November 9, 2019
Dear Diary,

I am going insane.

I went over Janelle's house today. It was amazing. Just us in her room, listening to music, talking, watching YouTube a bit. It was super fun. Lately she's been a bit distant from me and it's driving me crazy so it was nice to have her undivided attention for a bit.

Does that make me sound crazy? Why  do I care so much?

Anyway, at one point we were joking around and laughing and she grabbed my hand. It was innocent and sweet and literally meant nothing but for some reason I loved it. I don't know why and it's probably super weird but I didn't want her to let go.

I don't know what's going on with me lately.