Bani's POV

The sunrays fell upon our room as I slowly got up. Last night I hardly slept for three hours. I just couldn't sleep. It was hurting alot. My heart was in Unbearable pain.

Yes I thought Teer doesn't exist for me anymore. I thought he was my past which will never haunt me anymore but last night when I read that news my heart broke.

How? How do people get over bonds so easily? How does people's feeling change so easily.

I did hate him but that soft corner which I despised the most was still there for him.

Those words. His care. How can someone fake so well?

Was I really so stupid that I couldn't see his real face? Was I really so love blinded?

Seeing him kiss someone else after all the promises he made was a brutal hit to my heart.

But yet again another thought came in my mind that made me feel guilty. Even I was about to kiss Veeranshu yesterday then how was I different from Teeranshu?

Just like him, even I turned out to be a person who changed her feelings so easily.

How am I better then ?

I told him that I couldn't love him and yet I gave him so many hopes yesterday.

"But you did all that genuinely. You didn't fake anything. Then what's the
problem? "

My heart questioned me.

" I am broken and I will end up hurting him "

I said to myself.

He is a pure soul.Last night he didn't question me. He didn't even express any anger and went to sleep after putting the comforter on me.

No. No. I can't play with his heart.
It's better we stay far. At least till I am no longer in any sort of confusion or guilt or doubt.

I got up and went to the washroom tip toeing .

"Jaldi naha leti hu phir nikal jaungi toh hum milenge nahi.. "

I thought and went to the washroom.
I showered and wiped myself.

But that was the moment I realised that I left kurti on the bed.

OH SHIT!

I slowly peeked and didn't find anyone.
Did he go for a walk ?

I thought and immediately started going near to the bed when the door opened and I halted.

"Oh.. I.. I am.. So so.. Sorry.. "

He said being flabbergasted as he lowered his gaze.

I just had a towel wrapped around me and my undergarments.

I turned to avoid the eye contact.

So much for ignoring him? Nahi Bani?

I mocked myself.

"C.. Can you give me the clothes ? "

I asked still facing the other side.

"Ye.. Yes.. "

He said and went near to the clothes and picked it up . As he moved towards me his gaze was still lowered and I could see him in the mirror.

Always a gentleman.

My heart said.

"Ye lo Bani.. "

He said and I extended my hand still looking at his face through the reflection .

I held the cloth and pulled it towards me, not realising how sudden my force was.
Veer moved closer to me and I turned abruptly realising what I did.

As I turned my towel was about to fall as he held it with his hand and I got pressed between him and the dressing table.
His eyes we're now on me and our hearts were beating insanely. The tension between us was definitely heating our cheeks. We could feel each other's breathe.

He kept looking at me but didn't look below where my cleavage was on complete display.

"Be Careful Sweetheart.. "

He said Huskily almost as if he was fighting with his urges.The same urge that I was feeling within me.

Those sinful urges. No Bani, how can you be so shameless.

I thought and pushed him a little.

"I.. I am.. Okay.. Thanks.. "

I said and immediately went inside with my breathe labouring.

No! No! I need to stay away from him. Yes that's the solution.

I changed and came out but now he was no where seen. I filled my hairline with the Vermilion and put lip balm.

Today was my day off after yesterday's Annual function.

I heard a knock on the door and found Bela bhabhi there with Mihu.

"Good Morning Bhabhi and hello Mihu meri jaan.. "

I said and both Bhabhi and Mihu smiled.
Mihu extended his cute hands for me to carry him.

"Ohho toh Mihu ko chachi ke paas jana hein.. "

She said and I held Mihu in my arm.

"Aww my baby.. "

I said kissing his cheek. His smile genuinely took away all my tension.

" Tum thik ho na Bani"

She asked.

"Haan Bhabhi mujhe kya hoga.. "

I said acting non chalant.

" Mahir ji ne uss news ke barein main bataya mujhe.. ".

She said and I felt a little heavy again.

" Jo bit gaya uske barein main kya baate karna Bhabhi.. "

I said patting Mihu softly.

" Jo bit gaya usske barein main socha bhi nahi jata Bani par tum abhi uske barein main soch rahi ho matlab woh bita nahi hein.. "

She said and I looked at her vulnerably.

" Itna aasan nahi Bhabhi.. Jiske sath puri umar bitani ke khwab dekhe usse kisi aur ke sath dekhna.. ".

I said controlling my tears.

"Bilkul bacha main samjhti hoon. Kuch din kafi nahi mahino ke baton ko bhulane ke liye lekin kisi ke dil main jagah banane ke liye kuch din kafi
hein.. "

She said.

