hey.

i just want to start off and say thank you for the love and support you guys have given me on this book. never in my life did i EVER imagine reaching almost 5k reads, and coming back on here after so long to see that has genuinely been such an amazing surprise. i am ever so grateful for the love & support that i've gotten on this even though i've been gone.

i apologize for disappearing—i would've loved to continue writing but my life has just been outlandishly busy (it still is) but now that a lot of the chaotic parts are done, i've been able to sit down and really look at this book and think for a second.

im not satisfied with 90% of what i've published. the older chapters of this book are trash, the plot i somehow whipped up at 1 in the morning isn't stable, and there's very few concrete plans for this book. i can't see myself continuing this in the future. i don't want to work on something that i'm not satisfied in, especially with the limited time i actually have to work on this book.

i love writing. i really do. it's one of my favorite hobbies to do on the side. but honestly, looking through what i have, this book has turned into more of a chore than a passion project. and i don't want to do that.

i understand if some of you guys are left unsatisfied with what i'm leaving this book on, but i just can't bring myself to continue it. the behind the scenes of this are such a mess it's too chaotic to deal with, especially since i consider this a side project/hobby.

now, on that note, i do want to say this—i have plans to overhaul a lot of this and create a new book. i've already begun planning it, and i'm more excited for it than i ever have been for this one.

one of my biggest issues with this book is the lack of development i gave the characters. sam genuinely might be the most underdeveloped character i've seen. and obviously i'm being a bit self-critical, i'm sure as a reader it's not as bad as i'm personally making it out to be, but if i'm being honest the development i've given him and the other characters is disappointing. i want to do so much more with them which i haven't gotten the opportunity to do in this book.

another issue is the fact that when i first created this book, i walked in with close to zero plan at all. i feel like as a person, i've changed a lot over the past year, and i've developed a lot. i've gained new skills and perspectives that i didn't have when i started this book. and, when i try to continue this book, while only thinking about the plans i have in my head, rather than written down or documented anywhere, i feel like i'm working on an old project from years ago rather than something that's being currently worked on, if that makes sense.

the 100 is such a meaningful show to me, and i really do want to produce a story surrounding it that is satisfying. i just can't do it in this book.

i don't know when i will publish this new book, but i can say that it definitely won't be soon (by soon i mean within the next couple weeks). i really want to have a solid, detailed plan before i start writing. i want to create something that is complete, rather than slapped together almost lazily that i try to pass off as something i'm proud of.

i love you guys & i'm thankful for the support i've gotten over the past year. this genuinely means the world to me. i really do hope to see you in the overhauled/revamped version, whenever i do post it.

love, alexis.