(Seliel's POV)

I don't know why but I just can't stop myself. The kiss had a creamy taste to it and my lips won't disconnect. I was in pure bliss and admittedly, he kissed a lot better than Cole.

I need to break it off, but I notice something.

Jay doesn't stop.

He just keeps on exploring my mouth and I feel a very drunk right now. Finally he breaks off the kiss and scoots back in the couch with his facial expression never changing from pleasure. Then he starts his iconic spazzing.

"OhmygodSelielI'msosorrypleaseforgivemeI
didn'tmeantobutyouwereleaningcloseandmybodyreactedasitwouldifNyawasdoingthat
and-"

"JAY! Calm down, I honestly don't know what came over me either! But let's not-"

"Oh my god, Cole is gonna rip out my intestines and hang me with them if he finds out! So will Nya! And they will do the same to you and afterwards they will barbecue our organs like a-"

I give him a quick slap. Not hard, but not soft either. Jay immediately stops his mindless rambling and calms down and I continue my sentence.

"Now Jay, can we please discuss this like adult and not like preschoolers?"

Jay nods but his eyes tells me that he wants to say something else. "If you want to speak them don't hold back."

"How are you so calm?" He says in a voice that could barely be classified as a whisper.
"Because I know that neither of us meant to act like that."

But Jay counters with, "But I'm pretty sure both of us...enjoyed the kiss."

I look at him wide eyed. "You...you enjoyed it?" Jay looks at me shocked. "I...I mean, yeah kind of! But it could have been us just seeking comfort from our fallouts tonight."

"Okay look Jay, let's please just not talk about it."

"But-"

"Look, I'm going to bed. But remember, tomorrow we have to make a video about our 10 million subscribers." Jay is still sitting there shocked, then simply nods.

Within a few minutes, I'm in my sleepwear, getting into bed. Nya's sleeping face is turned towards me and I can tell she cried herself to sleep. Poor girl, I feel extremely sorry for her and kissing Jay didn't help heal my guilt.

But my mind asks me a question and I just before I drift off to sleep, I answer it.

I don't think that...that I regret the kiss. Nor do I want to forget it.