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Last month thoda time bacha bachakar do Chapter likhe , so here's a double update for you all. Hope you will like it.

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Bani's POV

"Ahhhhhhhh... "

We shouted together. And he suddenly stood up and I adjusted my duppatta.

"Why am I like this???? What happened last night? Did we... NO! NO! NO! "

I said as tear formed in my eyes.

Isiliye sab kehte hein Alcohol is injurious for health. Mental health ki toh pehele se band baji huyi thi aur yahan abb pata nahi kal raat kya hogaya.

"No.. No.. Bani.. Tum galat samjh rahi ho.. We.. Last night.. Nothing.. "

He was fumbling with his words making me more nervous.

" Ouchhh.. "

I said holding my head as the sharp pain again struck me.

"Hey.. Hey .. Just a second.. "

He said and opened a drawer.

"Pehele mere sawal ka jawab toh do.. Why Did I wake up like this.. Kal raat kya hua humare bich..? "

I said being worried.

He brought the medicine box and handed me a painkiller.

"Take this Bani, you will feel better. "

He said and poured water from the jug in the glass giving it to me.

I had the medicine. As I was gulping the water I was looking at him. The truth setting in again. I was married and the man in front of me was my freaking Husband.

"Thanks.. "

I said softly.

I was waiting for his reply but almost for a minute there was just an awkward silence between us. He didn't say anything. Was this how our married life was going to be.. Awkward?

"Bure halataon ko talne se woh khatam nahi hota, unn halaton se ladna padta hein unhe khatam karne ke liye.. ".

He said finally and I frowned. What did he mean?

" What do you mean..? "

I asked.

"Aksar log sharab ghamon ko bhulane ke liye peete hein par usse gham khatam nahi hota. "

He said and now I understood.

"You drink yourself and you have problem with women drinking? "

I said being a little irritated. Yesterday was tough for me and of course this headache was adding on to my temper.

" Yehi toh problem hein, jab do log batein karte hein toh dusre ki baat dhyan se sunne ke bajaye hum apne counter agreement ke barein main sochne lagte hein.. "

He said with a placid expression.

"Subah subah paheliyon main baat karna band karo Veeranshu. Aur kal raat hum.. "

I was about to complete my sentence when he placed his index finger near my lips. His finger didn't touch my lip but a single move and they would touch.

"When did I say women can't drink ? It's their choice but they should drink when they are comfortable not when they want some sort of escape from their lives. In fact not just women it applies to men as well. That too guessing from your reaction it was your first drink. What if you did something for which you couldn't forgive yourself or what if somebody took advantage of
your state? "

He said and I felt guilty. Yes he was absolutely right.

Limit main peena galat nahi hein lekin peene ki jagah aur wajah dono galat nahi honi chahiye.

"So last night.. "

I asked indirectly still waiting for a confirmation from his end.

"Bani, I don't know what you think about me but I am not somebody who would take advantage of a girl. I know how much the dignity of a woman matters to her and I can not even think in my worst dream to do something so heinous. "

He said looking a little hurt.

"Veeranshu.. "

I said but was soon cut off by him.

"Please... Listen Bani.I don't want to embarrass you but last night you didn't let go off my hand and I guess you thought of me as someone else. .. "

He said avoiding eye contact with me. Shit he was hurt and I messed up. Don't tell me I took that coward's name.

"Really Bani, you are speaking as if you don't love him anymore? " My heart taunted.

"I might still feel something for him but I don't like him anymore. He had lost my respect. " My mind reiterated.

"And then you were feeling uncomfortable... So you put off.. Your dupatta.. "

He continued saying still looking down.

Way to embarrass yourself Bani. I am glad I don't remember last night. And feel sad at the same time for hurting him. He didn't deserve this treatment but he deserved the truth too from my end. The truth of my feelings and this relation.

" You freshen up Bani.. Then.. "

He said.

