The Sky was beautiful,  fluffy clouds jumping all around. The sunlight felt like pillows enveloping you in hugs. You didn't wanna reject but as your back was hugging the trunk of the tree. The head of your loved on laid on your lap, you were smiling up above him. He always thought and said 

' You look like a beautiful fragile Angel My love , I am so lucky to be with you '

Gou smiled at his cheesy pick up lines, how he always said many girls will be flocking over him while you become jealous for him. You didn't want him to feel like he wasn't being loved so you admitted happily.

" of course Zen I'll be jealous, you're my husband we've been together for years. . . "

He was smiling softly as the winds blew with the sounds of birds chirping in the sky. The trees softly going with the wind, no matter the beauty it will still fall. His beautiful ruby eyes were staring at you with pity. His eyes would close whenever he would stare at you with pity. You move his bangs, his long beautiful albino white hair it was soft. You gently took his head off of your lap , he opened his eyes with a bit fear thinking you had left him even though you didn't. In fact, you just wanted to lay your head against his broad chest. His beating heart against your ears, the way he can easily make you blush with a peck on the lips. The way he spreads his fragrance around you. He didn't want his fragrance  scent to go on you. Instead, he wanted your smell of sweet smell of flowers and chocolate.

As you lied down slowly laying your head on his chest. His arms wrapped around you tight but gentle. Whenever you two cuddle his heartbeat makes you calm, no anxious feeling trying to crawl up and you were glad you just wanted to stay like this. No mistakes, no lies, no secrets. Though there always been one, what person doesn't always have at least one secret ? you shared everything with Zen but did he share everything with you? Did Zen wanted to stay like this forever? Rotting like a dead corpse next to a lover?

He hugged you before planting a small kiss on the top of your head. He gently stacked his chin above yours add his hand behind your head rubbing his thumbs against it. You smiled as your cheeks blushed red. He was on his right side,one arm under your head and one above your waist bringing you closer to his warmth heat. He popped the question knowing you might react furiously thinking he might be cheating

" Love, No matter what we'll never part right ?

Tou looked at him with a small smile tilting your head a bit removing your arms around from Zen's side. Your small fragile hands led to his cheeks. Your voice filled with joy and happiness that will soon be filled with sobs and cries.

" I will always be here for you My Love , "

Rightt then and there Zen wanted to break down and say that he will forever be loyal to you but then again... Could he even mean that? He wanted to cry and give you nothing but sweet quotes and everything. He stayed there with you. Moving your hands from his face to his torso. You hugged him closer towards you, distance between your body lessened to no space at all.

" The future will tell us , it will be up to both of our choices to either stay and leave. . ."

You paused, you took in a harsh breathe. When your eyes met with his ruby red eyes. Both of you staring intensely.

" My choice is to stay Zen . . ."

" No matter what I will always be here . . . "

Some thing made him feel like death as it hurts he held his chest 

"It's my forever choice to stay beside you,"

"Even if you cheat Zen. . . i'll always be here,"

For how much he regretted, it wouldn't pay the debt he created. A debt he can never pay back.

As a heavy sob left his mouth, harsh breathing came out with tears flowing down his soft tear stained cheeks. His red orbs are now accompanied with pink outside, his own hands harshly gripping his long white hair.

" Zen. . . Why ? Are you that fucking stupid?! "

The only question he has now but he knew the answer to that. He can't give a reason to explain. It pains her more and more.  Scarring both their minds deeper than his scars he created himself.

Zen is now sitting up on the side of the bed. Large sobs escaped him,heavy breaths hurriedly paced out. A hand made circles at his back a small feminine hand trailed all to his chest as her breasts went over his back to hug him 

" It's been 8 years since Your girlfriend died. . . Why can't you accept me instead ?"

8 years since your, death. Your face showing in his own mind. His cries rises and became louder. He raised his face to notice a small hand of a child held his hand. A small child, the age of 8 years old.

A child with your beautiful eyes, seeing her father cry everyday. He stood up, leaving his pouty girlfriend away as she huffed and went away. Step by step, his legs dragged him to the child. Describing her in his mind. The adored albino child with her mother's beautiful eyes.

He adores the small child. He loves the child. No matter what they do, he would always love the child even when his current girlfriend thinks of them as a burden. He would choose the child over her anytime.

His sobs went louder to notice the little person was hugging him. He smiled and hugged back. It was only his and only your child, with your beautiful eyes and white silver hair . The child you bared before dying.

The question you gave him through a phone 8 years ago

" Zen, will you promise me to take care of our child? No matter what?"

" Of course my darling," He promised.

" Good, no matter what okay ? "

A promise she knew he will break.

