--= Preston's + POV =--

He's gone. Eyes scanning the perimeter trying to see if there was any passerby's I let myself relax to see there weren't any this late at night. Swinging my legs over the open windowsill, I pushed myself through.

'That Ty dude was really bipolar. Doesn't matter. Not like he's actually going to bother me if he can't even make up his own mind about threats or advice.'

Narrowing my eyes as the pitch black lit up, I relaxed my shoulders and let my feet take it on their own. Instantly pounding into the pavement, I grimaced to see my arm swing in and out of view every other second. 

If only I could saw it off. Wind whipping in my hair, I shook my head as I tried strangling it with my right arm, letting out a frustrated sigh. 

'I hate this stupid thing! '

Biting my lip to see if there was anyone around, I sighed in relief to see nobody was here so far. Opening my mouth to let out a laugh, I slammed my lips shut as a hissing sound escaped.

'No, no no no no no no no......No!'

 Glancing around, I opened my mouth to talk but it was translated into growls and groans that sounded like monsters that would hide under your bed.

Clutching my face in my hands, dry sobs raked my body as my gaze lifted up towards the starry sky. This was a mistake. From the surgery from the doctor all the way up to now. I want to end this.

'I WANT TO BE FREE.'

.....I guess that's what I have to do. End it. I'd rather be dead than be turned into something awful....What if it's infectious? And it can spread? 

Ty said that I have the worst of it, how can you kill something like this? Waters too painful....I'll try fire. Yeah, setting myself on fire. Maybe it will hurt less than water.

 I'll do it when Ty finally disappears, in the meanwhile? I'm staying in the room unless I'm absolutely forced to come out. I wish this never happened, I shouldn't have tried killing myself. I regret it all.

I don't want to be distorted. I want to be normal. This is all taking too long and time goes by too fast, Ty will probably bring friends and when he finds out what I've done I'll be dead anyways.

So there's no denying what could happen anyways. It's just how the world works. Unless something magically changes my mind like true love or, somebody who has the same issue other than Ty comes in, I'll stay. 

But let's face it, that is a one in a million chance of happening and I don't know if anybody had noticed this? But luck is never on my side. It's just one of the perks of being me.

Stupid life, loving friend, no family, all is great, but that one loving friend can't keep you a float forever. Sky knows it, and I sure as hell know it too. Hopefully he understands what I'll do.

He should, he's seen some of it anyways......Now that I think about it, I'm glad I showed him. So I won't make the same mistake of trying to leave without having proof of a reason.

This is as good a reason as any, so why not use it to my advantage? Ty isn't what I'm worried about, I'm confident actually, I'm just hoping Ty is as loving to Sky as he leads on.'

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I'm just warning all of you, the books about to pick up speed really quickly, really fast.