"Veeranshu.. "

I said holding his hand as he started leaving. I felt a jolt with our touch, just like the first time. He turned looking at me with an uncanny expression.

"Thank you once again.. "

I said with a soft smile and stood up.

"Kal ke liye main sharminda hoon. And I am very grateful that you took care of me.

Veeranshu sach kahu toh I am still not okay with everything that happened but I Know it wasn't your fault too.

Tumne apne parivaar ke liye ye shadi ki aur main apne parivar ke liye iss shadi ko nibhaungi. Main Dad ko maaf nahi kar sakti lekin hein toh woh mere pita hi aur iss parivar se khoon ka nahi par dil ka rishta jur gaya hein mera.

Isiliye main iss rishte ko puri ijjat dungi..Bita hua kal aur uss bite kal ke log koi bhi iss rishte ke bich nahi aayenge.

Sorry agar kal maine kuch bewakoofi ki ho toh "

I said and a soft smile formed on his face.

"You don't have to apologize Bani. I know how tough this is for you. Feelings are not in our control and you can take all the time you want. I will always be there for you. "

He said and was about to take my hand in his when I said something that again hurt him.

"I can never love you Veeranshu.. "

I said in a go and he retreated his hand.

He was hurt and seeing the pained expression on his face was killing me too but I can't lie to him. I don't want to give him high hopes and then shatter his dreams.

"I.. I... I understand.. "

He said and left the room.

I sighed. He deserved better. Someone who would love him with all her heart but I can't be that someone.

I am already broken and picking up broken pieces only pierces the one who is trying to fix it.

But I knew what I should do from now.

Agar usse main apna pyar nahi de sakti toh apna dard bhi nahi dungi.

I thought and went near to my suitcase.
I picked up a pink saree with full sleeves blouse. There was something very enchanting about this saree and that's why I had picked it.

I went to the bathroom and had a shower.

But as I came out the biggest realisation hit me.

Saree bandhni toh mujhe aati nahi!!!!

Chill Bani, Bela bhabhi hein na. She will help.

Yes!!

I was talking with my conscience when the door creaked open and there he stood dressed in a white shirt and black pants.

Veeranshu. I would be lying if I said he wasn't looking good. Moreover he was dressed in white. The colour that had become my favourite. I felt a little prick in my heart.

But that's when I realised the situation. I was dressed in just my blouse and petticoat .

"SHIT! SHIT! SHIT!.. "

He mumbled and turned around.

" I am so sorry Bani.. I didn't know.. "

He continued rambling.

"It's okay I understand ye humara kamra hein aur mujhe ye yaad rakhna chahiye tha.. "

I said still facing the other side but I could feel my statement calmed him down.

"Can you please send Bela bhabhi or Maa..".

I said being embarrassed for the zillionth time.

" Ye.. Yeah.. Sure.. "

He said and left.

I sighed. I tried putting the saree at the edges of the petticoat.

Note to self : Aage se sirf ready made sarees!

I was still struggling when the door again opened and I expected maa or Bhabhi to enter but it was once again him who was standing near the door with his eyes closed.

"Bani..! "

He said and I again looked at him. He looked so cute at that moment closing his eyes and covering it with his hand. I almost chuckled.

"Where is Maa or Bhabhi..? ".

I asked.

" Bani actually Bhabhi is feeding Mihu and Maa.. She.. "

He said and I could sense the sadness in his voice. Last night the way maa reacted I knew that would have hurt Veeranshu.
I was angry too but honestly Maa didn't do the right thing. I know she is his mother. But it was clearly Teer's fault.

"It's alright.. I will try to watch some YouTube video and drape my saree.. "

I said sighing.

"Umm..Ba.. Bani.. "

He again fumbled. Man he looked really cute fumbling like that.

"Cute haan..? "

My inner self teased me.

"Toh kya hua Cute toh koi bhi ho sakta hein? Aese toh phir sabse zyada pyar mujhe Rohit saraf se hota."

