boxers
cold
open window
"you listen to me"
i have to
no choice, no say
no matter the situation
down i go
no blankets
no warmth
no love
no appreciation for the soul
for being
out the window
booklet, cards, full
stolen, disregard
grudges still run as though
an epidemic

crawl
shimmy under
he knows if you don't
he will see you in bed
he will hang you from the bed again
you helped then, but never knew how
bad it would truly be
but here right now
under his weight
you're afraid he'll crush you again
this happened before, his whole self
the complete wrecking ball of a boy
suffocating you, crushing your chest
no pleads for help, you know
no one ever listens, no one ever
wants to help you out,
even when you beg and beg and beg
so you stopped begging at one point
no one wants to listen so you don't speak
no one pays attention, so there's no need to

under this bed
looking up up up
i'm so cold,
shivering cold
it's winter
why has he done this?
why does he hate me?
why does no one appreciate me?
day after day, i try my best
i do well in school, i do my work
there's nothing wrong with me
yet everyone acts like there is
and how? they don't even know me
i don't even know me
so don't lie when this was a
punishment
because of my behavior,
he slammed my head into a wall
and said it was fine
a hole, my head made a hole
he shot a BB gun into the TV
because he thought it was funny
and i'm the one laying awake under his bed
shivering, cold, it's so cold 
why is everyone so cold to me?
why, why, why?
no one hears my question, no one gives an answer