Letter

When I went back inside I found a letter on my bed and I opened it.

,,To my love,

I'm sorry that I left you in this way, that I confessed my love to you and left anyway.

I didn't even let you answer.
Maybe it was because I was afraid of your answer.
What if you told me, that you loved me too? Everything would have been so complicated, and I'd only feel worse.
And to be honest, I was even more scared that you wouldn't feel that way.
Even though it's egoistic of me to hope that you would feel the same way about me.

When I think back, I was always in love with you.
I wanted to be your princess from day one,
live with you and make our dreams come true.

I'm an idiot,
I could understand your hatred for me.
Just please try to understand,
my life doesn't make sense anymore.

My parents hate me.
I hurt and disappoint them every day.
I have no friends except you and I'm hurting even you.
How can I hurt you?
I don't want that, you should never feel this pain.
No matter what I do, I hurt everyone.
I'm a problem, nothing more.
All I'm capable of is hurting people around me.
Wouldn't it be better to go now before I break your heart too?

I miss my sister,
I want to see her again so bad.

I would like nothing more than to escape this life,
as soon as I get home,
my father beats me until wounds are visible all over my body.
I get abused daily,
mentally and physically.

It hurts, they hurt me.
I'm so sorry I'm leaving you for my own pain, you don't deserve this.

I love you, I do.

Please remember me, please get a dream castle and live in it with your princess.
Even if I wanted to be the woman by your side, I'm not.
It can't be me.

I'll take care of you from up here, okay? Remember your promise that we'll be reborn as birds.
Let's fly all over the beach together then.
But now, now you must build your castle. Please don't forget me, I hope I could get a little bit of space in your heart.
Just a little bit.

I will watch over you from up here.

I love you."