I was laying on the grass with a box, with gifts and with a soft smile plastered on my face. It's not everyday you see me smile usually it's when I won an arguement.

But you know as you grow older and older you realize the painful truth, the world is only filled with shit, hatred, and darkness.

   "Tord..." a soft voice spoke

I glance behind me meeting the blue eyed, purple hoodied Male

   "Hey matt it's time for Tom's birthday party?"

   "Yep! Hurry the guys are waiting!"

Hurry and running was now my worst enemy those words mean nothing to me anymore, I know I used to love running and beating everyone but with me having cancer and people expecting me to run, hell no.

So instead of coughing to death by running I walked breathing in as much fresh air as possible.

Once we made it back Edd just slam opened the door

   "Were back!"
   "About time! Tom open your presents now!"

I stand far back hiding the presents I got for Tom. It was heavy but no one saw it thankfully, I slowly place it down making sure I didn't sign it.

   "Really edd? One Smirnoff and 5 bucks?"

  "Its the thought that counts"

  "Right. Not like I'm gonna think about how I bought you a a fancy cat bed with 9,000 dollars"

Edd rolled with eyes pretending to not hear him.

Wow no one is grateful for what they got for  their birthdays.

   "Thanks for the mirror that I wont ever use and 100 bucks."

Matt smiled happily.

I stand by the wall arms crossed still waiting.

I notice Tom looking at four more presents

He grabbed the biggest one opening it fast

  "Woah!! A whole Smirnoff package to last for two whole fucking months"

As Thomas the tank hugs his package Edd and Matt look a bit confused before signing to each other

Did you get him that Matt?

No and I most likely didnt get him those three either.

Another gift.

A new bass

Another

10,000 grand

Last one

Fancy checkered sweater

   "OKAY WHAT THE HELL GUYS YOU TWO ARE ACTUALLY THE BEST!"

I sip on my glass of water looking at the three hugging and waiting for their reactions

   "Uh your welcome...?"

He doesn't need to know

   "Let's eat and put the music on blast already"

He doesnt give a shit about me anyway

   "Already Matt? Ok jeez"

Just like them right?

Suddenly a playlist of rock songs turn on, the first song is across the line by linkin park.

   "Tord! Have some cake!"

   "No thank you."

I cant enjoy any sweets or junk food anymore. I'm not allowed to the doctor said.

   "Tord.."

Before I could say anything Edd just opened my mouth and shoved cake in my mouth.

The sweetness overwhelming me with mixed emotions, the chocolate making me feel complete.

But I spit it out in the trash annoyed

   "Tord come on you know you want some-"

*sploosh* *sploosh*

   "TOM STOP YOUR WASTING THE ALCOHOL STOP SPILLING IT!!"

   "WH- YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE EDD! LET ME LIVE MY LIFE"

   "HEY GUYS I FOUND A FOG MACHINE"

   Oh no..

Tord thought to himself silently as he grew more anxious, he had to stay in clear air as much as possible

Last time he was near a fog machine he nearly passed out and coughed blood

   "TORD COME LETS DANCE!" as matt began to drag him into the foggy mess along with the loud booming music

Tord covered his ears feeling like he was going deaf as the room around him was spinning slowly

Stumbling into the washroom he slammed the door so hard that it jammed but it was no use

The fog came from the creaks engulfing the bathroom soon becoming hell for Tord and his corrupted lungs

This was getting bad

Feeling liquid coming from his mouth he swiftly turned around and particles started to come out of him and into the toilet

That's when everything just became a blur

As he heard the loud music damaging his ears as he covered them

Nothing helped

He felt horrible

He couldn't breathe but he could also breathe it was very heard

And then he just passed out dying I guess

I AM BACK AFTER YRS xd