoulder making me look at her.

"Listen, good that you hate violence but if someone hits you. You must hit back. As defense or atleast run away."  She patted my shoulder. And started walking.

I pace up catching her speed, "It's usually male lead who saves the female lead from thugs."

I want to start a conversation with her.

My mood was really bad, but not at that point. After seeing her, I feel happy, the type of happiness I was looking for in my life.

I see her hiding her smile, "Yeah, I acted cool in the start right?"

I nodded my head, and told her my name, I was waiting for her to say her name.

'Y/n.' It was beautiful when she said it.

She takes away my pain and gives me peace.

I am not sure if I will ever see her again. But If I marry someone it will be her, and I will never hurt her. I will never be like my father. I will Just love her unconditionally. And do anything for her happiness.

Taehyung held the journal in his hand, and tears started falling down. From the moment he saw her he wanted nothing but her. "For your happiness, I let myself get hurt."

I met her again, after a whole week. She was staring at me. "Are you following me?"

"No." I lied when I was doing exactly that, I knew which school she studied in and told my father that I wanted to study in a normal school then the private school that I was in.

And I was so glad to see her, but in her  class. I can be friends with her. The whole day I was just following her in school, because I didn't know how to talk to her.

She felt that and asked me, "Can you stop following me around!? I get it you didn't have friends in school. But why are you following me outside too?" She asked.

"I am going home too, do you want to eat ice cream with me? There is a job, you help me, so for that."

She stared at me up and down and then she agreed. I was excited for our date. I am not sure if she considered it a date but I did. I was thinking of it as a date.

I know what she likes, she doesn't talk much, I think she doesn't like talking. Everything was good, until we were about to go back.

I hate myself for this but I yelled, "You are bleeding?"

I was worried that maybe she had hurt herself or something. She was shocked. "Shut up! Don't embarrass me! Really? Right now?"

"Yeah, your skirt has a huge blood stain," she ran to the restroom. After a while she called me. She was peeking out of the restroom Door, her eyes were scared and she looked embarrassed.

"I hate this, I didn't know it was coming but  I got my first period. " She said. I kinda know what periods are, not much. At that moment I realized I made her embarrassed by yelling out in the middle of the ice cream shop.

"Congrats." What else was I supposed to say? But periods are a good thing? It means she can have babies in the future.

"Idiot, I need pads or tampons. Can you get them for me?" She exclaimed, she told me to go to a shop, convenience store or something and get her some.

I told her I would be back, but I was feeling like a pervert, because I was looking at the women 's section, staring at all the stuff.

I felt extremely embarrassed but I thought about how it would happen with Jennie. So I should not feel embarrassed. I am just trying to help, I bought different types of tampons. I don't know which one is right, also some shorts.

I ran back and give them to her, I thought she will be thankful that I help her so much but she 7 words,

"I hope I never see you again "

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"Yesterday, I hope I didn't make you uncomfortable," Jungkook said.

"No, Your father is really nice. I actually enjoyed it." She smiled, she got sad because she was missing her own father.

Someone covered Y/n's eyes from behind, pushing Jungkook a little.

"Tae," She smiled. Taehyung let her go.

"Good morning," He wrapped his arms around his shoulder.

It's hard to ignore Taehyung, he is indeed clingy to Y/n. And how Jungkook is supposed to accept this when he knows that Taehyung has feelings for her.

"Jungkook, let's go to class together." Y/n saw his expression.

"You go. I will follow up later." Jungkook turned and left.

Y/n was about to follow, Taehyung held her. "Yah! At least give me some time, I am your best friend if you are forgetting."

"As if I can forget you," She smiled.

"Lisa is hosting a party in her house, are you coming?" He asked.

"Really, I will ask Jungkook if he is free."

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Jungkook was free, but he didn't want to attend the party. Y/n also didn't attend the party.

Jungkook doesn't like any of her friends, they all ship Y/n with Taehyung, and when Y/n is not around, they make fun of Jungkook and make him feel bad.

She liked the idea of spending time with Jungkook. But Jungkook said he will come to her place at 9, as he was busy.

She has felt left out while seeing the insta stories, how much his friends were enjoying while she was at home.

She got a text from Taehyung,

Taehyung: What are you doing?

Y/n: At home. Are you enjoying the party?'

Taehyung: No, I did go. It would not be fun without you🥴

Y/n: You should at least Jungkook will be here to accompany me.

She smiled, she kinda knew that he would not attend if she didn't. The doorbell rings. She ran to the door to open it, she fixed her hair and dress first. Then open the door. Her smile dropped.

"What's with the sudden expression change? Are you not happy to see me?" Taehyung said he came inside her apartment.

"Tae, I have told you you can't come here." She exclaimed, now he is already inside.

"I am hurt that you let your boyfriend come to your house but never me. I bring your favorite pizza."

"It's just a one room apartment. Not a house."

"I do like it." It wasn't luxurious, everything was simple but we'll be organized. She was trying to clean it as Jungkook was supposed to be here. "Drinks?"

"Tae, leave please. Jungkook will be here."

"Hmm, so? I don't think he will mind my company."

He will hate it. Y/n was scared now, Jungkook was already upset at how clingy Taehyung is.

"Wait, you are wearing no makeup, makeup, your hair was combed, legs look freshly shaved and a dress at home. Did I ruin your plan to get railed?" He joked, while raising his eyebrows.

Is it too obvious? Last time she was not prepared, now she thinks she made it too obvious.

"Are you wearing matching undergarments too?"

"Tae! Shut up!" She hit his chest while she felt her cheeks turn red.

"And remove this lipstick." He bring his hand near her face, she

The bell rang and She went to open the door. His bunny smile cures all her pain, and Jungkook gives her flowers. "You look pretty."

"I look like how I usually look." She said,

"Liar."

Jungkook looked inside where the voice came from and saw Taehyung sitting on the couch while opening the can of beer. He doesn't know what to feel about this.

"Sorry, he came here." Y/n said.

He wanted to leave but He still came inside and she closed the door. She hates the awkward aura. Taehyung didn't even greet Jungkook, he just sipped the beer.

The romantic evening Y/n planned was ruined. "Jungkook, sit. It's a good thing, I wanted you to get to know Taehyung better."

Y/n knows that Jungkook doesn't like Taehyung but if Jungkook gets to know Taehyung, he would be comfortable around them.

"Taehyung is a Social butterfly, I am sure you will get along well, right Taehyung?"

He was ignoring Jungkook's presence.

"It's fine, I don't need to be friends with him." Jungkook said.

Y/n tried to start a conversation where both of them could talk, but they were not talking to each other.

"How long do you guys know each other?" Jungkook asked.

"4-5 years now, Taehyung used to reach my shoulder when we must and at the end of  8th grade he grew 12 inches taller than me. That moment I really felt butterflies when I looked up at him. I was even developing a crush on him." Y/n was drunk by now and was saying whatever was coming in her mouth.

Taehyung looked at her, he didn't know that, but he felt happy knowing at least at some point Y/n had feelings for her. But this made Jungkook angry.

"Yah! Why did you never tell me that? We would be a power couple by now." Taehyung said.

"That was just for a moment okay, then I remember how you were there when I got my first period, remember how embarrassed it was. And get rid of my feelings."

"It was embarrassing for me, not you. You sent me to get tampons when I had no idea what they were back then.  And you said 'I hope I see you again', except of thanking me." Taehyung laughed.

Jungkook didn't laugh, he was serious. Jungkook was just silent.
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