A/N this is a true event, it happened yesterday. But don't worry, I'm fine now. I made this just to rant a bit and also to practice writing emotions and abstract sort of stories. Another thing, I added a reference in the beginning. The first paragraph of words Jess says is from a song, if someone guesses the song, they get a free Oneshot request despite the requests being closed. Good Luck! 

Requested by: Me 

Jess's POV

I'm hurting and hurting and hurting. Stabbing me and burning, enduring, enduring. I'm seeing and seeing and seeing. Nothing, disappearing to bleary and bleeding. Right out of view..

It's been a few hours since my brother has been pronounced dead. He fought against Romeo at the final battle. If I wasn't such a scary cat, if I only ran quicker that time, then maybe...

" Romeo! Let him go! You monster!" The torture and despair stayed trapped inside of me as I watched the scene. Romeo, adminfied, stood there, holding my brother by the head. Jesse looked at me nervously. My hand trembled as I tried to get a grip. Why wasn't I moving? I needed to help my brother! He's the only person I have left! I need to-

There was a loud crack but it was inaudible to my ears. My eyes snapped open. My emerald pupils filling in tears as I slowly fell down on my knees.

Romeo....h-he..." You killed him! " Petra yelled from another building. The same rage burned inside of her. My eyes twitched and stayed fixed on the admin, that cold killer. In his hands was the head of an innocent hero.

He dropped it on the ground and the head rolled its way towards me.

I backed away as I saw his expression, his dead expression. I began to cry as I kept staring at it. My brother Jesse was now dead....I have no one now. I'm all alone in this cruel world. " Defenceless? " Romeo grinned whilst floating over me. I couldn't look at him the same way now. I thought...maybe he was just a misunderstood individual but now? I know the horrifying truth of the admin.

" Shut up..." I mumbled. Romeo tilted his head in confusion. " What's that? "

" She said die you miscreation! " Petra swung her sword in Romeo's direction. Her sharp gold blade hit him in the back. He flinched as it made contact with his back. He turned his head around and faced the girl. " You will regret that."

He floated up, Eyes flared and lifted his hand up. The gingerhead girl was taken by force up in the air. "Petra! " Lukas who came behind me snapped.

Romeo looked at him, with fake pity. " Want your friend back? Well that's too very bad. " he gave a sinister laugh as he closed his fist. The warrior began choking. He face was swollen and it was turning purple.

I sat there, helpless....hopeless. I couldn't remember much after those events. For all I know, admins shouldn't be trusted whoever they are and whatever they had become. I didn't care who I sent away was innocent, I didn't care of what they would think of me, I just wanted my brother back...

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Tick tock, tick tock.

It was midnight. The doctors went home and Lukas agreed to stay with me for the night. He even insisted since he knew that I couldn't be left alone at a state like this. I clenched my teeth as I felt his gentle hands lift me up and put me on his lap. " Let go of me! Monstrosity! " I screamed out of the blue and with rushing fear. Lukas gave me worried eyes and shook me slightly in a reassuring way. " Hey hey, it's ok. It's just me. " he told me.

I took a deep breath and began crying again. He patted my head gently and yet calmly. " It's ok Jess, I understand your pain. " he said to me. I ignored him and looked away, while resting my head on his shoulder. He looked at the ceiling, the clock was still ticking. He sighed. " Romeo is in jail like you asked...and Xara...well she there too. Did you really think it was a good idea to put her there though? She's not an admin anymore. " he reasoned. My eyes narrowed. " Don't question my judgement ".

Lukas apologized and brought up the second piece of news. " Petra hasn't woken up yet. After all Rom-I mean 'he' did choke her bad. " he announced.

I stared blankly at the wall for a few minutes. I was thinking about how happy I used to be with Jesse..and all my friends. Nothing could forgive what has happened. My heart is shattered and it will stay like that.

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"Lukas will I ever be happy again? " I asked quietly. He was actually surprised that I managed to talk to him after a short while. Without hesitation, he nodded. " Ofcourse you will Jess. It just needs time. "He told me. I gave a small smile. There was one thing with This blonde in which I truly admired.

His perseverance and determination to never give up. He knows that I've hit rock bottom and yet he isn't annoyed of me?

Just then, he pulled me even closer to me and kissed me lightly on the lips.

My eyes were blank. I didn't even notice he was kissing me. My attention was fixed on the clock. Tick tock...it didn't stop yet. He then pulled away as I tried to talk. I didn't know what to think about what just happened.

" I may be a pest to you Lukas. " I say but he didn't reply to my statement since he realized my face was turning white. My eyes looked droopy and I tried to keep a stable posture but it failed me. " Jess...you don't look so good. "

He placed his hand on my face. It may be white but it was burning up.

" Jess?! What's happening?! " he yelled.

All his screams....his pleads...they sounded like an echo forgotten in time. I couldn't hear, I couldn't see. All I know is that it was pitch black. My body was aching but at the same time, in peace. At that, I knew what happened.

" Jess! Please! Wake up! "

I fainted.