Dean's POV

The entire ride to Orlando was awkward and that's partly due to the fact that I was silent the entire trip.

But it wasn't just me.

Renee and Roman spoke for a while in the front seat, but eventually grew quite themselves. Roman attempted to start up a conversation a few times but it eventually died back down to silence. Often he just turned around and said my name before pausing and sighing, then turning around again.

They knew how I got when I was upset so I'm sure my attitude didn't really faze them. If anything, it probably worried them.

You see because silently in my head, I was already planning to tear someone apart, who that may be, I don't know yet.

Hell, it may be Seth just for fun.

For the first time in a long time I'm actually living up to the nickname 'Unstable' because I truly was.

One minute I was crying to my hearts content, the next I was boiling with anger.

Cheating really fucks up your perspective of everything.

Like why me? If he loved me he wouldn't do this to me. If he care about me, he wouldn't do this to me.

If he cared about his physical health he wouldn't do this to me either cause when I see him I swear I'm going to... I don't know... I really just don't know.

Hours passed before we rolled into the city of Orlando and soon found the arena that we would be preforming in tonight.

"Finally." Renee said once Roman had parked and she had opened the door to get out and stretch, "I got things popping that should never pop."

"The way you word things..." Roman mumbled while getting out the car himself, me filling after him.

"Get your mind out of the gutter Reigns." Renee told him as she walked around to the back and popped the trunk, "So I was thinking the whole ride, Dean, and I was thinking something good."

"Such as?" I commented, only half listening as I grabbed my bag.

"Ok so you know how whoever this is sent you a basket right?" She asked and I nodded, "Well maybe we could make them a basket."

"Renee we don't even know who they are-" Roman tried to comment but she hushed him.

"Now here's what I'm thinking." She told me, "We can put all types of explosives in the basket, literally just obliterate this bitch right? We can even put a smart ass little poem attached to a string that blows everything up. I've been thinking of a poem the whole way here. It can go Roses are Red, body bags are black, cash me ousside bitch, howbow dah-"

"Renee no." Roman said with a sigh, "I'm pretty sure that's like, capital murder."

"Must you always interrupt my flow?" Renee said as she glared at him, then turned back to me, "It's a good plan, right."

I gave her the best smile I could, "It's brilliant Nae, but I just don't think it's gonna happen like that. I just... I need some time to myself right now alright? I'll see you two later."

Not sticking around any longer, I make my way to the entrance of the arena before they could say anything else.

The attitude of the arena different from how I felt.

Everyone excitedly buzzed around, seeming happy and cheerful while I was all gloomy.

I sighed as I made my way down the hallway, passing through catering and onto the adjoined hallway that held my dressing room.

Several people spoke a 'hi' or 'hey dean' to me but I remained silent as I passed through.

As I glanced around the room, my eyes land on the man of the hour and I shook my head.

He stood surrounded by people such as Kevin, Sami, even Randy stood amongst him as they laughed about something.

As I continued to stare, Seth happened to glance up. At first not noticing me and flashing me his cute, laughable smile. But as his eyes set on me, a look of worry began to take over his features, then seemed to excuse himself from the others.

'Nope.' I thought to myself as I speed up my walk.

"Dean." I heard his voice say but I continued to walk.

"Dean, hey." I heard his voice say again as I turned onto the next hallway.

I simply shook my head, but soon forced to stop with a grab of the arm.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I shouted and yanked away from him, "Do. Not. Fucking. Touch. Me."

"Dean what's wrong-" he started to say but I stopped him.

"Leave me the hell alone!" I shouted at him, "Just fucking go away."

"I'm not gonna go away!" He shouted at me, "You think after all I've done, I'm just gonna go away?"

"Yes!" I shouted back, "So get to fucking stepping!"

"What did I even freaking do, can you just explain-" he tried again.

"How about you explain to me." I growled at him again, "How about that Seth?"

"What did I even- What the hell is wrong-" he started to say then groaned, "You know what? How about I just tell go, and you come talk to me when your ready. You obviously need space."

"I need a lot me than some damn space." I shot at him before angrily continuing on my path, leaving him there in silence.

"I fucking hate you." I mumbled under my breath as I felt a lump form in my throat, "I fucking you so fucking much."

By the time I reached my room, my checks were already streaked with tears and my vision was blurred.

As soon as I unlocked the door, I threw my bag onto the floor and found myself holding myself up against the wall of the room.

I didn't wanna be touched. I didn't want to be bothered. I didn't wanna be messed with. I didn't wanna be talked to. I didn't wanna fucking to be lied to anymore.

I brought a hand up up my face and wiped my cheek that was stained with the cold tears, only to have hot ones wet it once again.

I wish he would have never told me he loved me.

Maybe then it wouldn't hurt so bad.

But no, he just had to care for me, to make me feel important.

He made me feel like I was his everything and now I feel like I've been fucking lead on and misused.

I woulda, coulda, shoulda let him have it right then.

I woulda, coulda, shoulda just beat his ass.

But I didn't.

But honestly, could I have really done that?

*****
the love y'all showed for that poem in the last chappy make me wanna cry. 😭😭😭
It was an original.
So maybe I can make a career out of makin that krappy shit
#thereishope 😂

And HEY
Thanks for the questions
It's it NOW CLOSED.

let's just give your some time to answer them.

Love you guys.

P.S. Sorry there isn't another chapter :/ I SHOULD BE UPDATING THIS WEEK AGAIN.