" Main samjhi nahi bhabhi..".

I said.

"Bani.. Main janti hoon Teer ka dhokha tumhe taqleef de raha hein. Ye soch kar ki tum jis gulaab ke liye katon par chal ne ko bhi tayar thi, aaj woh kisi aur ki roshni main khil raha hein usse taqleef hoti hein. Par kyunki tumhara woh gulab jhutha nikla iska matlab ye toh nahi ki bageche ka har phool waisa hi ho. "

She said and now I Was slowly understanding what she was talking about.

" Tum khudko aage badhne se rok rahi ho kyunki tumhe dar lag raha hein. Teer dhokhebaaz nikla ye soch kar tumhe dar lag raha hein ki Teer se judne main toh mahine lage phir bhi woh dagah de gaya toh phir abb baat toh ek aese insaan ki ho rahi hein, Veer ki, jo tumse kuch dino main jud gaya.. I saw you guys yesterday.. "

She said holding my hand.

I knew she was right. I was hurt but thinking about getting more hurt in the future was haunting me. If Veeranshu ever did something like this the remaining emotions in me will die. Thats why I thought maybe staying away was better.

"Bhabhi it's not that simple.. "

I saw Mihu had dozed odd to sleep as I put him on the bed and got up.

" Then make it simple Bani, follow your heart. "

She said making me face her.

"Bhabhi main confused hoon. Khud hurt hone se dar lag raha hein, Veer ko hurt karne se dar lag raha hein aur kabhi kabhi toh lagta hein shayad main aur Teer ek hi jaise hein. Shayad issi wajah se maine Veer ke sath bas kuch dino main rishta bana liya. "

I said at verge of crying.

"Khabardar jo aese phir se compare kiya..tum aur Teer ek nahi ho. Woh Tumhe dhoka dekar , jhuthe wade sunakar bhag gaya kisi aur ke sath aur tumne apni family ke khushi ke liye iss rishte ko ek mauka diya. Tumhare aur Teer ke bich antar kya hein janti ho?

Anatar hein iss mangalsutra ka, iss sindur ka jo Veer ne tumhare mang main bhara hein.

Tum apne Pati se rishta jod rahi ho Bani. Woh Pati jo apni Patni se beinteha pyar karta hein.. "

She said and my heart beat fast at her words.

"No Bhabhi its not love.. Ye dil itni jaldi kisi ke liye nahi dhadakta hein.. "

I said.

No he couldn't love me. He shouldn't love me. What if I end up hurting him.

My emotions were all over the place.

"Haan Bani par ye dil tutne ke liye ek pal hi kafi hota hein. Abb tum par hein todne wale ke liye apne Jaazbaton ko chupaogi ya jodne wale ke liye apni inn insecurities se lad jaungi.. "

She said holding my shoulder.

"Main Mihu ko lekar jati hoon.. "

She said and left .

Now I was again alone in my room with my thoughts.

Bhabhi's words were moving in my mind.

I had developed feelings for Veeranshu... Didn't I? I don't know if it's love but liking for sure. It wasn't just a physical attraction but emotional bond too. And That scared the hell out of me.

Yes I felt guilty because as soon as I saw Veer's care and warmth , Teer's thoughts stopped coming in my mind.

But why I am feeling guilty?

The one I like is my husband. That husband who every girl would die to have. A loving and respectful partner.

Why should I distance myself from the most fragrant flower in the garden of my life for a flower that pricked my soul.

I just realised, how stupid my whole ignoring idea was. How I will end up hurting him more due to that.

I sighed at my stupidity.

I should do something to make him feel special just like how he made me feel.
Par kya kar sakti hoon?

Oh yes I can cook something which is his favourite.

Bhabhi ko puchti hoon unko pata hoga.

I went down and found Bhabhi sitting with her laptop.

"Bhabhi.. "

I said cheerfully.

" Haan meri jaan boliye.. "

She said with a smile.
.
"Thank you so much. Aap nahi hoti toh main bohot galat faisla leti.. ".

I said hugging her.

" Abb main kuch itni bhi khas nahi.. "

She said mimicking shinchan.

"Aww Bhabhi.. You are so cute. "

I said pulling her cheek.

"Ouch..dekh gaal mat khich warna main serial wali jethani ban jaungi.. "

She said and I laughed.

" Aap waisi nahi ban sakti because you are the best ..aur ek baat bataiye aap kal din main kahan gayi thi?".

I said.

" Main apne maike gayi thi..Acha bohot tarref hogayi.. Abb bata kya chal raha hein tere dimag main? "

She said .

