*WARNING SWEARING WILL OCCUR*
You have been warned; if you don't like swearing then go elsewhere

Anyway for those that are still around, hello.
This diary entry will be me just ranting and venting my frustrations. Sorry in advance since I'm writing this at 3am.

Now the topic of this rant will be on

Drum roll please

JOBS
Or better yet job hunting

I've had so far 6 interviews ( i know that doesn't sound like much) out of the like 20+ application. For 5 of them now I've been fucking rejected. I get it when someone has more experience then me but i need a job to get the experience to even be considered for fucking anything.

It's emotionally and physically draining to constantly be rejected. I've considered going on centerlink but my parents make too much money and even if i move out I'll still get nothing which is bullshit.

I've even considered giving up or being a fucking pole dancer/ stripper but i know I'd be rejected too because I'm so fucking ugly; my only chance is the experience i have in waitressing.

It's a huge waste of my time when i go into an interview all excited, hopes and dreams hitting the fucking sky, do pretty good in the interview then die internally when i find out the position is already filled.

Seriously, what's the point of fucking interviewing when in a week you'll tell me the position is already filled or i won't hear anything at all.

I'm getting so sick and tired of the same excuse. It's getting so hard now to be interested in the least to even try. I know my mum is all pround and shit cause I'm trying but I'm going no-where.

I'll probably be stuck leaching off my parents when I'm fucking 30 or some shit like that. I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep; at least then my dreams would be better then reality.

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Thank you listening to me rant and vent. I really need to get that off my chest. It was sitting there so long that it was causing me physical pain (mostly cause of stress and lack of sleep)

I hope some of you guys can relate to my struggles.
Till next time ~