My mind retaliated with an internal hair flip.

"Haan bolo.. "

I said.

"Main help kardu..? "

He asked .

"WHAT?? "

I asked in shock.

" No. No Bani.. Main apni aakhein band rakhunga don't worry. Actually kuch hi der main pooja ka time hojayega aur aaj aarti humein karni hein toh bas isiliye.."

He said.

"If you are uncomfortable I understand."

He said being concerned.

" Sure. Help me.. "

I said and he turned. His eyes still close.

" You sure right? I don't want to force you.. "

He said when I put my hand on his mouth.

"Shhhh... Kitna bolte ho. Abb meri madad karo."

He still open his eyes but I sensed that he freezed.

Ohh shit! I brought my hand back.

Flow flow main pata nahi kya sab karti rehti hu main.

He doesn't say anything and nods.

I help him get a hold of my saree. He held it and moved around me as I keep tucking in the ends. I know his eyes were closed but why was I getting this tingling feeling.

He then made the pallu and brought it close to my shoulder to place it there. I could feel his breathe on the crook of my neck. And for a second I felt like he stopped. I turned to look at him which led to out lips being inches apart and my breathe hitched.

I saw him from so close for the first time. Of course at the day of the sangeet when he saved me from the fall I had seen him but that day we had so much lighting and noise contrast to today when everything was calm.

He was handsome.

" He is not Teeranshu Bani.. It's just the same face. The emotions that you are feeling is what you had for Teeranshu.. "

My mind said.

" Exactly He is not Teeranshu Bani. "

My heart said.

Wait a minute did my mind and heart agree on the same thing!!!??

" What I mean is he is not Teeranshu which means he isn't a coward and liar. He is pure. And your emotions are due to his genuineness. "

My heart said.

That's true.

Chehre ke ek hone ke baad bhi dono bohot alag the.

"Pallu thik lag raha hein..? "

He asked slowly.

"Raita faila ja raha hein.. "

I said being lost in my own world.

"What..? "

He asked and I came out of my trance.

"Haa.. Haann.. . I mean sab bilkul perfect lag raha hein.. "

He nods with a light smile.

He then holds the saree and starts making the pleats. With every pleat that he made he moved a little closer. My heart was beating insanely fast with every step that he took towards him.

I was never in such proximity of any man and I guess that was affecting me.
He reached his end as his knuckles lightly grazed my belly. I felt his breathe labouring.

He immediately took his hand back as I held the pleats and tucked it in.

"Ca.. Can.. I open my eyes now..? "

He asked slowly as I was putting safety pins.

"Ye.. Yeah..! "

I answered still in some sort of effect that he casted on me.

He slowly opened his eyes. I was standing in front of the mirror adjusting my saree as he looked at me through the mirror.

I was dressed in the pink saree , the wet strands of my hair was falling on my face and the laces of my blouse was open.
His gaze upon me somehow made me feel something.

It almost felt like he was... Like he was worshipping me with his gaze.

Our eyes are those jewels that reflect our intentions.

It's so weird right that the eyes without even touching or speaking can convey thousands of emotions.

"May .. May I ? "

He asked hesitantly to tie my blouse and I just nodded.

He slowly moved forward and put my wet locks on my shoulder.

Though he was tying the strings of my blouse, he didn't look at my bare back rather kept an eye contact with me in the mirror.

I really didn't know why but this eye contact felt even more intimate than him seeing my bare back. It felt like he could see my bare soul through my orbs.

"Hogaya.. "

He said and took a step back. I controlled my heaving chest and that weird feeling in it and turned to thank him.

"Thank you Veeranshu"

I said with a soft smile but that's when I noticed something. I noticed Teeranshu's ring.. Our engagement ring on his finger.

" How could you wear this..? "

I said with a frown very evident on my face.

It was a new beginning but the demons of past were not going to leave us in peace so soon.

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