Maika. The very word reminded me of Dad.

"Bolna Bani.. "

She asked again.

"Woh Bhabhi mujhe janna tha ki Veer ka favourite khana kya hein..? "

I asked.

"Ohho toh humari devrani ji surprise plan kar rahi hein.. ".

She teased me.

" Bhabhi boliye na"

I said  .

"Usse khadi chawal bohot pasand
hein.. ".

She said and I smiled.

" Main dinner ki tayari karti hoon "

I said  .

"Accha haan aur Bani. Teekha bilkul bhi mat dalna , Veer can't handle spice. ".

She said and I got shocked.

He can't handle spice? But yesterday then.. Oh my god why didn't he tell me.

Meri khushi ke liye usne teekha kha liya.

I thought and unknown feelings invaded in my heart.

Par hein toh woh aisa hi, koi usse kitne bhi zakhm de de par uske hothon par uff bhi nahi aati.

How is he so inocent?

Aane do lekin aaj class toh main lagaungi uski.

He again endured pain which I don't want him to.

I soon came to the kitchen and cooked the whole meal.

Soon it was time for dinner.

Mahir bhai and Dad came from the office but I couldn't see Veer.

Bhabhi helped me in getting the food on the table.

"Bhai Veer..? "

I asked.

"Usse thoda late hoga Bani.. "

He said.

" Acha aao sab khaiye.. I will wait for him.. "

I said.

"Ohho Veer ka favourite banaya hein.. ".

Bhai said and I blushed a little.

" He is crazy about it Beta.. ".

Dad said.

" Yeah he always likes plain things.. ".

Mrs Singhania said with her bitter tone.

I didn't pay heed to her and continued.
Soon everybody left and I was waiting for Veer sitting on the couch.

" Kafi jaldi aage badh gayi tum.. "

Mrs Singhania said sitting beside me.
Not now yaar!!!

" Aapka beta bhi kafi aage badh gaya "

I said reminding her of the news. I know they all are aware about it. They just didn't speak about it in front of me to not make me feel bad unlike Mrs Singhania who had developed a hatred for me for not waiting for her son who abandoned me.

" Kya karta, intezar karne ke liye koi layak bhi toh hona chahiye "

She said and now my anger was at its peak.

" Shayad aapka beta bhi aapki tarah hein aunty, koi uske hisaab se na chala toh usse badnaam kardo.. "

I said and she shot me a glare.

" Tumhe maine kya samjha aur tum kya nikli.. "

She said 

"Maine bhi galati kardi aapko aur Teer ko samjhne main "

I said.

"Sahi kaha galati toh ki tumne par list par ek aur naam add karna bhul gayi.. Veeranshu ka.. "

She said with an evil smirk.

" Veer jaisa samne ya waisa hi piche. Bohot accha insaan hein woh.. "

I said.

" Bilkul itna accha ki bachpan se jo khilone Teer tod deta tha, usko bhi jodkar woh usse khelta.. Janti ho kyun? Kyunki usse daya bohot aati hein"

She said and now I felt like crying.

"Agar uss din tumhari jagah maine usse kaha hota kisi bhi ladki se shadi karne toh woh kar leta.. Isiliye khudko khas mat samjhna.. "

She said and I was breaking from within.

"Mujhe kisi ke validation ki zarurat nahi khas mehsus karne ke liye.. "

I said firmly.

" Good. It's better you remember you are a charity case and he just pities you".

She said and walked away.

I don't know why I couldn't answer more.
No I was not a abla nari type person but today her words really stung me.

CHARITY CASE. PITIES YOU. YOU AREN'T SPECIAL TO HIM.

Her words echoed in my mind and heart.
Tears fell from my eyes.

Did I really mistook his pity for feelings?

I soon heard the door opening and I wiped my tear.

Veer entered looking tired.

"Bani you are still awake..? "

He asked.

Is his words also fake like his brother or just to make me feel better.

" Yeah.. ".

I said.

" Are you alright? "

He said with concern.

How can he read me so well.

"I am good. Come let's have dinner. "

I said.

He went to wash his hand and tucked his sleeves up as he took off the blazer.

He sat on the chair and brought the khadi chawal.

"Khadi chawal???? "

He said like a baby who got his favourite chocolate.

" That's my favorite. Tumne banaya? "

He asked joyfully.

" Yes.. "

I said.

He tasted it and smiled.

" I love it sweetheart. I just love it. Ji karta hein tumhare hath chum lu"

He said in excitement and then realised what he said.

He looked down on the food shyly and me I didn't know what I was feeling at the moment.

