I woke up and saw that I was alone in bed. "He left..." I sighed and figured that he would've, considering that he brought it up last night. I coughed harshly and watched as a handful of petals were now strewn about. I still refused to believe it, believe that Jacob doesn't love me anymore. I know that love isn't forever as I've dated others before him, but there was something about Jacob that said he's the one. He said he felt the same way and it was obvious he meant it. What could possibly be making him lose interest in us? In me?

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I found myself making mistakes as I worked today, and was scolded every time by my superior. I quietly stood by the wall then saw a coworker sidle over to me. "This isn't like you. What's going on?" "Nothing." "We know how you work, and this isn't it." "Drop it, Danwoong." "Just be careful, okay? We care about you." I heard them walk away then hurried to one of my tables. As I cleared the table, I dropped one of the knives and kneeled to pick it up, only to drop everything as I felt nothing but pain in my arm. "Oh my...Are you okay?" I managed to weakly spit out an "I'm okay." as I hurriedly picked up the fallen dishes.

I inspected my arm where the knife had sliced my skin and was disgusted by the sight. I heard someone come in as I was placing band aids on my cut. "Mr. Ji." I knew that voice and it was one I didn't expect to hear again so soon. "Manager Choi." I already knew what was coming as I heard from Hyunjae about other employees who were fired. You get a lengthy lecture then you're handed your pay for the next payday and told to never come back here to work. "Changmin, I'm sending you home." "P-Pardon?" He patted my shoulder then left. I had expected to be fired on the spot, but I was being sent home instead.

I sat cross legged on the couch and stared blankly at the wall. From the stories I heard, Mr. Choi didn't seem at all friendly, but today proved that wrong. I coughed and found myself getting used to seeing petals scattered around. I thought back to what Eric said and wondered if breaking up was the right choice. Was our relationship beyond saving? I shook my head then called Jacob. He didn't answer, so I left a voicemail and waited. I wanted to see him, to hug him. I lied down and closed my eyes, eventually falling asleep.

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I woke up and saw it was close to becoming dark. I checked my phone and saw I had quite a few messages from Juyeon, Hyunjae and others. It made me happy to see that they cared about my wellbeing, even if it wasn't serious. "Why can't Jacob be like that..." I replied to them all and felt myself tearing up after seeing that Jacob hadn't contacted me back. I continued to cling to this hope, this ray of light that Jacob was still the Jacob I fell for and started dating. It felt stupid and pathetic. I felt stupid and pathetic.

My phone lit up and I picked it up while wiping my eyes. I opened the message from Jacob then nearly threw my phone across the room in rage. I opted for throwing it at the couch and proceeded to cry again. Is he even aware of how his actions are affecting me? Maybe this is what he wants. I started thinking that seeing me like this made him happy. Seeing me suffer made him happy, no matter how sick it sounded. I wanted nothing but for Jacob to be happy, so I decided to go along with it.