"You already know the answer to that Y/N,"

A promise she knew the answer to.

" I hope you have a great life Love ,"

All she could do was hope that her child can live without her. A life she could hope that her child lives with a loving father.

The line cuts off before he could ask, he shrugged it off and went back to his other girlfriend. When he was riding on his bike to the theater to practice. His phone buzzed non stop, he ignored it knowing it might be you or his fans. When he decided to check it, he was already done with practice inside the theater reading it all.

' 4 missed calls from the hospital '

Ring ring

' 5 missed calls from Jaehee '

RING ring ring

' 5 missed calls from Jumin '

RING RING ring

'4 missed calls from Yoosung '

RING RING RING

His own phone ringing so loud inside the theater that it echoes.

' 6 missed calls from Seven '

silence

' 1 voice mail from Y/N '

All the ringing stopped.

' What is the matter with all of these calls? Jesus if 7 is having another prank on me, I'm done ' he thought,

He answered a call from seven as it said currently 

" Zen what the fuck? Get your damn ass here in the fucking hospital"

" Yes? Is something the matter  ? "

" Please just . . . Can you go here now in the hospital please? "

The tone was sad and hurriedly sounded like something tragic happen, sobs escaped Seven's mouth. Zen thought it was a prank and answered.

" I'll go later , my birthday is on April 1 not today,"

Zen didn't believe it one bit and thought this is just revenge.

" Zen this is not a — "

Seven was cut off the phone as Seven clenched his phone and threw it down. Yoosung is sobbing against your side. Jumin yelled loudly as he punched the walls. Jumin's knuckles bleeding with Seven screaming.

Jaehee was trying to stop her sobbing as she kept on calling Zen to notify him. Nothing can be done.

Many hkurs later , many more hours that the RFA stayed by your side. With you lying there on the bed with blood surrounding you. The hospital already tried their bestrevive you till they realised you were long gone too far to reach out.

Zen came to the hospital with his bag parking his bike. He walked inside to see Jumin and Seven furious after so many hours Jumin just punched Zen as he held his jaw. Jumin yelled so loud at him

" Why didn't you go here earlier ? ! "

" This is just another prank isn't it ! ? " Zen yelled back holding his bruised up cheek

" What do you mean prank Zen ? A hospital called you do you think they would have pranked you ? ! " Seven yelled back grabbing his collar shouting at him his fists were so clenched they could have been mistaken for bones

" OH YEAH ! " Jumin finally made a sarcastic respone

" Do you think I will ever prank to you about Y/N's DEATH ? ! " Jumin emphasizibg

Zen just noticed a few tear stains on Jumin's cheeks , he knew Jumin never cried. He examined Seven's red eyes tears falling so much. He just took in the news 

" What do you mean ' death ' ? She never died, she just left me a voicemail , "

Seven let go and told him " Get your phone out now, and listen to it , "

' Hey Zen , You promised me that you will take care of our child right ? Ha ha I did tell you earlier to have a good life. . . and that life was without me . . . I know you about cheating even before i got pregnant . . . I left it alone knowing you would be asking why i was stressed out. I thought you'd leave her eventually but you didn't. Though I was glad you never put pressure on our child . . . though I'm tired. . . I'm tired of being a mistress , I'm tired of lying and being deceived like I don't know. Move on with your new one, I know I can never give you so much like your Ex's 

Thank you for treating me better like I never deserved it because I don't. I'm telling you about this through voice mail. I know you would've thought I was crazy. I know that...'

A sob cry out from her voice. She was crying... Zen heard many items move but one sound in particular caught his attention. Metal sounds, flesh being cut.

' you would've ignored me again. Even through that. I am willing to die as yours through thick and thin, rich or poor, through better or worse. I am your wife and I love you ' 

His tears broke out still having the voicemail from 8 years ago. He listened more and more to your voice at the end. Your voice cracked at the end , he would always reply with an ' I love you too ~ ' as he did even to the voice mail

He left the RFA long time ago. The others knew you were hurt ever since they discovered you seeing him with another female in a kissing each other. They never despised Zen because you asked them not to. You were smiling in your deathbed with a letter in hand, blood surrounding you Like red flowers flowing underneath a beautiful angel. 

" Papa? Why are you always crying every night ? " His little angel asked him as his current wife let go of her hand around him. Zen answered back as he kissed his little angel's tears away staining (his/her) cheeks 

" Because of how beautiful you are knowing. I will probably be never be able to see that again once you grow up, "

Memories flooding through Zen's mind . He wanted to go after you but he knew the child depends on him better.

That one sentence you have put on that letter was 

"Thanks for the memories my love,"