" Waise ek aur baat kahu, tumhe meri wajh se bhuka rehene ki zarurat nahi thi. Mujhe aadat hein rat main akele khane ka.. "

He said.

Normally I would have told him that he wasn't alone anymore but today I was pissed.

"Kyun? Dusro ke liye sirf tum cheeze kar sakte ho ".

I said and my voice came out rude.

" No Bani.. I.. I did'nt mean that.. "

He said with concern and my eyes softened.

" I know.. Eat Veer.."

I said.

" Tumhara din kaisa tha? "

He asked.

"Accha.. Bhabhi aur Mihu ke sath time spent kiya.. ".

I said.

" Mihu meri jaan. Kitna time hogaya uske sath khele. Bich main itni sari cheeze hogayi. Kaam ka pressure phir shadi ki musibatein.. "

He continued speaking but I could just hear "Shadi ki musibatein "

So that's how he felt about this marriage. A problem. A burden put on his shoulder.

"Aur phir Teer ka scandal.. "

He said and immediately regretted his words.

" I mean.. "

He tries changing the subject as I intervened.

"Itni kamzor bhi nahi hu main Mr Singhania ki aapko batein badalni pade.Itna reham mat khaiye mujhpar.. "

I said.

" Sweetheart I know you aren't weak. You are the strongest. Bas main iss waqt uske barein main zikar nahi karna chahta.. Let's talk about good things.. ".

He said.

" Waise Gharwali.. "

He again called me with that endearment that made my heart flutter.

" Aaj papa ne call kiya tha.. "

He said and I looked at him.

I had not spoken to my Dad since the day of my marriage.

" Unhone ne pat phere ki rasam ke liye humein parain bulaya hein.. "

He said

"Hum nahi jayenge.. ".

I said  and got up.

" Gharwali.. "

He said holding my hand.

" Maaf kardo unhein.. "

He said.

" Main sabko maaf kar sakti hoon par unhein nahi. Sabse kareebi ka dhokha sabse zyada dukhta aur chubhta hein".

I said 

" Bani par woh tumhare Papa hein and I can't see you so sad. Janta hoon tum unse milna chahti ho.. Unhe gala lagana chahti ho.. Unse complains bhi karna chahti ho par tum milna chahti ho.. ".

He said.

" You don't have to pity me Veer. Apne rishte main khud sambhal sakti hoon. "

I said.

" Pity? Where did that come from ? Bani I care for you. Rishta ka matlab hi hota sukh dukh ka sathi hona, shayad tu me bhul gayi humare phero ke wadein par main nahi bhula.. ".

He said.

And I saw that he was angry. I hadn't seen him this way.

" Konsi shadi jo tumhare liye musibat hein? "

I said in anger.

" Musibat? Sweetheart I didn't mean that this relation is a problem, I meant that the way things happened they were problematic. ".

He said softly realising what triggered me.

But I for some reason was still dwelling on Mrs Singhania's words.

She voiced out my insecurities. And that hit me hard.

" Tum dono bhaiyon main ek cheez common nikali. Dono kafi diplomatic ho.. Bas antar itna hein ki usse mujhpar taras nahi aaya aur tumne uski istemal ki huyi gudiya par taras khakar usse shadi
karli.. "

I said with tears in my eyes.

"BANI!!! ".

He shouted and pulled me closer with his grip on my neck. It wasn't that rough but still dominating.

I could see anger and hurt in his eyes.

" How dare you talk about yourself like that? "

He said angrily.

" Meri marzi"

I said angrily as well.

"Nahi tumhari marzi nahi. Kyunki main apni biwi ko bhi haq nahi deta ki woh meri biwi ke barein main itni batameezi se baat kare. Meri biwi gudiya nahi hein, mera guroor hein. Teer ka feka khilona nahi, mere jigad ka tukda hein. Toh agli baar bekar ki batein karne se pehele soch lena, warna main tumhe saza de baithunga.. "

He said with his grip still on my neck and waist. I got goosebumps for real but dare I admit my defeat.

" What type of punishment? "

I said looking in his eyes with the same fire as our nose brushed.

" A kind that will blur all the lines that you have created between hell and heaven, pain and pleasure . And mostly Between Me and you.. "

He said and his words made me feel thousand of emotions.

He left from there leaving me in shock.

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How was the chapter?

Bani is a mess. Her emotions are all over the place😫

Damn , also angry Veer is hot. Aapko kya lagta hein?👀

Did you like Bela And Bani's conversation?

Chandrakala's words created so much problem!!

Upcoming : Club scene and Bani manaofying Veer 🤭

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