"To be or not to be, that is the question."

I was alone.

I was always alone, no one seemed to want to take my side. No one seemed to believe me.

There was darkness around me, no one by my side. I was curled up in a ball. My eyes dull and full of nothing.

I was almost like a lifeless toy.

There was always betrayal and hurt surrounding me.

Hiding behind a mask that covered my face.

Who could I trust? They'll just end up hurting me.

Shutting myself away, hiding the scars with a smile because no one else wanted to see my story.

Maybe if I disappeared then things would be better. That's what they always tell me, and I'm now starting to think it might be true.

I'm just a 'child' that doesn't understand.

I'm just a 'ghost' that's forgettable.

A 'toy' that'll be thrown away eventually.

It was better for me to keep quiet. Better for me to hide.

No matter where I looked, I just saw pitch black. Trapped in a box that looked like an attic.

No one by my side.

Alone, always alone.....

No one would care for this weak, pathetic miserable person.....

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I lifted my head up once I didn't feel the cold floor under me. I looked around, still the same pitch blackness, but only this time, I saw someone.

A raven-haired male reach out his hand towards me.

I stayed still, not wanting to end up being used again. Afraid of letting people get close to my heart.

He walked up to me and grabbed my hand, leading me forward in the darkness. I just followed closely behind.

The further we walked, the more people I saw along the way. The further we walked, the more I heard people chant my name.

Eventually while we were still walking he let go of my hand. I didn't seem to notice as I kept walking forward on my own.

The scene around us began to change, items and merchandise began to appear, albums scattered the floor. I occasionally saw penlights placed around.

Soraru smiled as he watched me by his side. There he goes.

We continued to walk forward, the darkness starting to fade the further we got. And soon I saw a group of people up ahead.

Amatsuki, Luz, Nqrse, Sakata, Urata, Shima, Senra, Araki, Un:c, Sou, Eve, ShounenT and other people that I've met along the way.

All of them smiling and chatting with one another.

Then Soraru stopped me, gesturing to the pitch black doors a few feet in front of us.

I could see some light shine through underneath them.

I carefully walked to them, as I passed by a mic appeared in my hand. I unconsciously held it tight, it seemed like the normal thing to do. I opened the doors and found myself on a stage. The light slowly disappearing.

The stadium was dark, the usual pitch blackness as before. I felt a mask, the same mask that I used to hide my face, wrapped around my mouth.

Grabbing it, I take it off and let it gently fall to the ground. My face now completely visible.

Soon the lights appeared and 35k people were staring at me, their penlights lit up as they waved them around and smiled.

I glanced to the side to see my friends watching me, smiles all over their faces. Soraru gave me a thumbs up, a smile began to form on my face.

I gripped on the mic tightly and lifted it up so it'd be close to my mouth.

Then I sang. With all my might.

Tears fell from my eyes as I did what I enjoyed. Everyone in the audience sang along.

I looked at my friends, their faces full of joy and proudness. My gaze moved to the raven-haired, the one that helped me. Warm feelings poured into me as I continued to sing.

I went from someone recording in an attic and being treated as nothing to someone performing on a stage for thousands of people that I call my fans.

By the end, I was crying, unable to handle the joy and emotions escaping me. Everyone else around me just smiled, tears also in their eyes as they enjoyed the concert.

I felt someone pat my head, looking up I saw my friends smile at me. Mics in their hands.

I glanced back at the mic in my hand, a strong grip as I looked up.

The scene changed to an empty stadium. Tomorrow.

I looked back up at them with a confident smile, they returned the gesture.

I turned to look at Soraru, the one that I admired, the one that decided to form a unit with this weak person..... the one that didn't give up on me through those times.

I don't know what would've happened if I hadn't met him. I'm glad I get to perform with him on stage.

Thanks Soraru, thanks everyone.

"To be or not to be, that is the question"

I always had the answer to the question, but it's changed by now.

The answer that I'm proud of, the answer that shows that I've bloomed.

To be performing on stage for a crowd of thousands.

To be in a unit with a partner I will always cherish and care for.

To be alive and enjoying my life.

To be the Mafumafu that I've grown to be.

That is my answer.

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A/n

I'm so proud of Mafu ( ;w;)

He grew up to be the utaite we all know and love and his face reveal shows that he's confident and comfortable now

I'll continue supporting him forever, do you best Mafu!!