I was in dilemma, what should I do. The baby girl started to cry again. I slowly swinged my hand to make her calm. After around 10 minutes, she stopped crying and closed her eyes. It seemed she felt secure in my arms and sleep.

I thought "isko ghar le jaati hun filhal yahan nhi chod sakti"

I started to walk to my house, in 15 minutes I arrived at the gate of my house. My mother was standing there. It seemed she was waiting for my arrival.

I stood in front of her, she questioned "Ahana itna late kaha tha na time pe aaya kar"

I replied "maa I am fine just relax"

Her eyes fell on the infant child in my hands. She asked "ye Kiska bacha hai?"

"andar chale pehle" I said and moved inside.

I straight went to my room, laid the baby girl on bed and made boundaries around her with pillows. The little moved her head in sleep lightly it seemed she was so comfortable. A smile appeared on my face seeing this.

I turned and found my mother standing in front of me with questioning look.

"bata mujhe kaun hai ye?" she asked

"mumma kuch gali pehle mujhe mili sadak ke kinare" I replied.

She was angered "what? Jab chahiye nhi hota hai to paida kyun karte hai beti.." she exclaimed.

"ye thinking na badli hai na badlegi mumma. Kuch log nhi badalte" I replied.

"Acha kiya ghar le aayi, ab kal orphaned chod aana. Waha pe orphan bacho ka ache se khayal rakhte hai" She suggested.

I shook my head, she said "chal fresh ho jaa tere papa bhi aate honge dono ka khana ek saath laga dungi main" and moved out of the room.

I sat down on bed and glanced at the child, she was looking so innocent and cute while sleeping. I adjusted the pillow, she opened her eyes and started to cry. I picked her up in my lap and tried to calm her down.

But she was not calming down, her cries were increasing. It seemed she was hungry. My mother entered inside the room again and asked "kya hua Ahana?"

"Mumma she is crying I think isko bhook lagi hai" I replied.

"Ahana.. She need mother's milk but iski maa kaun hai kahan hai we don't know" she replied.

I asked "mumma par hum isko baby milk toh de hi sakte hai na?"

"Haan.. par ghar mein nahi hai.. Dukan jaana padega" she said.

"Thik hai aap isko sambhalo main leke aati hun" I stood up and handed her the baby. I hurriedly moved out of the house, my father was parking his scooty.

He asked "kaha jaa rahi ho Ahana??"

I said "papa give me your keys abhi aati hun"

He handed her the key, I sat on scooty and quickly doze off. I arrived at the shop and asked for the possible baby things. I paid the shopkeeper and went back to my house.

I saw my father and mother playing with the girl, my mother came and took things from my hand. She moved into the kitchen, I moved to the little.

She looked towards me as if she was waiting for me. She chuckled seeing me. I took her in my arms the little grabbed my forefinger with her tiny hand.

My mother came and said "le ye dhudh pila de"

I sat down on the couch and started feeding her the milk.

"Aap khana kha lijiye" my mother said to father.

"Ahana.. Tum?" she asked.

"Mumma main kha lungi aap dono khalo" I replied with smile.

After feeding her milk, she slept in my lap. I kissed her little forehead.

I took her into the room and lay her on bed. Covering her with light blanket which I bought specially for her.

My mother called me for food, I moved a bit but she was grabbing my finger. I smiled and slowly removed it. I moved out and sat on the dining table.

"Ahana beta.. Paas mein ek orphanage hai wahi chod aana kal subah usey" my mother said.

I nodded but I was not feeling to let her go anywhere. In just few hours I was feeling so much attached to her.

After the food, I moved to my room. I changed and lay down on bed beside her. I thought "orphanage mein chod dun? Phir mujh mein aur iske parents mein farak kya rah jayega.. Nahi choda toh mumma papa sawal karenge kya karun main.."

With all this thoughts, I slept. I opened my eyes after 2 hours as I heard her crying. It seemed she was hungry. I took her into my lap and tried to calm her down.

My mother came inside and said "Ahana.. You need to feed her again"

I nodded, "mumma aap baitho yahan main aati hun"

I hopped off the bed and quickly went to kitchen. I warmed the milk a bit and moved back. I feed her again and she slept.

"Beta kal office bhi hai tumhara aise raat bhar soyogi nhi toh kaam kaise hoga?" Aditi asked.

"Haan mumma but ye bachi ko main orphanage nahi chod sakti hun" I replied.

Aditi was shocked hearing this "pagal ho gayi hai kya tu? Phir kaha chodegi isko haan?"

"Kya hum isko apne saath nahi rakh sakte hai hamesha?" I questioned.

"No ways Ahana.. Sab kitne sawal karenge kya sochenge haan? Aur abhi tumhari shaadi honi hai kitne sawal uthenge.. Kal subah tum isko orphanaged chodogi samjhi" Aditi said in warning tone.

I nodded, Aditi moved out of the turning off the lights.

I thought "mumma bhi sahi kah rahi hai.. Subah chod dungi isko orphanage" 

I agreed to send her to orphanage but my heart is not agreeing with my decision. I was again left in dilemma. Should I drop her to orphanage or keep with me? 

What will be Ahana's Decision now?

Stay tuned.