Feelings and Memories
Jerastus 21, 2196
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GEORGIA
Georgia Kaye Alas

"Where else do you think they can be?" Hindi ko mapigilang tanong nang hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin kaming naririnig na balita mula kay Aeryn, Lowell, at Jax. At mas mahirap 'yon. Hindi namin alam kung ano'ng kalagayan nila.

I just hope that the reason that they aren't found by the Phantoms... is that they really aren't here in Fall. They are in Summer.

Napapikit ako nang mariin nang maalala ang tungkol kay Aeryn. Hindi ko siya magagawang gamutin, unless conditions are met and everyone knows it's close to impossible.

Even Lucifuge thinks so.

Hindi ko na tinago 'yon mula sa kaniya. I might not have told him everything I talked about the warlock, but he knows at least that. He doesn't need to know about my powers or identity.

"We'll know, mi amore. Don't worry too much," he said as we spar with our daggers in this empty room.

I'm sure dinala kami nina Heidi at Haden sa base ng mga Phantoms. They were dumb enough to do that- Lucifuge... hindi ko makumprima kung nakakabasa rin siya ng mga utak kagaya ko o naririnig niya lang ang ilang boses sa utak ko dahil ng telepathy namin no'ng battles.

But if it is the former, he might know my secrets now. That I am also part of the phantoms.

"Why are you still pretending in front of your real fiancé, Crown Prince?" Hindi ko na napigilang tanong.

I wasn't good at expressing my emotions, but it bothered me. How he's still gentle with his actions towards me. How he still calls me endearments. How he is being overprotective. How he makes me feel safe. How his eyes wander around mine when there's no need to.

And until now, he does it. He doesn't say a thing but he stares at my eyes, as if he is looking for his answer.

"Lucifuge," tawag ko sa kanya dahil nanatiling hawak niya ang kamay kong may hawaka na patalim at nakatutok malapit sa kanyang leeg. If in a distance, it would seem like he's holding my hand that is resting on his shoulder.

His grip softened, causing my dagger to fall on the ground. Ngayon, totoong nakapatong na ang kamay ko sa balikat niya. My instincts pulled me backwards as his face moved closer as he crouched to my level.

I stumbled. Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa balikat niya, ngunit mas lalo ring humigpit nang saluhin niya ang likod ko gamit ang kabila niyang kamay.

Bumigat ang paghinga ko lalo na nang maramdaman kong halos magdikit na ang katawan namin. Sinubukan kong kumawala, pero mas lalo lang humigpit ang hawak niya.

"Lucifuge!" I hissed.

Now, his eyebrows furrowed as he stared at me. "I-" he breathed and licked his lips before continuing. "I can't seem to find an answer for you, love. I don't think... I don't think I'm pretending."

Then, he rested his head on my shoulder. Because my hair was short now, I could feel his skin on my neck. Hindi ko mapigilang umismid nang maalalang ginagawa niya 'to habang hindi ko naman 'to totoong hitsura?

Again, as if he's read my mind, he growled. "I see your real appearance in whatever form you are, Georgia. Isn't that why I recognized who you are?" He said, still burying his head on my shoulders.

He's got a point. Hindi ko akalaing makikilala niya ako no'ng panahong 'yon. Just how can he do that? I surely wouldn't have known him if he had another appearance.

Hindi naman na ako nagsalita pa pero gusto ko siyang itulak palayo. Tinanggal ko ang kamay ko sa balikat niya bago sinabing,

"Mabigat ka... umayos ka...," nanghihinang bulong ko, kahit hindi naman totoo. Kung may pupuna man ng bigat, siya dapat 'yon. Halos buhatin niya na ako sa higpit ng hawak- ng yakap niya. He's taller so obviously he either has to crouch to reach my shoulder or carry me or both.

Unti-unti namang bumitaw si Lucifuge hanggang sa nakaayos na ako ng tayo. 'Yon nga lang ay hindi pa rin ako nilulubayan ng kamay niya. His hand slid to my fingers and carressed them.

"Sorry," aniya sa malalim at mahinang boses, kaya tila umugong 'yon sa buong silid. "Hindi ko rin alam kung ano'ng ginagawa ko. I'm trying to understand too, Georgia. I just- I just know that I'm not pretending. Whatever I'm doing for you, to you, is-" He muttered a curse softly and tore his gaze. Tumingin siya sa baba kung nasa'n ang mga kamay namin.

"All from what I feel, and I'm trying to figure it out too."

Then, before I could even speak, the surroundings changed. We looked like we were in a room, and just by the entrance or a corner because of the bookshelves by our side.

Lucifuge was still right in front of me, holding my hand- except that his expression changed.

