6 months later 

self-love/ˈˌself ˈləv/noun

regard for one's own well-being and happiness (chiefly considered as a desirable rather than narcissistic characteristic).

I sighed eating the spinach as I sat on the couch with my floral dress Miguel played with his toys watching tv at the same time with pink shirts and a blue shirt 

"Camila" Taylor walked through the door with balloons "honey please you're going to miss your own got damn baby shower if you don't get up" she let go of the balloons closing the house door 

my mother came down the stairs putting her earrings on sighing "I told her that" she got to the last step grabbing her small jacket 

"it's like no matter what I eat I just fucking have heart burn and it's like my life right now just slowly burning-"

Taylor and my mother groaned walking away from me they were annoyed but they didn't understand at all how I feel- 

"I don't know who got her into proetry but she needs to snap out of it" Taylor helped Miguel put on a small sweater 

"I've been dealing with this for the last 6 months Taylor trust me I'm tired" my mother helped me off the couch fixing my dress 

"I'm just getting fat all over again" I cried out as my mother took the bowl of spinach away 

"you're not fat mommy" Miguel rubbed my swollen belly I looked down smiling nodding 

"thank you my love" he smiled looking up at me 

Taylor clapped her hands "all of this cuteness is making me miss my baby so please lets get going so we can see if you're going to have a little sister or brother" 

Miguel cheered while I followed behind everyone as we walked outside locking up I took my time coming down the stairs as my mother spot me 

"it's not going to be a lot of people are there?" I asked nervously 

"I mean-" Taylor nervously chuckled "no?" she forced the balloons in the car 

we got in the car pulling off I couldn't help but to think if I was having a little girl or a little boy its just hard thinking of raising another child without a father figure but that shit will most likely happen

we finally pulled up to the venue I looked around at all the cars in the parking lot and sighed "T-"

"listen my love today is about you and that baby in your stomach don't ask any questions and don't worry about anything you just sit there and look gorgeous" I nodded as we walked inside 

"oh honey you look beautiful!" Ant mother walked up to me kissing me on my cheek it was as if I was in a dream but I was to scared to ask if it was real or not 

"thank you" I thanked her confusedly turning to Taylor "how-"

"honey don't ask questions relax" she rubbed my back I nodded as she walked away 

"what the hell I said a little bit of people Tay I-" I grilled her 

"you're important my love" she smiled blinking innocently  

the day went on to night as we danced and ate people cheered as I finally stood by the black balloon 

"this shit isn't right" Taylor said randomly as she was standing by me 

"what do you mean?" I looked over at her 

"Leo is outside with Ace-"

"what?" I made a face in disgust "why?-"

"honey what do you mean why? he is the father of that baby he should be here" she smiled as she talked looking around 

"Taylor he's a sperm donor" her eyes went wide 

"C-" her phone cut her off she quickly answered it walking towards the door 

"give me a second everyone" I smiled looking at Miguel side of the family they don't even like me why are they even here I sighed out of stress

Ant walked through the glass door with a disgusted look he sat down with his mother and Miguel 

Ace finally walked in and Ant almost stood up but Leo mean mugged him causing him to sit back down 

"alright everyone!" Taylor clapped her hands and the dj turned the music down while I held the balloon in my hand 

Taylor kept talking thanking the guess for coming Ace took a step next to me "surprise?" I rolled my eyes

"for what?" I snapped under my breath trying to keep my face expressions completely friendly "you've been gone for 6 months-"

"we'll talk later-"

"okay C pop the balloon" Taylor smiled as my mother watched and noticed how uncomfortable I was 

Ace picked up a sharp object too, as more men walked in I looked at Taylor confused as she was holding Ren in her arms bouncing him and smiling 

I guess it was Ace men who all started walking in I didn't even give it a count to 3 once I quickly closed my eyes and popped the balloon people started screaming 

Ace hugged me cursing in Spanish I opened my eyes looking at the little pink papers falling to the floor 

"she's going to be beautiful!" Taylor jumped with Ren in her arms I looked over at Ant and he kept a straight face as his mother smiled a little with force 

I tried my best not to cry but the tears wouldn't stop "I'm going to have a little sister! i'm going to have a little sister!" Miguel ran around the table to hug me 

I quickly pushed Ace off of me trying to pick Miguel up everyone started saying no as I reached down "you can't-"

"don't tell me what to do" I cut Ace off giving up on picking Miguel up I held his hand walking from around the table people started congratulating me I thanked them all 

people started eating the little cupcakes and went back to dancing Ace walked up to me with a cup I shook my head rejecting it 

"can we talk?" I nodded looking over at Ant who didn't stop looking over at us Ace took me to the back area where it was less noise 

"first I apologize" he swallowed "I'm going to have a beautiful daughter well we-"

"Ace shut up are you going to be here for her? are you going to fucking-"

"I will!" he yelled "for fuck sake I am fucking trying"

"HOW!? you been around for 2 hours and 1 month of this got damn pregnancy and you-"

"you know what the fuck I do and you're going to pretend as if I can play daddy Camila I can't be around like you want me to" at this point I started sobbing I was so angry 

"I don't need you and I damn sure don't want my fucking daughter calling you her father either because you can't even be that" he groaned 

"you're being so got damn dramatic" I scoffed 

"I barely know you I don't even know where you live I don't know your last name I just can't- I think it would be best if you would just fucking not be in her life-"

"not an option" he shrugged 

I cleaned my face looking at the huge stomach I now had I looked back up and notice Ant standing behind Ace quietly 

"come from behind me fuck face"

A/N 

I'm sorry LMAOJFNN I feel like when I started this I was horrible at freaking writing I still am but yeah