"I demand answers." "I was looking for that photo Jimin took of us at the fountain." "You could've asked me. Why did you really sneak in?" He sighed then showed me a book that was hidden behind his back. "My book..." It was his book of songs. Why was he taking it? We haven't even sang all of them together like we planned to. "Why..." He didn't answer me and I subconsciously gripped the bat tighter. "I asked why, Jacob." He looked away and I found myself throwing the bat at the wall above my bed. I slumped down onto the floor and broke down in tears. "I didn't think they meant anything to you anymore..." I flinched at his touch then tried squirming away from his hold.

"Changmin...quiet down..." His voice which used to soothe me sounded like death's calling in my ears. I had lost it that night. Everything that I had been bottling up had come spilling out and there was no stopping it. "Why are you doing this to me? Do you love me or not? I'm tired of all these excuses to not see me then act all sweet when I come around as if nothing happened. Why won't you just tell me how you're feeling? Why..." I cried more as finally voicing my feelings probably had a big consequence and could ruin whatever was left.

He was silent and I decided to keep going. "I don't know what to do anymore. You just suddenly stopped caring and it's made me like this. My work is suffering, my coworkers are more worried about me than you. I want you back Jacob. I thought suffering like this made you happy, but it's only making me worse. If you don't want to date anymore, just say so. Don't drag it out...Please..." I wiped my face then looked up at Jacob. I couldn't tell if he was sad or didn't give a fuck at all. "Changmin..." I knew what was going to come next, but it still hurt. I prepared myself to hear the words, those heart wrenching words.

"Can you free your schedule for our anniversary?" I looked at him in shock as that wasn't what I was expecting. "I know I haven't been the best boyfriend, and I apologize for that. After hearing your true feelings, it made me think as well. The truth is that I really am falling out of love with you. I didn't like it, but it continued to grow. I didn't know what to do, so I gave up. I still care about you, and I always will. I want to love you again and this anniversary trip can play a part in the deciding factor." I cupped his face then planted kisses on his cheeks. "Even if we do break up, just know that I'll still love you. I can't imagine being with anyone other than you." He leaned into my hand and hummed in response.

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I woke up and found myself staring nothing but white. I sat up and realized it was only my pillow. "He left again...It's not surprising..." I heard the door open and saw Jacob walking in with a glass of water. "Thank you." He sat down next to me then pulled me onto his lap. I placed the half empty glass on the nightstand then felt kisses being planted on my neck. "Not now..." Despite me saying that, my body wanted more. I felt Jacob's cock as I attempted to move and it was clear that he wanted it to. I broke free of Jacob's hold then pinned him down onto the bed. "I want you, Changmin."

As much as I wanted to, I felt I was being used to relieve him. I let him go then left the room. I hid in the bathroom and refused to come out when he called out my name. I felt thankful for having enough respect for myself to not go through with it. I knew it wasn't Jacob's intent, but after last night, it made it appear that way. Most of our day was spent on opposite sides of the bathroom door.