Mine did too.

We were both smiling at each other.

"So ano na tayo ngayon?" He asked, giddily. Namula ako sa tanong at napairap, kahit na nangi-ngiti-ngiti.

I just shrugged, so he pouted, but the smile never left his eyes. Like earlier, he buried his head between my neck and shoulder.

"Come on, Georgia. Tell me, hmm?"

Nagulat ako nang halikan niya ako sa leeg, pero mas nagulat ako sa tunog na nagawa ko nang gawin niya 'yon. He slowly pushed my back against the wall and his kissed went up to my jaw, then to the corner of my lips.

Humiwalay lang siya at may ngising nakapinta sa kanyang mga labi. "We do this, but you can't tell me what we are?" Malungkot niyang saad na taliwas sa ekspresyon niya.

"I want to know you're mine," dagdag niya. Napakagat ako sa'king labi at marahang umiling sa kanya. But I knew I was controlled to do that... as if I am just an observer of everything that's happening.

"Oh, you aren't?"

Tumango naman ako bago nagbuntonghininga. "Pero akin ka," sagot ko sa kaniya, malamig ang tono at ma-awtoridad.

Natawa naman si Lucifuge at hinalikan ako sa noo. "If that's what you say," saad niya sa gitna ng mga tawa niya.

"Can you leave a mark on me so the whole Phoenix Academy would know that I'm yours, Georgia?" Mapang-asar niyang tanong.

I almost barked a laughter, but I just sighed. "Gusto mo ba talagang gawin ko 'yon, ha? Pa'no nalang mga nagkakagusto sa'yo?" Sarkastiko kong tanong.

"Oh, that reminds me," he answered and chuckled. "If you mark me, they'll go away. But since you don't want me to claim you, then... maybe I should just scare those boys who like you?" He joked as he carressed my hair softly.

"Huy, 'di nakakatuwa 'yan!" Banggit ko't pinalo nang pabiro ang kanyang dibdib. "You should set an example. You're the governor of Hell, something like that."

He smirked more as he put a strand of my hair at the back of my ear, then traced my neckline with this finger. "I am setting an example, Georgia," he said. "They shouldn't mess with my angel, or else they'll witness hell. Don't you agree?"

Napasinghap naman ako nang bumalik kami sa reyalidad. Sa nanlalaking mata ni Lucifuge, alam kong nakita niya rin kung ano mang nakita ko. It's something between us. It must be a memory. From our past.

Mas lalong lumala ang tensyon sa pagitan naming dalawa kaya't hindi ako nagdalawang-isip na umatras. Until he stated the awkward obvious.

"We were together."

Nagkunot-noo naman ako nang ulitin niya pa 'yong katagang 'yon. Hindi ko rin matantya kung ano'ng pinaparating niya.

"But that clearly isn't the answer why," saad niya pa, tila kinakausap ang sarili. Pinanood ko lang siya habang tinitingnan ang sarili niyang kamay... ang kamay na hawak ko lang kanina.

"Why what?"

Umiling naman siya at parang kawawang aso nang iangat ang tingin niya sa'kin. "I'm sorry," ulit niya. "Us being together in our past life might be the reason behind all my feelings for you... but I don't want that. I don't want to feel something just because it's from the past."

"Ano'ng ibig mong sabihin, Lucifuge?" Diretso kong tanong dahil hindi ko naiintindihan ang mga pinagsasabi niya, o wala lang talaga akong ideya.

"Georgia," marahan niyang tawag. "Alam ko, noon pa man, na parte ka ng nakaraan ko. Ng nakaraang buhay ko. But... I don't want that. I don't want to consider you as a part of my life before because I know that if I do... whatever I'm feeling for you will be affected. Say I loved you back then. It might be true, but if I say it now, would you believe it?"

Hindi naman ako nakasagot. Unti-unti ko nang naiintindihan kung ano ang gusto niyang iparating. Ayaw niyang isipin ko na ginagawa niya lang lahat ng 'to para sa'kin dahil ng nangyari sa'min noon. Dahil may nararamdaman kami para sa isa't isa noon.

"I don't want you to doubt my feelings because of our past, so whatever we saw, let's bury it. I- I will figure it out. I'll tell you. I won't confuse you. Just... just give me time," he mentioned.

Tumango ako kahit na hindi ko alam kung tama nga bang balewalain ang nakaraan. Hindi kaya itinakda ng tadhanang magsama kaming muli dahil may kailangan ayusin... sa nakaraan?

Discovering Summerland
By lostmortals
Plagiarism is a crime.

Filler chapter i guesss KSJSJSJSHAHAJ but im on my knees, Lucifuge JK.

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