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Sanskar's POV
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Tomorrow is my engagement with my love Manisha. I donno when I fall for her but yeah its love.

Its 8 PM now and my work is finished because tomorrow am taking half day for the ceremony. Finally I got the foreign deal with Mr Ian Cullen and am so happy that my company is gonna expand in international level.

And yeah today finally am gonna meet Ragini after two months of our separation. Yeah I have to take divorce papers so that tomorrow I can give to my lawyer and then our divorce can proceed. But donno always why I feel a pang in my heart whenever I listen or utter the word 'DIVORCE'

I took my keys and headed towards parking lot. I am feeling excited and nervous about meeting Ragini again, but why this feeling? I never felt so in our two years of marriage, or I felt a kind of it everyday because I always felt at peace returning home in her embrace, is it too late?

But why late, I don't love her and without it how can we be happy in a relationship? Its actually a habit that's why am thinking so and eventually we became best friends too.

Shaking all the thoughts in my mind I started driving towards our appartment sorry its now Ragini's appartment. My heart is beating fast and erratically as if I am running since a day. What's this?? Uff so confusing...

Right now I have to focus and think about my engagement tomorrow but why am I not happy? Please God, please help me out am going mad.

May be because of lack of sleep am thinking nonsense. Finally am infront of her appartment. While thinking so much nonsense I didn't realise when I reached here. Anyways I will just take divorce papers and bid her bye but my hands are sweating, as if am going for interview or most important exam of my Life.

I finally rang the bell and waited for her to answer finally am gonna see her after so long but no one answered. I rang it continuously and bang the door again and again but still none answered. A panic ran through my blood, and all the negative thoughts began to marathon in my mind.

I quickly ran towards lift and pressed the button continuously but its taking lot of time, what if something happened to her or she did something to her, no no she is strong enough she can't do anything like her. Looking for another option I finally used staircase to go down forgetting that I can use my mobile but I was feeling that my life is sucked out off my body. I ignored all the people staring of the people around me, to them am looking like madman but what will you do when you are going to lose your life any moment? Will you care about the world or people around you? No, same thing happened to me too.

Reaching the receptionist I asked for the key of the appartment named under Mr Sanskar Maheshwari. The manager too came running to me and handed me the key calming me down and giving me shock of my life.

"Sir, Ragini mam handed us the key two months ago, saying that whenever you come I should give to you as she is leaving it forever, we tried to contact you but your number is out of reach" the manager explained me and I felt like the ground is slipping beneath me. She left the appartment, she left me forever, why? But she has the right to move on, but its paining in my heart? Do I have one, yeah I have that's why am in love with Manisha but why is it sounding bitter now in my mouth?

I remembered my phone got stolen the other day I left from here and since I had another phone too so I only file complaint regarding the phone and I only gave them my that number and in case of emergency I gave them Ragini's number but I never thought that I should have given my another number too may be I could have been found her. But what would have I told her.

I took the key and went to 'our' appartment. Unlocking the door I roam my eyes all around, everything seems the same but her fragrance is missing. Then I saw a paper flipping on the bed, thinking maybe she left a message for me I ran but alas there lies our Divorce papers signed by her. I turned all the pages and she signed everywhere where its needed. Finally I realised the pain of heartbreaking, finally I realised that I lost the precious part of my life or most probably my LIFE itself.

I hugged the papers tightly and I was about to tear the papers but suddenly my eyes fell on the painting I gifted her on our wedding night. She is now the white bird flew out of my life, making me regret my decision of leaving her. She told me that her love is like Meera so she left even my gift and memories of us together here. He looked every corner of the house and found that she had taken only the things she bought from her home or from her money. The jewellery, dresses, painting, shoes everything she left it here like it were untouchables and first time a tear tickled down my eyes and I realised a precious jewel just now bid her goodbye leaving me shattered.

I again tried to tear the papers but Manisha's face striked my mind and miraculously am not feeling anything for her, may be my pain for Ragini subsided my feelings for Manisha.

Where can she be gone? To her parents only otherwise she don't have any friends, she haven't? Or I never knew? I never tried to know about her life before marriage that's why its easy for her to hide from me.

I locked the door of our appartment and ran towards my car to reach her parents house. I have to talk to her one last time, she always understands me and may be what am I feeling now I can explain to her and she can explain me what's this? Yes, yes I have to meet her. I started driving my car rushly breaking the damn signals, and its so suffocating that every news channel is surfacing my divorce with Ragini and my upcoming engagement with Manisha. Sweats are running from my forehead and finally am infront of Sharma Niwaas

I parked my car and ran towards the front door ringing the bell continuously. While waiting I looked towards my wrist watch and it shows 11 PM that means all are sleeping but how come I can rest when there is so much turmoil in my mind and heart. May be meeting Ragini can help me. I rang the bell again and this time my mother-in-law or soon to be ex-mother-in-law Mrs Shalini Sharma opened the door. She looked me emotionally at first but again may be something passed her mind and her emotion changes to anger instantly. She shouted "Get Lost" and shut the door on my face.

I started to bang the door continuously without stopping and caring about my hand which started bleeding but still none opened the door

"Ragini, Ragini one last time, please open the door" I shouted repeatedly may be she find in her heart to open, she was never so heartless even to her enemies and finally my wait is over. This time my father-in-law Mr Manoj Sharma

opened the door, his condition is also not good and anyone can tell looking at his disheveled state.

"Ragini" I muttered difficultly depicting their reaction.

"What do you want now? You already destroyed my doll's life and what more you want to destroy?" He roared loudly making me feel guilty.

"Dad please.." I started but he cut me off saying in emotionless tone "am no more your Dad, you lost the right the same day you left her, because of you she even didn't came to us, I knew her well she don't want us to be sad and thinking herself as burden she left us too, but now am happy with her decision wherever she is she must be at peace now away from you"

Saying so he was about to close the door but I put my bleeding hand in between the two doors saying "uncle for once please... "

Listening to me he roared "am not even your uncle, because of my friendship with your father am not throwing you out, for one last time am telling you there is no more relationship between us, get lost before I do something uneventful" saying so he slightly pushed me back and closed the door again on my face thus breaking my last hope.

That day I returned to the appartment which I shared with Ragini since two years to find a little peace and slept while hugging the divorce papers in my hand hoping the new day will not bring more miseries rather bring miracle in my life.

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Thank you
Nitika